helloo(:
haha:D eh nothing interesting to blog about
because i've been spending these few days at home(:
but i've been rather productive at home
in terms of housework and stuff
so im glad about that:)
afterall, family is supposed to be top priority for me now(:
haha eh but i do feel like visiting SUN-DAC tmr(:
let's see the weather tomorrow bah:D
oh and i finally cooked my first meal
okay its just instant mee plus some veggies and dumplings
BUT ITS A FIRST STEP okayy:):)
haha must congratulate me:D
anw jiayou pple!!:)
smile:)
lyon
helloo!(:
yesterday was the first real day of liberation
and it went really well(:
i finally spent one whole day at home
watching videos , slacking
but i had this really nice talk with my mum
and found out so many things
(:
i'm really glad that i'm not neglecting my family again
cuz they mean the world to me
although sometimes i don't show it heh><
but but but anwww!!!
yday was my parent's wedding anniversary
but my dad was busy
so we going out to celebrate today!!(:
haha:D looking forward to a big feast muahaha:D
well, 2 things happened yesterday that kind of affected me
which now that i look back on it
it seemed really minor
haha XD
first was that i didn't bring enough money to help a lady
who lost her wallet
and needed to take taxi to pasir ris
because she just had an operation thingy><
den second was that when i went to buy dinner
i didn't know i was 20 cents short ><
as in i didn't even know everything cost 9.20
i had only $9 :/
but lucky the auntie told me nvm
but still, coz there were many pple there
and i suddenly rmbed how i sort of " let down" the previous lady
coz i couldn't help her
as i walked away from the stall
i felt really bad and tears actually welled up in my eyes leh
haha that sounds kind of dumb rite -.-
oh well but then luckily i thought on the bright side
and it didn't seem as bad as it thought(:
HAHAH
anyway YOU! im so looking forward to meeting up with you again!!!<3333333
smile(:
lyon
HELLOOOOOO!!!!!(:
i'm FREE!
ALEVELS IS FINALLY FREAKING OVER!!! :):):)
haha liberation has arrived:)
have seriously been quite sick of studying already
and i'm so glad everything's over:):)
it's finally time to plan my post alevel period well already(:
although i have my top 3 priorities
being:
1. FAMILY:
- help with as much housework as i can
- clear the house
- learn how to cook
- just be there for my mum, bro and dad in any way i can(:
2. FRIENDS:
- catch up with ALL the friends that i treasure (i should probably make a list too :) )
- be there for them in any way i can
- probably announce openly that i'll be most willing to listen to anyone's troubles(T&C apply xD )
- make a list of people whom i owe birthday treats to (: and start treating them( one by one bah coz i have a feeling i'm going to be broke soon :( )
- make a list of people who owe me treats! muahaha:D i know of some who owe me treats(:
3. VOLUNTEER:
- visit SUN-DAC!!!! <33>
- go check out new volunteering opportunities( think i got one already(: )
- just go out there and make a difference(:
okay:D so these are my main goals for the rest of the year(:
i'll probably find a job next year bah
although it's tempting to earn money immediately
especially seeing so many pple seeming to be finding jobs and stuff
it'll be selfish of me to pursue selfish desires
after waiting for so long
to finally be able to do what i ought and wanted to do long ago
i'm going to be the best daughter and friend and volunteer ever first(:
jiayou to myself and everyone too:D
OH and i have some random goals to achieve
(:
which i'm somehow really looking forward to achieving them :D
smile(:
lyon
-
6:42 AM
hellloooo(:
wanted to blog yesterday but forgot AHAHA.
anyway, finally it's the LAST alevel paper for me(:
hope it goes well(:
tried to study yesterday
and okay lah, i did study but not very productive>.<
went out to study yesterday
and when i didn't feel like studying any more
it was raining outside
and i didn't bring my umbrella
so i was contemplating whether to just go out and brave the rain
and walk home
i thought about it for quite a long while
especially since i had exam the next day
and i could get sick from walking in the rain
BUT I STILL DID IT
heh :D
at first when i started walking in the rain,
it was quite unbearable
but as time passed,i got quite used to the rain
and somehow i reached home faster than i thought(:
so moral of the story: if you want to do something, just do it.
don't think too much
although it might seem daunting
but when you actually do it,
it might be easier than you thought(:
haha :D
oh and here's another good thing that happened to me(:
maybe it's good karma bah(:
i sent a jiayou sms to the class(those taking econs)
and then i went to sleep(:
but i had quite a horrible dream
dunno why
so when i woke up in the middle of the night
i was really freaked out and could not really calm myself down
BUT THEN I LOOKED AT MY HP(:
and tadah -6 wonderful reply smses from 6 wonderful people in class(you know who you are)(:
which totally brightened up my night :D
and i felt sooo much better(:
which was really lucky for me
because i would probably feel discouraged if i had continued to freak out ><
haha so i really really appreciate it(:
moral of the story:
when you want to brighten up the lives of others
you never know when it might be a reciprocal thing
and they could just be brightening up your life as well(: (:
aww.heartwarming:)
ok lah. i shall go slack for awhile
before i start mugging for the last time(:
jiayou people:D
smile(:
lyon
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
9:31 PM
helloo(:
okay, i'm feeling much better now:D
after watching some videos
of past television serial drama theme songs(:
brings back memories
of when i was young
well,i realize that there's no way i can have answers to everything
but that's why i'm living(:
life is all about maturing
and as you mature,
the answers will come(:
sometimes we should just acknowledge that
we can't change certain things
but we can always try(:
it might or might not work out
it might hurt, tears, pain all might come
but at the end of the day
there's at least the satisfaction
knowing that you tried(:
its best to just live life as who you are(:
live it according to your own set of life principles
different people have different set of life principles
because we all experience different lifes
but thats the beauty of it(:
different people coming together
and we can all learn from another and seek inspiration from one another
because we're ultimately all human:)
well, i can't guarantee the result
and i know there will probably be many more heartwrenching incidents that will occur
as i strive to become who i want to be
but nevertheless
i'm going to go through all of them
and quicken my healing cycle(:
focus on one thing step by step(:
that's what i'm going to do.
don't think too much in life.
just live it the way you live it(:
but yes, i have so much flaws i need to change:(
but nvm
i know one day
i'll be someone who can control her temper well, not be so selfish
be more mature and understanding,
be more accepting and content
be more hardworking
and finally be someone who can really bring joy to people
for that day,
i'll keep trying(:
lyon
7:32 PM
helloo(:
today's econs was a killer.
weird and hard.
but but but
one huge consolation is that
everyone thought it was hard too(:
and i oso heard that people in rjc and hci thought it was hard too
so phew:)
at least won't die so badly bah.
but i guess i better work hard for case study.
and argh.
something just ruined my day.
sometimes it can be so tempting to speak up and defend yourself
but if it will be at the expense of the other party
and probably lead to anger and frustration
and mistakes because you might say things out of pique that you will regret thereafter
haiz. sometimes i wish i was more hard-hearted
and more evil so i won't often feel so guilty.
sometimes i wonder if i'm making a mistake doing XXX
i know in the perspective of my parents,
i'm probably just a selfish brat who doesn't care how hard they slog for money
but is that really true?
:(
oh well no one probably understands anyway.
anyway,
my mood just got brightened up
by something i saw on TV(:
kindness begets kindess
make the world a better place:)
why am i even getting depressed
over such stuff?
HAIZ.
nvm smile people(:
tmr will be better!
lyon
Monday, November 16, 2009
9:03 PM
helllloo!
argh.xiaojingteng didn't make it through the 8th round:(
haiz. sad for him
but nevertheless, he was the most successful one today:););):)
i shall watch some nice videos of him to make myself feel better:D
anyway, wasn't really very productive today either
but at least better than the weekend(:
and i got this weird feeling about something
hmmm..
anyway, jiayou people :D
smile(:
lyon
7:19 AM
hello!
okay, firstly i must admit
the past weekend was a very SL.ACK weekend:(
heh. but i really appreciate the jiayou msgs and stuff :D
be it by sms or msn or my tagboard :D
thankyou!
so i shall make use of all these motivation
starting from today (:
i shall mug econs hard today!
heh to hopefully make up for my
"slack-ness" heh :D
anyway, been daydreaming alot
more than usual
for the past 2 days
and thought about alot of stuff(:
actually i wanted to blog about them during the weekend
but but somehow just couldn't bring myself to do it =/
oh well.
okay, just 5 more days to go
to LIBERATION(:
and finally i can do what i want(:
three priorities:
family
volunteer
friends(:
finally they can overtake the priority of studies(:
especially family
i think i neglected them
for a very long time :(
i'm going to make sure i repay them
after Alevels well(:
jiayou people:D
lyon
Saturday, November 14, 2009
8:03 AM
helloo!(:
just went out for a morning jog
HAHA okay lah, or rather a morning walk
because i gave up jogging after 10 minutes
><>
so decided to convert my jog
to an inspiring walk(:
so yea, i walked here and there
and thought about alot of stuff(:
aha it's funny but i don't really try to think about anything while i walk
but random thoughts just keep filling my head(:
so i was thinking about thought and action today(:
actually right,
i think that our feelings and our rationality complement(:
usually our feelings
reveal the most basic human nature
ranging from the altruistic ones such as helpful, compassion
to the negative ones like lazy and jealousy
but it's our rationality that keeps us in check(:
well, for good and bad reasons
like when we feel like helping someone
our rationality will start telling us
the opportunity costs and as well as calculate the possibility of getting rejected
but whereas when we feel lazy or jealous about others
our rationality tells us we cannot afford to be lazy and calculates the horrifying consequences
or also, it tells us that there's no point in jealousy
we're all who we are for a reason
and it's just that sometimes we don't know or can't see the reason ourselves
because it's more apparent to others(:
thats a reason why i love to see the good points about others if i can and let them know about it:)
so yea(; just a random thought that i was thinking about:)
and i was reading some of my old blog posts
haha:D
i think i sound more mature now leh:)
which is good eh :D
afterall, i'm 18:):)
shall make it a point to read ALL my blog posts
after Alevels
must really start mugging for econs le!:)
jiayou:D
lyon
