Wednesday, November 11, 2009

7:28 PM

hello!(:

yay GP is overrrr!(:

heh:) well, i think the paper was quite okay

maybe it was because

i could actually find an essay question that i could do(:

haha but to my " horror"

it seemed to be the most popular question

drats. means more competition

haha but nvm lah(:

p2 was quite okay

first time i managed to finish the paper on time 5 min beforehand leh(:

heh i guess all those compre practices i did helped

at least i'm quite confident i won't get E for GP this time( unlike prelims)

haha :D

after GP, went hme with jolai,chinghsien and grace(:

in the end, me , jolai and chinghsien went post centre to eat(:

haha:D quite fun (:

heh i like being with the two of them heh(:

anyway, just a thought about a short conversation

that me and chinghsien had today(:

about how hard it is to actually help people ><

so just felt like blogging about it(:

well, taking the initiative to help people is tough.

i don't know why but it's just tough.

perhaps it's really because we fear rejection

but why? helping others is a good thing

and it's something we should always do

and yet there's this strong inertia called rejection

:( i think it's very very very pathetic:(

haiz. i wish i can overcome this inertia one day(:

anyway, i realised i should probably stop blogging about it

and go study for my IH

please let tmr's IH paper

be a good one for me
(:

JIAYOU PEOPLE(:

smile(:

Lyon

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

6:37 PM

hello(:

yay(:

i survived today!

my only day with 2 papers!(:

and i'm glad they both went okay(:

not that i will surely get very high marks

but rather, more that i really did my best(:

so i'm happy with my performance.

at least it didn't feel as uneasy as the SEA paper

which reminds me i need to study really hard for IH on thurs...

PLEASE LET ME DO WELL FOR IH(: (:

OH and i must do well for tmr's GP paper(:

i'm going to break out of the E grade!

i hope.. haha anyway this post prelim period

has been a period where i really think i worked the most for GP(although it still isnt alot)

as compared to the past ever since y5

so hopefully,

i'll reap my results tmr(:

all i have to do is to stay calm

believe in myself

and i can do it:)

OH and yay i received an email

i was really looking forward to today(:

so yup, i'll take that as a good omen

meanwhile, it's time to take a rest

and study my final bit of GP for tmr(:

jiayou people!

keep the optimism up(:

it works!(:

smile(:

lyon

Monday, November 09, 2009

9:49 PM

hello(:

just a quick post before i go and do my last bit of revision >.<

today's SEA paper was , well, according to ms k- easy

but somehow after i finished the paper,

didn't feel as happy or satisfied as i felt

after the prelim SEA paper

well, i did manage to finish all 4 essays

did do my best

but just something felt uneasy

so couldn't really get my spirits up again today

(which led to some slacking heh )

until i found my source of motivation!!:)

haha i was looking for it yesterday

and i couldn't find it

but i actually managed to find it today(:

now thinking about it,

it may be destined that i find it today

in my depressed moments

to encourage me and spur me on(:

and in fact, now thinking about it,

taking the mock paper SEA during the study break really helped

because it provided me with the first opportunity for writing pre-war and nat unity essays

which i attempted today

although not sure whether i did it correctly,

but now thinking about it, it might be fate that i actually had experience of writing it before(:

so not that bad bah

but nevertheless,

i think i really need to work extra hard for international paper

and actually considering that sea has always been my weaker paper,

i shouldn't have such high expectations of myself to that paper

coz the disappointment would pull me down

haha(:

but i'm up again:D

ready( actually only mentally ready)

for tmr's consecutive 2 battles!:)

jiayou people!
(:

OH and fate gave me another nice nice present today:)

muahaha:) so unexpected but appreciated deeply(:

its amazing how ideas you were toying with in your mind

COME TRUE :):)

smile(:

Lyon

Sunday, November 08, 2009

9:48 PM

hello(:

just a quick post

before i do my last bit of revision and

go to sleep....

been feeling rather unwell these days :(

i think it's also because of my ulcers ><

but i hope everything will be fine starting tmr(:

well, i managed to have one last mugging session

today with my favourite auntie around:)

haha:D gave me more motivation bah(:

and yay she said she read my letter(:

and she even ask me something like whether i'm sure she's such a nice person

and of course i said yes lah:)

actually, when others say something good about you,

why doubt them?(:

it might be a really sincere compliment

about some traits about you you haven't noticed:)

haha(:

yea :D well, we parted on a good note

because after my mugging session

she was gg paya lebar mrt and i was going home

so we walked for awhile

before parting at a traffic light:)

haha(: and yup she told me all the best

and anything can go find her (: aww <333

hmm, anyway,

my horrifying week of consecutive alevel papers

start tmr!

haha or should i say challenging?(: or exciting?

well, i'm not really feeling the stress now

but i'm determined not to stress myself out for the next 2 weeks(:

just keep my cool

and do my best(:

my exam philosophy: just do my best(: and leave the rest to fate :)

please bless me with luck (:

and i'm going to stay positive

by filling myself with alot of hope(:

haha:D

keep on spamming hopeful thoughts only(:

shld work :)

jiayou people!(:

smile(:

Lyon

Saturday, November 07, 2009

7:39 PM

hellooo(:

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12:33 AM

hello(:

aww.

today might be the last mugging session

with that nice auntie around >.<

which makes me really feel sad :(

because her presence never fails to give me this sense of security

and motivation (:

OH but i wrote her a personal letter!(:

to express all my heartfelt gratitude to her

and some personal things i wanted to share with her(:

can still remember how her face lit up when i gave her the letter

although i really wanted to see her reaction after she read

but i know i probably wouldn't be able to stand it

because i can't stand people reading personal stuff that i wrote to them in front of me

i'll feel so damn paiseh x_X

haha (: but i really really really hope my letter

can brighten up her day (:

especially since i think she might still be working now :(

she's really a wonderful person

and sometimes i think it's a gift from fate

it's fate's way of encouraging me

by showing me that such a great person exists in the period where i need the most hope and encouragement:)

so i should treasure my affinity with her (:

one reason why i'm feeling quite sad about it

is that her concern, encouragement and the little actions here and there

have really touched me deeply(:

it's something that i haven't encountered in a long long time(:

so i really am very very grateful

for these memories(:

i know that in future, when i look back on my Alevel mugging period

she'll definitely be in my memories(:

and i know i will definitely see her de

when i go there and volunteer next time (:

but for now,

i need to make the best use of the inspiration she has given me

and strive to do my best for Alevels(:

alevels is just around the corner...

well, although i feel quite numb now about it

i do have my moments of despair and fear

which i'm always thankful that something or someone

manages to make it disappear(:

but anyway,

exams are just exams.

it's no big deal.

instead of worrying about how badly you might do

why not

daydream about how well you might do?(:

it's called positive thinking(:

well, to be really frank,

i doubt that my revision has really been productive

because somehow i don't feel that i'm super prepared to take my papers

but then there's no way someone can prepare fully for an exam

the best thing about exam is how

positive thinking can save the day(:

and i will do my best(:

even though i might not have finished preparing 100%,

i have did all i could

i did not give up

and i tried my best

and thus will have no regrets(:

i hope that by 20th november

i will be able to say that to myself(:

for now

please don't let me fall sick

because

i'm actually feeling kind of unwell:(

haiz.

nvm

lets all jiayou(:

lyon

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

10:03 PM

hello(:

argh.

this is bad.

i feel tired,

so so so tired

but yet i have been really unproductive this few days

because i keep telling myself

not to pressurize myself

because next week is a killer week

and i need all the positivity

and rest i can get to prepare myself to be in

the best state of mind next week...

but if i'm not doing much

and yet im still tired

then something is wrong:(

arghh.

maybe i should try to get my motivation back again(:

it probably helps

because my spirits lifted when i saw

py, wk and hc

jiayou msg

on facebook(:

was thinking that everything happens for a reason

today, on my way out

it suddenly rained

and mind you, it rained heavily

so i was almost drenched by the time i reached:(

but when i reached

i met this mother with her two kids

and she lost her handphone

so she asked me whether i could lend her my phone

to call her husband and before that, to call her hp

and check that it had really been stolen

so i lent her(:

and she thanked me again before she and her two kids left(:

and the ironic thing is that 5 min after they left

the rain stopped

and the skies were super blue and the sun came out-.-

haha XD so i was thinking that

could it be that life arranged it such that i had to go out earlier than i planned

get caught in the rain

but nevertheless reach the place i wanted to get to

just in time to help someone who really needed help?(:

haha(: somehow when i thought of this

i didn't really resent the weather

but things just seem so magical eh(:

and maybe my actions had a positive impact on her children(:

maybe they would learn to help others too when they grow up(:

haha XD

sometimes in life,

what we think as bad

might not be as bad as we think

because it might be a good thing to someone else(:

ookay, i shall try getting motivated again!(:

jiayou!

cheers

lyon

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

11:10 PM

hello(:

well, i didn't do much today

because i went back to school :(

in the morning for maths consultation

haha

i think it's psychological

i just feel damn unproductive at school :(

but anyway, i went to my favorite study hideout again

and the very nice auntie was there(:

haha (= always very happy when i see her

because she's always damn nice to me:)

i better treasure this few last days >.<

but luckily there's still the volunteering opportunity

then i can see her again(: haha XD

anyway,

feeling rather okay nowadays

haha(: i think it's because i know next week

will be damn mentally draining

so i'm not putting much pressure on myself

but i hope its the right way to go(:

and i'm spending time to read

all the nice letters and encouragements i got(:

ahah:D

they brighten up my day

and give me the motivation to go on:)

gambatte people!(:

cheers

lyon