Hello!:)

a quick post before I go and sleep!

today was very CHIONG before econs test
( because I did not finish studying the night before =X )
so was attempting to cram all the knowledge into my brain..
but to no avail :(
haha XD I still flopped my econs essay test
but surprisingly, I don't really feel sad
partly because I know I din really study
and somehow I think that I am unconsciously being complacent
underestimating the "power" of grades and studies
so thinking on a bright side,
maybe scoring badly might be a good wake up call for me :)

slacked all the way after econs test=X
mongo presentation was pretty good:)
thanks to weijie, vincent and guo xiang:)

omg i wasted a whole full day...
oh well. shall start work tmr again!:)

gambatte!:D

SMILE:)

Lyon

HELLO:)

YAY maths test is over!:D
next is econs test!
which i think i will probably flunk it
coz i am currently pretty lost in mkt structure..
OHH WEELLLL..
promos most impt:):)

anyway! today's evening sky was BEAUTIFUL:)
dunno why but i had this urge to take photos
which i did:)

ENJOY:)












SUPER NICE RIGHT!:):)

TMR WILL BE BETTER:)

smile:)

LyOn

hello!:)

freaking tired.
really feel like giving everything up
and diving into bed to SLEEP!!!><

BUT that's so irresponsible:(
i think i will probably regret it big time
after i succumb to temptation..

theres so much stuff to be done
and i really really need to catch up with my homework
shall be a mugger all the way
till i manage to catch up with everyone's pace><

so relieved that maths test has been postponed to Monday:)
at least I still have the weekends to study for it
afterall, MATHS is a pretty important subject X)

shall persevere and JIAYOU all the way!:)
i will survive de!:)

SMILE:P

LyOn

hello!:)

this shall be a " complain" post
because i am SO going to die tonight lah =X
havent really started on any homework:(
* dont ask me why ><*
which is really GG because they are ALL DUE tomorrow...

and i still havent settled my project report :(
plus theres CSC tmr which i feel so unprepared for...
and plus recruitment for more volunteers.
and i am so freaking tired lahh:(

argh.argh.argh.argh.

just feel like sleeping everything off ZZZZ -.-

oh well.

GAMBATTE!:)


lYoN

hello:)

Greed:	Low
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Very Low
Lust:	Low
Pride:	Medium

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

hahah XD

looks like my gluttony, pride and sloth dominate my weakness!><
haha:)
back to work!:)

SMILE:)

LyOn

hEllo!:)

tonight has been a SUPER busy night:(

not busy with the study of cha guan
but CSC and CIP stuff:(
haii! oh well XD
really hope everything will turn out okay:)

anyway , forgot to post some news and links:)

http://yzone.omy.sg/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=508&Itemid=56

the article on my carnival:)

and jolene lai has posted the video of the singing performance(:
but i not so bhb to post the links here-.-

and btw some photos are up in my webshots account
but not all
soon lah:)

SMILE:)

LyOn

hello:)

just a quick post!:D

brief recap of sunday:
went WAFF carnival with dorothy:)
it was kind of fun and we somehow had too much money to spend -.- LOL
and we did henna painting ! for the first time:D
in overall, it was pretty good:)

went home later and saw a primary school friend- Brian He!:)
(my best msg's owner!:D)
haha XD didnt expect to see him but recognised him quite easily aha XD
it was a pleasant encounter (: haha and he still recognizes me! lol -.-
think i changed quite abit since primary school haha(:

met up with jeanine later at night for dinner:)
actually the main thing was to get the ticket money from her
and she bought some more MINDS merchandise:D
haha (: talked as usual and we had a weird combo of mutton soup, satay and longan drink for dinner hah:)

Today was a pretty rushed day :(
and tiring coz i slept at 4am the previous day -.-
but so glad my budget plan is settled :)
haha :)

GAMBATTE! LEFT LOADS TO DO:(
GG!

jiayou:)

sMILE:)

lYoN

hello!:)

its a brand new saturday morning!:)
the start of the weekends always make me feel very excited
because I will always wonder to myself how much I will exactly be able to accomplish at the end of the weekend..
it always turns out to be the bare minimum
but i guess this has to change soon ><

anyway, a recap of the previous week...
the previous week seems pretty slack in a way
because I was sick for half the week ><
but no worries:) i think i almost recovered fully except for my hoarse voice, cough and phlegm:D
but somehow didn't really get to rest fully during my sick period..
but oh well:D i slept more than usual and i think thats something lucky le :D
thanks again for all the concern :D i really really appreciate it!
i guess thats one good thing of falling sick- u get motivated to strive harder with everyone's concern:D

heres a detailed recap of yesterday!:D
* there will be alot of "thanks" *(:
the main highlight of yesterday was the sale of the MINDS merchandise:D
did not pay attention at all in any lessons
this was also because I have not seriously touched my studies since june hols started><
so I was basically lost in every lesson.. aha-.-

anyway the sale started off pretty well
because thanks to mrs koh, we were able to get some teacher customers outside the staffroom:D
next was the support of 5C12:D
thanks so much to those who bought:)

next was the setting up of the stall in the canteen:D
it was kind of tough at first but soon people started coming to see(:
and started buying.. although it was not alot at first but seeing people actually coming down to buy was indeed kind of relieving(:

BEfore CSC:
grace(laogong) , yujia and hongyi came to help :D
thanks so much :D yea 5c12!(:
the way you guys tried to help me get customers
the way you guys behaved so enthusiastically about it
or simply the way you guys kept on going back to the stall..
cant really describe but (: thanks!!

thanks to zina too!:) haha buying again when you already bought some the last time
and thanks to the guitar pple, xiayou simin they all(:
plus keith,roy,yiwei and all the others who bought
and plus the teachers like mr tan (:
and all the verbal encouragement given :D

had to leave for CSC after that and dorothy stayed back to man the stall(:

CSC:
CSC was kind of lazy maybe because not many people were present..

i understand how you guys might feel about this whole eco project plus the aidha thingy
but lets just try out best k? (: its not easy for me too and frankly speaking , i am also trying to think of ways to lessen all the burdens on you guys for these projects, trying to put myself in your shoes to see how we can all make this work out without wasting as much time possible-
this is supposed to be a team project (: a CSC team project
and i cant do it alone either so although it might be tough and busy but lets make our senior high life fufilling (: and lets all gambatte together k!:D

yea. i should start being tougher (: learning to scold others, be harsher on others ><
and yes i am trying hard to do that too :D
dun blame me if i really master all the above (:

anyway theres actually alot to be done for ECO project
plus the AIDHA project.. argh..stressful! but i believe we will make it through somehow(:

AFTER CSC:

returned back to the stall after CSC (:
and although i cant really tell how much has been sold since I left for CSC,
i am sure dorothy tried her best and all that could have been sold have been sold le:)
xingxiang also came to help out(:
the remaining time was quite slack :D
although there still were people coming to buy ,
like teachers( Miss Aw, Mr Lim etc) plus students( Gena, Si Hong etc)
and parents too :D
and Jolene Lai came to help out too!:D
she really helped ALOT ALOT ALOT :D
haha we sat at the stall and crapped and bugged people to buy
( the NETS thingy -.-)
and there was this group of st john girls who bought 5 lanyards for their st john comp this sunday(if i rmb correctly)
haha(: good luck to them!!:D
and yujia came to help out again for awhile!(:
the people who helped just now like hongyi and grace also popped by for awhile(:

and ngjiahui, chenying and kanglin, huiwen also came to buy (:
ohh mr tang donated $10 !(: so nice of him!!
haha just blogging whatever i rmb about last night (:
in all the random order..
went up to PTM coz i wanted to see whether it would be good to try to sell some stuff there
but the atmosphere was really very dead and quiet><
haha so decided not to in the end:)
its really somehow relaxing being in the PTM with no parents haha:)

it was already 8 plus at that point of time
and although i really wanted to raise more money..
logic told me that i should probably go home and rest coz i still have SO MANY THINGS to do:(
went to find jinghuan and esther:D
jinghuan is always the best at advising me and " telling me off" about such things(:
and yea it worked:D <33 to jinghuan!
theres always a next time!:D

<33 to esther too!:D she bought $32 worth of stuff!:D
and helped me reach to $400 and above(:
poor jinghuan was there trying to stop esther from buying haha XD
and oh man, jinghuan always makes me laugh:)
and i really laughed until i cried :D hahaha
and when we were just about to leave, jolenelai said her mother wanted to buy
* so touched* and so we waited for her to buy :)
haha thanks so much!! :) think u must have been one of the people who supported and helped me THE MOST (:
and after that, we went home(:
lugged all the stuff home and it was really quite heavy coz i was pretty tired
think i stopped to rest alot of times on the way home
and was so tired i immediately went to sleep after i bathed haha XD

although i din manage to sell all,
as what dorothy and jasmine said, we did not bad already (:
oh well:) sometimes i shouldnt be too perfectionist ehh..
and besides through this sale,
i was really touched and happy by the support of people around me :D
thats always something i treasure alot (:
some of them might have been close to being broke but they still bought stuff
and some of them bought again and again
and so many other examples..
now reflecting about it, it makes me feel kind of blessed and contented:)
at least people bought the merchandise
at least people helped me :)
at least i tried my best
at least my team was there with me too:)
so many " at leasts",
so many things could have gone wrong
but it din:)
and the fact that it did not tells me that i should be happy with the way things turn out:)
it would be bad not to appreciate everyones good intentions, help, support and blindly stick to my financial ambitions for this project because those are more valuable than money :D
i shouldnt complain or grumble because i tried my best, so has my team :D
and i really really really really want to thank
EVERYONE who came to buy from me :D

i am not very good with words so probably everything sounds too fake if i keep on saying
thankyou
and so what i will do is rather to hope that everything will go well for you guys:)
ahha if i was a angel or had special powers, i will definitely bless you all de:)
sorry if i missed out thanking everyone, i cant really rmb all now
but u guys know who u are:)

anyway really need to start working very hard from now on :)
went blog reading and sometimes i wonder
whether everything in my life is going the right way it is
whether I have been doing all the right things all this while:)
when i see others doing better in me,
especially in areas where i have low self esteem
it does depress me in some ways
and make my self esteem lower
but i know this is not the way
so i try to change my thinking;)
think positive, comfort myself :)
its getting harder nowadays but i will still try
so i hope everyone will try too!:)

CT results might not have been good for you guys
and i know that if i ask you guys to cheer up or other encouraging words
it might probably sound fake or bad of me
because i admit my CT results are better than i expected and not too bad
but i really hope that we will gambatte together towards PROMOS:)
and all the other stuff!:D
its always better to score worse for the less important stuff than the more important stuff :)

life is not all about studying
but we cant neglect studying because
our studies ultimately decide our future:)
for me, its less stressful
because i have already got my goal to go NUS -social work
but in another way, its stressful because i have no back up plan for this goal
i really want to get into social work:)
and thats the reason thats keeping me going for CSC
to always think how this would help others
and help me in being a better social worker in future
although the projects we are taking on now
have no real involvment with community service
but i believe theres always a reason :) for what we are doing
what we are doing now is a form of indirect helping:)
it will go a long way if we do it properly so :D:D:D gambatte!

i realise i feel pressured to accomodate others-
a summary by someone
and its really true ><
maybe i should really change myself alittle ehh ahha XD
oh well see how it goes:)

but meanwhile,
the important thing to do
is to stay positive and keep myself happy:)
:) in order to keep others happy too:D

SMILE:)

Lyon

hello:)

havent been blogging for the past few days coz i was sick ><
down with fever, sore throat, phlegm,cough and flu
but now much much better le:)
just that my voice still hoarse and i still got cough ahha XD

still in SLEEP mode -.-
coz i slept alot for these past few days haha XD
and i havent started on my schoolwork..
really GG :( plus i still got the project closure reports to be done.
accck.. really need to GAMBATTE le!:D

now all i hope is for the sale of MINDS merchandise and handicraft tmr to be good :)
its the best i can do for them
since i din manage to raise much funds for them during the carnival.. haha
its really tough , asking people to buy, dealing with rejection etc
but oh well. i keep myself going with the support from people :D
my teammates and somehow the people from SUNDAC:)

although SUNDAC and MINDS are different
they are similar in that they both involve intellectually disabled :)
anD the people in SUNDAC really give me motivation to continue somehow:)
haha! :D especially chong siang!:D my boyfriend! haha XD
cant wait to go see him soon:D
when i have time :(

anyway i realise that my pile of schoolwork is accumulating:(
which is NOT GOOD
and my CCA committments seem to be taking up my life now:(
which is NOT GOOD
coz i am supposed to be concentrating on my studies
i MUST get into NUS-social work
so i must work really hard :D
towards my goal..

got back CTs ..
even though i did better than expected
but somehow i know that theres still a long long way to go
and somehow i was really lucky for this CT
so must really treasure this time and
work hard for PROMOS...:)
GAMBATTE!:)

i need BETTER TIME MANAGEMENT
and a faster brain =X
and so many many things:(

its hard. its super hard. its super duper hard.
but i will persevere:D
so everyone must persevere too..
its not all about the results
coz life is unfair and not everything can be seen from the results you get
but rather , its the satisfaction u get from the process that matters:)

SMILE:)

LyOn

hello!:)

well, today was a 100% slack day!
spent the whole day eating, sleeping and reflecting:D
felt like a total pig!
but then again, i shall use the excuse that I will start working hard from Monday onwards:D

anyway, regarding IDealise 08:)
its all a matter of perspective i guess(:
i should be thankful for everything about this carnival
all the preparations, stress,heartbreak,worries,disappointment
but most importantly,
the laughter, the smiles, the memories, the effort, the determination, the perseverance
and the presence and help and support:D
positivity still outweighs the negativity:)
and i will do better next time :D

Now that the carnival is over,
i guess its back to studies and CSC ><
gambatte lyon!:D i got ALOT to catch up :(
ahha XD

short recap of the previous week:)
Monday- CLL talk at hostel .. it was not really very enriching but definitely entertaining to a certain extent :D

Tuesday- training for cross-country during PE which wasnt as bad as I thought:)went IKEA to buy stuff for IDealise 08:) felt like a mini mongo outing:D coz merv grace and weijie came along:D

Wednesday- Learning fest! Interview skills workshop which was really entertaining:) maybe coz the speaker-sarah was really good! Had mock interview after that :) it was pretty good too :)
went to King Albert Parks McDonalds Headquarters:) its really BIG o.O felt so out there haha -.-
went back to sch and stayed in sch with dora and joanna:) thanks joanna for the lift!

Thursday-Learning fest day2:) personal grooming workshop was not bad too! :D went ngee ann city to "practice our dining etiquette" haha :) fine dining is seriously such a chore -.-
after that, followed sieuping and virg to PS coz i had to use her laptop to check my banner for IDealise 08:) chunyin came to pass me tickets and helped me search for darts and tablecloth. had quite an adventure searching for table cloth.in the end, we went to old peoples park where we went to this shop with a very nice granny inside:D talked alot with him and somehow it makes me want to try harder for CSC :D
went dorothy's hse and stayed overnight:) haha! :D enjoyed myself:) took the first train home coz needed to go SPORTS CARNIVAL on friday:)

Friday- sports carnival was GOOD:) round island was kind of okay and doing the limbo was really tiring haha XD apparently i dun have the limbo skill :( hahah XD after that MR GI drove me and zhanglu to MRT coz we needed to prepare for the carnival the next day:) had an enjoyable mini conversation :D
pengyong was our driver for the night:) borrowed the van from MINDS
and went dora house to do more preparation:)

okok:) thats the end of the 5 days:)
busy yet fufilling:D
and i would like to say THANK YOU to all those whom i really want to thank:)
:D too many to list
but really thanks alot :D

reflected alot today
on the carnival and on myself:)
i see so many flaws in myself
which are so hard to change:(
but i will try :D
slowly but surely:)


SMILE:)

LyOn

hello:)

havent blogged for so long.........haha XD
been really busy for the week
busy preparing for today's carnival!:D
IDealise 2008!:)

the past week was pretty eventful
and the learning fest was surprisingly quite good:D
wasnt as bad as I imagined it to be
plus the Sports Carnival turned out to be pretty fun:)
and i am glad i went for it :D
although i din get to stay for the full thing but i am sure it was GREAT :D
haha :) Bennu will THRASH the other houses SOON!:D

today's carnival-IDealise 2008!:D

on the whole, it was quite okay:)
although very few people came ( equals very little money ><)
at least the important part of the carnival was achieved:D
plus the part about raising awareness was in a way achieved:)

personally,the carnival was not as successful as I thought it would be
but the consolation part was that it was mainly due to factors that we couldnt really control
and of course,the hiccups that we did not foresee
plus all our flaws in our organizing, planning of the whole project><

our debriefing was a meaningful one:)
the four of us.:D
we all are at fault in one way or another
and i have to admit that a large portion is my fault
but well, its something i find it hard to control
but i will try to work on it de:)

actually right, when i see everything not going the way i want,
when i realise that actually everything is turning quite screwed up
and in the end , when i realise that the funds raised are really very very little
because many people din turn up ,
be it the public or people who promised to go or people who were considering on whether to go etc

i should be pissed , frustrated, angry and depressed
coz this is my (plus the others) first service learning project
and i know i really put in alot for this carnival
every step i took- the proposal, the liasing, calls and everything
they were not easy. at some point in time, i was pretty frustrated with everything
and felt so much like giving up but i am glad i hung on:)
hung on not because of myself
but mainly coz of how much more good i can do with this carnival
and for my other teammates:D

i wanted them to feel enthusiastic about this carnival
wanted them to enjoy and not feel like this carnival is a burden
because this carnival started with me
and thats mainly why i took on so many stuff and yea, made everything seem like a one-man show, which is probably one huge reason why it did not turn out well in the end

but yet when i think of all the people who have helped me :)
all my volunteers, all the people who took the time down to come help me
to stay with me throughout the carnival
and my committee
i just cant bring myself to feel dejected about my carnival
coz i know the reason why they spend the time , the effort , the money
is because they want this carnival to be a success
they want to contribute in making this carnival a success
and if i keep feeling so negative abt this carnival
that defeats all their efforts and xin1 yi4:)

so i must be positive about it:)
in order not to disappoint everyone:D
its kind of painful when you think about the negative parts
but when i think of how much i learnt through this experience
think of how i witnessed the helpful-ness of everyone:)
the nice side of people,
all the pleasant surprises i gained through this experience
somehow it all feels worth it:)

IDealise 08 might not be the best carnival ever
in fact, it might be one of the most screwed up ones
but the experiences we all went through
will be one of the best in our life:)
n thats what matters:)

too tired to blog anymore
shall continue tmr:)

SMILE:)

LyoN