Thursday, January 29, 2009

11:56 PM

hello(:

I CANT BELIEVE I WAS DOING CSC STUFF all the way since i came online at around 8 plus until NOW -.-

haiz. now i have to start work le :(

JIAYOU TO ME :D

Lyon

8:24 PM

hello(:

well, it's back to school!

can't say it's something really worth looking forward to ..

because frankly, it's dreadfully tiring , stressful and sian at times :(

but then again, there's a nagging thought in my mind that

i'm going to regret not treasuring school life in future ><

afterall, this is sort of my last year in school

(if i pass my A levels (: hopefully )

so i might as well try to be positive about it (:

i'm going to be a MUGGER! (=

anyway, yesterday's CNY celebration was kind of okay...

i was more focused on looking after the elderly who came(:

and overseeing that everything was okay :D

thankfully, everything went quite well (=

haha :D the year 5 CSC people who came to help were

GREAT (=

and somehow i felt that my interaction with the elderly this year

was much better than last year o.O

no idea why.. it's kind of weird but i get the same feeling when i went back to SUN-DAC

to volunteer again last December..

maybe this shows that you need to volunteer constantly with the same group of people

to really get to know them and improve your relationship with them:)

and also improving your volunteering skills :D

i'm working hard to be a social worker (:

i'm not working hard just for myself,

it's for everyone around me

as well as those whom i am going to help in future

that's going to be my motivation :D

JIAYOU (:

Lyon

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

9:43 AM

hello(:

it's the second day of chinese new year!(=

much as im enjoying this relaxed cny holidays

the dreadful fate of returnng back to school tomorow

( although its celebration -.- ) haunts me :(

sad. it's going to be so so busy once school starts again ><

ahh. i hate stress =( guess i need to find more ways to destress bah XD

anyone got suggestions? haha XD

anyway, this chinese new year has been pretty okay(:

went to the temple to pray yesterday , followed by the movie" love matters"

the plot's kind of unique but it's still a typical jack neo movie(=

kind of a family tradition to watch jack neo movies on cny hah(=

besides all that, cny has been makin me a couch potato><

eating and watching tv has taken up a whole portion of my cny. wahh =(

oh well.its once a year(: some sacrifices are worthwhile =)

my handphone has been pretty weird ever since the start of cny ><

think it's going to spoil soon HAIZ haha XD

it's time to keep the holiday mood mentality and move on to the mugger busy mood mentality-

JIAYOU (:

but not until i get my hongbaos today :D

SMILE:)

LyOn

Sunday, January 25, 2009

10:18 PM

hello(:

its chinese new year eve today!(=

anyway, just an update about the past few days(:

wed- orientation for csc was pretty okay(:

must really thank all the yr6 csc people who came :D

coz the stupid SAT took away some of my people :(

oh must especially thank jasmine:D for doing a great job with the icebreakers and helping me handle them (=

fri-not a good day- i hate committments><

anw must start to JIAYOU !:)

Lyon

Thursday, January 22, 2009

11:10 PM

hello(:

just a quick post here (:

im a HAPPY girl (:

thanks for everything today-

especially listening to me (:

was quite stressed over some stuff but thanks to you,

i think i know what i should do (=

yea you're right-

different people treat different people differently

you can't expect others to treat you the same way they treat another person

because you are YOU- who you are makes you special (=

so just accept everything around you because you are the only one who experiences everything in YOUR way (:

i was stressed because i focus too much on others to the extent that im making myself

uncomfortable- it's not worth it because they are not the people i want to help(=

other people deserve my attention more:D

sometimes, we should really let nature take its course(:

its okay to be alone(:

sometimes, its really better to be alone (:

being alone does not equate to being lonely :D

its a matter of trust and belief in your relationships(:

why bother about what people think about you?

there are so many things better to do than that :D

just live a happy life(: and think positive!

be yourself- be true to yourself(: there's always a reason for everything:D

thanks gm for always being there for me <33

u feel blessed because of me

and

i feel blessed because of you too(:

you can definitely do it!

Smile(:

LyOn

Monday, January 19, 2009

7:25 PM

hello!

today's the first day of official lessons(:

well, the day went pretty okay. i managed to pay full attention in almost all the lessons (=

although some lessons seriously turned the " standby mode" button in my brain on -.-

:( oh well. i must try to devise a method to keep myself more awake and attentive :D

i realised that i'm requiring alot of mental energy to concentrate and pay attention and think

to the point that i really don't feel like talking or get sick of talking :(

(im sry if i appear AP or dao cuz thats seriously not the case T.T )

it's kind of sad because it seems like i live in my own world( which isn't very bad lah >< )

but still, i do want a good year having fun with friends in school (:

oh well..i guess i just have to figure out a way to make myself stronger mentally-

JIAYOU LYON !(:

anyway, i better get back to doing work

because there's tons of stuff waiting for me to do (:

it's tough but when you believe you can, YOU CAN DO IT (:

you can't make everyone happy so just forget it!

just make urself happy and let nature take its course(:

smile(:

Lyon

Sunday, January 18, 2009

12:46 PM

hello(:

okay, i'm feeling inspired again about myself , everyone around me and my life(:

sometimes we just tend to sink into a state of self-depression

where everything just seems to overwhelming and

all we want to do is to get away from everything...

plus at times there's this surge of loneliness within us and

all our flaws just suddenly seem so visible

which makes us suddenly hate and feel disgusted with ourselves

and get totally fed up with our life,

thinking that life really sucks super badly :(

well, i'm not sure if the above applies to everyone

but it applies to me ...><

there's so much stuff to do but i can't help but procrastinate

feel sian-ed by so much stuff, it's horrible but unavoidable

anyway, i was sinking into this state this morning

emo-ing, procrastinating and binging( i swear im overweight already T.T)

with no motivation at all to do anything ..

it's a devastating feeling cuz i feel that i'm wasting my life away but there's nothing i can do about it...

but lucky for me,

i have sources of motivation(: that keep me inspired

and the source that i used today was the notes by my dear S.E.W.((:

and other yv people like white tigers(: and some helpers and tfs(:

reading the notes, feeling the sincerity behind them makes me feel that

at least i had happy memories with them that made my life worthwhile (:

at least i know i'm not alone :D and i'm content just to know that fact(:

sometimes i ask myself :

i hate bad memories, i hate suffering but why do i have to go through them?

which i end up realising

because there are forever two sides in the world.

you gain something, you lose something,

there must be a balance(:

when you have happy memories, you must have sad memories

when you have good memories, you must have bad memories

only will you treasure what you have, treasure these wonderful memories even more(:

and for every bad memory you endure now,

you will be returned the same number of good memories(:

looking forward to the light during the dark

keeps one going:)

its something that's very simple, that everyone knows but only those

who really understand its significance will benefit the most from it

and that is

HOPE (:

hope in life keeps us going on(:

even in the darkest period where all the suffering takes place

where you feel like ending your life because it's too painful,

think again. it's just a process and one day, this process will end and the good process will start(:

only those who can really endure hardship taste the sweetness of happiness(=

no one can predict the future(:

but we can BELIEVE in what the future has in store with us(:

and everything starts with believing(:

one piece of advice i can share is

to look for your own source of motivation(:

it could be a person - a confidante that would encourage you(:

or it could be a note:D to tell you how special you are which would restore your faith in yourself(:

the reason why i like to write long, personal notes is because

these long and personal OR long or personal notes

usually serve as my sources of motivation(:

and i sincerely hope that my notes can serve as other's sources of motivation:D

and this cycle of good karma will go on forever:D

thats also why i like people to write about me/ blog about me etc

because it makes me feel special and i know how important

it can serve as a source of motivation(:

we all deserve to be happy in our life(:

but not only after we have suffered enough pain in our lives:)

suffering can be implicit and might not be explicit

thus it's unfair if we still cling on to the fact that we cannot measure the amount of suffering for each person and keep it fair ><

but we can believe in its fairness(:

i'm going to be a better person(:

and so can YOU :D

JIAYOU (:

LyOn

10:27 AM

hello-

this shall be a negative post:

i abhor selfish people who asks and does things for only the benefit of themselves

because i know i always give in to these people

stupid stupid me.

i know its foolish but i still acede to their requests

in the hope of making them happy

and going by my principles

making them happy equals to making myself happy

but sometimes it seriously just irritates me

when people start taking me for granted.

RAHH.

people should learn to keep themselves in check.

not everyone's as foolish as me ><

okay, end of ranting(:

wasn't really aiming these rantings at any particular person

but i know these rantings will return back to my mind soon...

for now, just keep believeing (:

Lyon

Saturday, January 17, 2009

10:21 PM

hello(:

i'm blogging again despite having done nothing

for the whole day=(

omg i'm such a procrastinator x_X

sigh.

oh well. this problem of procrastination cannot be solved by anyone else

besides myself - so i guess i just have to force myself to start work ><

been thinking alot today, for some unknown reason,

thinking about random stuff, about myself

or perhaps its just an excuse for slacking x_X

or perhaps it's just to sort out my thoughts before i really start work...

whatever it is,it's always interesting to do self-reflection

because you get to understand yourself more (:

i realise people see me as an optimistic and happy girl=)

which does make me happy

because hopefully people will be happier around me (:

but then again, it does make me doubt my optimism at times

whether it's optimism to make others happy

or really optimism in my character ...

but then again, it also doesn't really matter which is it

unless for certain circumstances..

and i think for questions that do not seem to have clear answers,

the best way is to BELIEVE in your own answer:)

Lyon

5:34 PM

hello!

slacked away the whole of today:(

sigh.

i need something but i don't know what it is...argh. so confusing..

anyway was reading my blog archives and came across a phrase i blogged beforeveing

which i think its quite meaningful(:

Believeing is inspiring

Inspiring is Achieveing

Achieve what you want to achieve by

Believeing (=

JIAYOU !:D

Smile
(:

Lyon

9:59 AM

hello!

i'm back from DHSSH orientation!(:

honestly, i'm so freaking glad that it's over

because sunburns , cracked lips, body aches, ulcers and some mental stress

aren't exactly my cup of tea -.-

it's seriously tiring being an OGL- my most tiring orientation ever!

but then again, considering that it's my last DHS orientation,

at least being an OGL made it memorable (=

especially a BENNU OGL (= BENNU RAWKS ! :D

however, there's a main regret that i have to admit

after reflecting upon the whole orientation-

that is, not getting to know my group better ><

i guess its due to many reasons which i shan't list here

but to me, a OGL / team facil etc is only really successful when he/she bonds the whole group together and gets to know them well so i guessed i pretty much failed as a OGL this orientation

when i compare it against my standards, such as being a TF during YVIP ><

but then again, its over but i'm still thankful for my group (:

getting to know them was really great :D they are all very nice people which i will not regret OGL-ing (= hopefully we will still say hi upon meeting each other in school next time :D

and i will really treasure my paper with all their comments on it (:

i'm grateful for all the nice comments they wrote because i was actually thinking i didn't really deserve it as i know i could have been a better OGL ><

oh and must thank my partner jolene lai

for taking charge of the grp(: at times when i was tired

even when she was really tired herself ><

and on the finale night because i had to deal with something really bad

which got me into a pretty pterrible mood ><

being a team faciliatator in YVIP during december

being a OGL for orientation during january

i can't help but compare this two experiences (:

i still very much prefer my TF experience

maybe it's because my group was small - 6 people

maybe it's because i was TF-ing alone- gives me more space to do what i really want at times ( okay, i admit i kind of like being a loner at times coz i care too much about what other people feel -.- )

maybe it's because i didn't end up being sunburnt, having swollen lips ><

but i think it's mainly because i managed to bond really well with my group (:

as in being with them is really comfortable for me (:

i can say anything i want, do anything i want and we all always have fun together

although cuz its because of them niao-ing me at times -.-haha! :D

but being a BENNU OGL did make my day (:

that sense of belonging in BENNU

cheering BENNU cheers and laughing along with the other BENNU OGLS (:

it's a wonderful experience, makes the orientation really " senior-high-like"

and i do feel like a senior (: and it's heartwarming to see the potential in the junior high batch

for making BENNU a really GREAT house in future:D

oh well, orientation 2009 is over

and i won't brood over it anymore

because its time to mug for alevels and slog for ccas

and stress over other commitments ><

as i mentioned before, i'm happy about my timetable:

Monday and Friday ends at 3.45pm

Tuesday and Thursday ends at 2.15pm

Wednesday ends at 1.45pm but there's CCA -.- haha XD

i'm still thinking whether i should stay back and study in school or chiong home since it takes very fast for me to get home (:

AND im really determined to change and not care too much about other people

learn to put myself first

but i think its kind of hard, considering that thats the way i have been for the past 17 years ><

so i decided to learn to be a loner

so that i wun have to care about other people coz they are not around me..

JUST FOR THIS YEAR TIL ALEVELS IS OVER (:

i still love being with friends(:

anyway, i have TONS to do and settle this weekend><

so i guess i have to JIAYOU (:

im looking forward to CNY :D yay!(:

286 more days to ALEVELS o.O

JIAYOU!! :D

SMILE(:

LyOn

Monday, January 12, 2009

11:24 PM

hello!(:

today was the FIRST DAY of orientation 2009 for DHS - SENIOR HIGH! (=

although there was some confusion in the start plus some atmosphere problems,

i think everything ended well (=

it was a good first day- although tiring but fun(:

and im proud to be a BENNU OGL haha!:D

B5 or maybe known as BABA is GREAT too (=

as todays the first day, everyone's not that bonded yet but soon, i believe

the bonds will be strong:D

in all , today was a GOOD day(:

with a good start and a somehow weirdly good end :D

JIAYOU(:

tmr will be better:D

SMILE:)

Lyon

Sunday, January 11, 2009

9:29 PM

hello(:

just came back from the final ogl briefing...

well, everything seems to be more or less in place

except for some confusion here and there -.-

but i can see everyone's effort for the big day tomorrow (=

so i really hope that this year's orientation will be a blast! (=

we must be proud of our dunmanian identity, especially of our senior high identity(=

and BENNU must OWN this time :D haha!

anyway, for some weird reason,

i was super duper lethargic throughout the whole briefing

and even up till now :(

i slept for around 11 hours last night

and yet i'm still so tired- to an extent that my whole body feels weak and i can sleep once my eyes close ><

it's kind of weird because i seldom feel that tired

especially when i didn't do anything vigorous that day -.-

oh shit. i'm getting old ><

really hope i break out of this tired-ness o.O

if not i won't be able to survive this year ... AHHHH...

anyway, i better go catch some sleep soon(:

TOMORROW WILL BE BETTER(:

SMILE(:

Lyon

Friday, January 09, 2009

10:51 PM

hello(:

OMG i'm actually feeling lethargic

and school has not even reopened yet ><

i lead a sadddd life haha XD

oh well, just have to keep moving on
(:

LyOn

Thursday, January 08, 2009

7:19 PM

hello(:

argh. :(

these few days have been nothing but

eat, sleep, do a little bit of work

and mainly- SLACK :(

seriously, i really find it hard to believe that

this is my Alvl year :(

cuz i'm still taking it easy -.-

sigh.

oh well, but i'm kind of inspired after reading someone's blog post(:

2009 will be a better year :D

Smile(:

LYoN

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

1:13 AM

Hello!(:

Finally- I started on my maths ...

but i know that's not enough >.<

there's like another 101 things for me to do :(

sigh!

especially after a prep talk by my friend

on how stressful JC2 life will be..

on how tedious A'lvls will be..

it's kind of scary,

the result of all my years of studying

determined by this year

by this Alvl exam...

i hate stress >.<

but i guess stress is inevitable to push one to his/her limits xD

sacrifices are inevitable,

i can't please the whole world

what i can only do is please myself

do what's best for myself (:

be selfish and hardhearted at times,

its for the best..

oh well! easier said than done >.<

its so obvious which thing to let go..

but i just can't bring myself to do it..

so i just have to hang in there:)

i can do it (:

SMILE(:

LyOn

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

10:13 AM

hello!(:

its time to start work!

My new year resolution for this year is to

1. MUG LYK SIAO >.<>

2. be more fierce/strict and learn how to scold people

or else as what everyone says- i will be cheated and bullied >.<>

JIAYOU :D

Smile:)

Lyon

Sunday, January 04, 2009

10:44 PM

HELLO:)

photos:

YLF <33 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_SJAZYDQ16Oo/SWDjtTW6hZI/AAAAAAAAAxE/yJvNRuMb6KY/s1600-h/P1020525.JPG">

:D particpants turn!

<3333:d

o.O

O.o

serious looking YLF tfs(:

cutting the cake:)

lighted up :D

with candles:)

our cake:)

hongchuan in laughter:)

alvin and his cake:) UNGLAM!

py and the cake:D

XP i like this shot somehow!

deep in work:)

nice!:D

<333!

* ahhh*

hongchuan (:

alvin n his western food:D

jh and porridge:)

awww again :)

py with his tangyuan dou hua:)

i like this shot!:D

cute nas!(:

awww(:

guess who!:D

jinghuan!

4hands :D

renuka pouting:D

hONg chuan!

pengyong!

alvin!

YLF OUTING! :D

marked a wonderful start to my 2009(:

it was quite a successful outing =)

8 out of 9 were there :D

played pool at bukit timah plaza (:

many interesting incidents there!:D

went to the bukit timah hawker centre to eat lunch

and finally to BUGIS food court to hold our

birthday celebration(: for every one of us :D

coz looking at everyone's schedule, it's probably hard to meet up again ><

anyway, everyone had fun, eating the cake, talking crap:)

and for me- taking photos and videos:)

which i managed to compile into a video!(=

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OX94RlsuveE

( a present to YLF :Dbut please dont bother to watch if ure not a member of YLF .. unless u dun mind my lousy video making skills>.<>

so proud of myself MUAHAHA :)

i totally enjoyed myself :D

and it's so heartwarming to see all 4 TFs:)

it's nice to feel like a participant again

after being a TF :D ahha!

shall upload the photos another time!:D

went for UTP dinner after that :)

NICE (: it was quite successful also lah ;D

and it was great catching up with old friends:)

i need to DO WORKKKKK :(

JIAYOU!

LyOn

Friday, January 02, 2009

11:32 PM

hello!(:

i realised i haven't updated about the last day of 2008 and the first day of 2009(:

two VERY fantastic days!(:

LAST DAY OF 2008(:

went for mongo outing at an ulu country club at buona vista :D

although it was really very deserted but i must admit the facilities there are

SUPER LUXURIOUS(: especially the toilet! ><

anyway, i couldn't play badminton so i settled for playing cards

and i was on a winning streak(: haha!

think its coz i was wearing GREEN:D

anyway, it was quite fun (: and im sorry i had to leave earlier><>

speaking of which,

i must THANK MR LEE HONG SHENG:)

for accompanying me all the way to Buona Vista MRT :D

it was quite a tiring walk but i enjoyed it:D

and THANKS SO MUCH for letting me wear your slipper when mine broke

and u had to walk back barefooted >.<

thanks a million!!:) :) :)

i really appreciated it XD

anyway, made my way to downtown east:D

to meet geraldine and hamizah(=

they were really sweet to help me hunt for slippers(:

and thanks geraldine for the slippers!:D i will pay you back de :D

anw we made our way to coasta sands chalet after that for YV countdown (:

met john and gavin along the way ;)

sylvanus and yangjie were there already :D

we went to eat and talk crap :)

and it was REALLY FUN :)

with the super HOT sausage that i managed to CONQUER

without sweating LOR:D ahha!(: but a pity the rest didn't agree with me -.-

oh well!:D

all the niao-ing, party popping , jokes and alot alot of random stuff:) which i can't really describe

but i was really enjoying myself ALOT:D thanks for making the last night of 2008 such a memorable night (x and i got to know more people better:D which is good!(:

and so, i stayed for countdown(: because geraldine's mom offered to give me a lift at 12.30am :D

(: im a lucky girl! countdown was NICE:D we wanted to squeeze into a room but in the end, most people came out ;)

in all, i had a SPLENDID countdown to 2009 (=

2008 was a really busy year for me ><

senior high, studies, dance, CSC , library and many other things..

stressful but yet enjoyable:D

i think my 2008 was very fufilling though :)

i tried out so many new things that i never tried before

brand new experiences, increased struggling to cope with everything

and i cant actually believe i did it lah! (=

and i got to know so much more people

got to know my friends better (=

and got to have such a wonderful class <33

plus YVIP 08 marked such a wonderful ending to my 2008 :D

i really think i should be thankful for 2008 (=

for studies, i did quite okay(= not very good but not very bad either

for CCA,

i became CSC chairperson for the first time...

kind of painful at first and followed by alot of struggling ><

but im glad to be the chairperson coz i got to see and try so much stuff:D

it really added colour to my senior high life

and although i think i was not a very good chairperson

i shall work harder in 2009:D

for dance,

i wasn't really intending to join dance

but i still joined in the end

and the struggles between dance and CSC plagued me in the beginning

but gradually things turned out fine:)

i also tasted the sweetness of having a solo part

and the bitterness of failing to do it successfully during the concert

i guess that was a low point of my 2008 but im glad i got over it pretty soon :D

for library,

everyone treated me very well:D

even though i din do anything for the first half of the year

and for this gratitude , i will try harder this year:)

friends:

5C12:) csc people! dance people!

YVIP :) SEW! white tigers! 4b pple:D mongo!

and so many more (=

family:

jeanine, mingwei, YLF :D and many many more :D

family( real):

i think im a blessed girl(=

and the happy memories i have give me the strength to proceed on:)

JIAYOU FOR 2009 :D

SMILE:)

LYoN