Hello!

I just had this sudden urge to blog! (:

Perhaps it's because I saw this very meaningful sentence on Wanyi's blog:

"Happiness, afterall , is a choice, not a given" (:

It's so true. While we all have our fair share of negative moments in life,
I guess having this reminder in us, that we can be happy again,
allows us to pick ourselves up and be happy again. (: It's always something that I believe in,
something that makes me believe that there's really so much more to life.

I got my second placement result!
I'm going to be placed at MCYS Family Welfare :):)
While I'm glad I got my first choice, I can't help but feel sad for those who didn't get
their choices, I really hope reballoting saves the day!
And my placement partner is going to be Shurlene! haha what a small world :D
I really hope this placement trains me in the way that Joyz hoped my second placement would train me to be, as well as make me a more capable and better social worker that I hope for myself to be(: A reason why I took it up was because it seemed more challenging than MCYS child protection and the supervisor was recommended by Dr Nair (:

I want something more challenging because I feel that with regards to social work, I've been in my comfort zone for very long, I've started only doing what's necessary to do to score well academically, which yes, a very practical but depressing mindset, because I know there's so much more to learning social work. Also, I wanted something that's not so specialized, as a student social worker, I wish for my learning experience to be a Jack-of-all-trades :D whereby since I learnt about child protection already through SW3219, I want to try something else.
Afterall, who knows where I'll end up in future? Exposure in the various areas seems more useful and beneficial for my future(: I think I will only know where my heart lies after I work with the different clientale groups. I really hope I can live up to the challenge.

Recently, I feel that my brain has started to slow down. Either it's because I'm tired or I'm losing my intellectual capacity, sigh. Haha. okay hopefully it's not the second option. Sometimes, I feel that I'm not quick enough in thinking, not adept enough in analyzing and that I'm lacking in so many different areas. Also, I've started to feel more antisocial :( I think it's the " I'm tired and I just want to finish my work " mode.

It's times like that where I worry about my task-oriented character, which can potentially
harm the relationship I have with my future clients. I need to start getting myself in check,knowing myself better and being myself more. (: I think I'm not as good as I thought I am, abeit depressing, but knowing it will make me more realistic and equipped for the future in term of expectations and skills.

Jiayou ah Lyon(: You know you can do it.

it's one of those times whereby you feel that knowing where you've gone wrong doesn't help
because you don't feel like you have the ability or capacity to correct yourself.
annoying feeling of helplessness just kicks in and yet you know, deep down that,
this is probably just a phase- you are capable enough. soon, you'll start believing in yourself again.

deep thoughts and ramblings,
when i wake up tomorrow,
things will be fine.

i need fruit basket therapy (:

it's funny how contradictory things in life can be,
or rather how feelings just don't match things for the wrong reasons
and while nothing can be done about those,
the fact that it's a mismatch is disturbing.

i feel quite disgusted.
i know i'm at fault and yet when i admit it,
i feel that i am not the one at fault.

everything feels like an irony.

To be able to smile on my journey back home,
thinking about the memories and fun shared earlier..
i really feel so blessed to have my social work friends <3

Life is really a balance between good and bad things.
Like today, I experienced both good and bad, but upon reflection,
it makes me feel that today's quite a fufilling day (=

hello! (:

It's the end of recess week! This means it's time to work hard!
The month of March is a freaking busy one and I hope I survive well.

Recess week was great!
Okay, not great in terms of academics- in fact, I think I accomplished quite little work during recess week. =x But, I always believe that sometimes, academics is not everything.
Work can always be done somehow, through sacrificing sleep or whatsoever, but
time with precious friends is always irreplaceable and to be treasured :D

i met up with really close friends this week, people whom I have not seen for a long time,
and I really enjoyed the time spent with them.(: Even though I fell down, grazed my knee, sprained my ankle, fell abit sick and am still not fully well , memories of the times with friends make me feel happy ^^

:D

I SPRAINED MY ANKLE AND IT HURTS NOW :(

but today's meet up with 2 people totally made my day <3

while swimming just now,
i couldn't help but smile. (:

i'm really happy for my bro :D
happy that he found such a wonderful girl,
who is so considerate, nice and just the right one for him.
as he told me about their story,
i could sense his happiness and bliss :D
which made me really really really happy ^^
he's a great guy- one of the best i ever knew-
and i'm confident that both he and her will hopefully live happily ever after.

i love this recess week(:
not because of all the work,
but because of all the wonderful people i will be meeting to catch up with(:

i just understood something recently:
what drives me to make an effort to meet up with certain very close friends in my life regularly?(:
the answer is because:

I want to meet up with them , not just for the sake of meeting up, but to know how they're doing, share their joys and sorrows , be there for them and supporting them as they journey through life. (:

these are so precious people that i want to keep forever <3

i will learn to see more things in life as bonuses and be contented with what i have.
i'm a very blessed girl indeed and i must keep counting my blessings and learn not to take things for granted. (:

helloo(:

decided to blog before i go and plan my recess week timetable!

it's recess week!
i'm looking forward to it actually!(:
not just the work that I really hope to accomplish,
but rather the people that i'm meeting! :D
i'm meeting a few really treasured people in my life
whom i have been too busy to meet up with, so yes(:
i'm happy.

anyway, today's my godbro's bday!
(: happy 19th birthday to you, godbrother!
had a great celebration with him today - a very special day to remember(:
I feel that birthdays are such special occasions and if possible,
i want to make the birthdays of people v close to me , special :D
so yes, i'm wishing you ( i'm sure you will read my blog)
all the best for your future and good luck for ur upcoming a'level results (:
have fun exercising and take care of yourself ah!

yesterday's genes and soc midterm was not easy.
i think i guessed alot :x but oh well, i guessed it stressed me so much
that when it was over, i just felt so relieved that i didn't really care
about the paper. haha.
sigh. what a module right.
but at least i'm taking with brandon ang <3 who had to bear with my angsty side
partly due to this midterm, so for that, sorry to you!

so far, recess week has been great! (;
haha two things i need to whine about:(
i'm getting broke and getting fat :(
haha okay la. not that exaggerated
but if i don't watch myself,
i'll end up broke and fat:(
haha. so yep(: jiayou lyon:D

i will count my blessings in my life and stay happy ^^
because i know that people who cherish and treasure me
want me to stay happy :D