Saturday, February 28, 2009

9:22 AM

hello!(:

it's going to be a tiring day today:(

meeting miss tan in the morning to discuss about csc sympisum matters

and rushing to school for dance after that><

which lasts all the way til 3.30pm :(

there's still so much stuff to be settled

and tests to study for - SIGH. ><

and i cant seem to concentrate - HAIZ :(

but i guess somehow things will turn out fine (:

afterall, this is a life of a student :D

and i better start treasuring this kind of life before i go uni next year( hopefully >.<)

on a sidenote- some random stuff

- i hate it when people keep reminding me about stuff that i already know and already very pissed off that i have to accept and be subjected to it because of responsibilities

i know what im doing and when to be sensible so please have faith in me. i don't want to be unable to like it when i have to focus on it due to too many accumulated negativities.

haha anw im getting a free treat today so i shld be happy(:

SMILE(:

Lyon

Thursday, February 26, 2009

7:45 PM

hello!(:

YAY.(:

i survived the two tests today!

although i really prepared the bare minimum for this 2 tests:(

(especially for econs because i just flipped through the summarized notes this morning-

which i feel quite guilty for because im the econs rep)

im kind of glad that it turned out better than i expected(:

as in i really saw a vision of myself stoning during the test while everyone starts writing fervently><

but then again, just because i expected it to be worse and am feeling quite glad its not as bad as i thought it was doesn't guarantee me a pass SO there's not much point in being quite happy about it -.-

maths test was a flop. seriously.

the only thing i was proud about was my decision to skip question 2

which was only worth 5 marks and do other questions, especially vectors which was 15 marks(;

although doing doesnt equate to being correct and i have already confirmed lost around 8-9 marks, i shall still be positive and hope for a JUST PASS grade so that i wun make it into maths remedial ><

oh well.(: at least i'm done with all the tests for this week.(=

that's something to be happy about

and i slacked today AGAIN :(

seriously i should hire someone to act as my personal reminder - to keep reminding me about my committments and work :(

be it spamming me with emails, verbal scoldings, calls or sms-es

i don't mind(:

LOL:D

there's still so much things to be done:(

but at least i don't feel so stressed now :D

OH and im determined to change two of my BIG flaws:

1. Speaking too fast

2. Talking without any particular objective or any clear point to make

so everyone, please remember to correct me when this 2 flaws show up in me :D

i really appreciate it :D

some people see others for their flaws

some people see others for their good points

its a natural process(:

but to you, what do you want others to see you for?

your flaws or your good points?

and similarly what do you think others want you to see them as?(;

if we have the ability to make others happy,

why not?(:

smile(:

Lyon

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

11:24 PM

hello(:

okay. this is BAD.

i have an econs essay test and a maths lecture test tomorrow

which i havent studied well for it yet:(

and i don't feel stressed at all leh.

this means that i have actually secretly given up for this 2 tests:(

haiz. just hope i dun fail too badly

and let this be a wake up call(:

anyway, today's CSC was quite good(:

announcing of the new committee went quite smoothly

and i really hope this new committee will bring CSC to greater heights(:

sounds cliche but YEA:D

Dominic, an ex-dunmanian who studies SOCIAL WORK in NUS(:

came and had a sharing session about his life, service learning, community service

and much more (: and i must admit it was really interesting , enriching and good:D

i now know more abotu social work in NUS

and all the more i'm looking forward to studying social work(:

sometimes people ask me why i am so determined to study social work

and i just get stunned

not because i don't know

but because i suddenly get this overwhelming feeling

like i've got a thousand and one reasons

but i just can't express myself :(

and i just end up answering the most cliche answers hah XD

the reason i want to study social work

is maybe because i want to live my life and spend my life on others(:

i want to continue believing in the good side in everyone

bring out the hope in everyone, make more people happy

and most importantly, spread the impact (:

when you impact someone, you're impacting not just one person

but the people around that person

it's a cycle, a beautiful cycle(:

imagine impacting a person

through a simple action

which you might think it to be insignificant

but it means alot to that person

that person will bear it in mind

and in turn, impact another person with a simple action

and this cycle goes on:D

we should treat people with sincerity(:

sincerity does wonders:D

treat others the same way you want to be treated(:

like if u want people to smile at u more, smile at them more:D

its okay if they dun treat u in the same way u wish to be treated

because even though u might not be impacted by them

at least u know

on ur part, u have impacted people

and that's good enough(: to make people like me happy :D

actually i really gained alot today (:

but shall not continue reflecting for today:D

shall continue another day:D

for now, im praying for a miracle tomorrow(:

smile(:

LyoN

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

8:28 PM

hello(:

a beautiful story to share:

TAXI

I arrived at the address where someone had requested a taxi. I honked but no one came out. I honked again, nothing. So I walked to the door and knocked. 'Just a minute', answered a frail, elderly voice. I could hear something being dragged across the floor.

After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 90's stood before me. She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940s movie.

By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered with sheets..

There were no clocks on the walls, no knickknacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard box filled with photos and glassware.

'Would you carry my bag out to the car?' she said. I took the suitcase to the cab, and then returned to assist the woman.

She took my arm and we walked slowly toward the curb..

She kept thanking me for my kindness. 'It's nothing', I told her. 'I just try to treat my passengers the way I would want my mother treated'..
'Oh, you're such a good boy', she said. When we got in the cab, she gave me an address, and then asked, 'Could you drive through downtown?'

'It's not the shortest way,' I answered quickly.
'Oh, I don't mind,' she said. 'I'm in no hurry. I'm on my way to a hospice'.

I looked in the rear-view mirror. Her eyes were glistening. 'I don't have any family left,' she continued. 'The doctor says I don't have very long.' I quietly reached over and shut off the meter.

'What route would you like me to take?' I asked.

For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator.

We drove through the neighborhood where she and her husband had lived when they were newlyweds. She had me pull up in front of a furniture warehouse that had once been a ballroom where she had gone dancing as a girl.

Sometimes she'd ask me to slow in front of a particular building or corner and would sit staring into the darkness, saying nothing.

As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said, 'I'm tired. Let's go now'

We drove in silence to the address she had given me. It was a low building, like a small convalescent home, with a driveway that passed under a portico.

Two orderlies came out to the cab as soon as we pulled up. They were solicitous and intent, watching her every move. They must have been expecting her.

I opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door. The woman was already seated in a wheelchair.

'How much do I owe you?' she asked, reaching into her purse.
'Nothing,' I said

'You have to make a living,' she answered.

'There are other passengers,' I responded.

Almost without thinking, I bent and gave her a hug. She held onto me tightly.

'You gave an old woman a little moment of joy,' she said.

'Thank you.'

I squeezed her hand, and then walked into the dim morning light. Behind me, a door shut. It was the sound of the closing of a life.
I didn't pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly lost in thought. For the rest of that day, I could hardly talk. What if that woman had gotten an angry driver, or one who was impatient to end his shift?
What if I had refused to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away?
On a quick review, I don't think that I have done anything more important in my life.

We're conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments.

But great moments often catch us unaware-beautifully wrapped in what others may consider a small one.
PEOPLE MAY NOT REMEMBER EXACTLY WHAT YOU DID, OR WHAT YOU SAID, BUT THEY WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER HOW YOU MADE THEM FEEL.

that's what's meant by making a difference to the life of a person through a simple action(=

i'm sad over my poor time management

and i'm evading stress =x

i'm trying to see things as lightly as possible

so nothing can affect me negatively(:

Lyon

Monday, February 23, 2009

10:42 PM

hello!

im currently feeling freaking stressed now =(

it's not because i'm tired

it's more of because i feel super overwhelmed :(

even things which are not important in the first place

start to annoy and bug me :(

im STRESSED :(

oh and maths is killing me:(

haiz.

but im determined not to stress myself so much

because i've been getting recent headaches- signs of stress i think

i can afford to fail this test

because its only a lecture test.

even if i fail it, i just have to learn from my mistakes and do better in common test:D

life is like doing maths

when you get stuck

there's no point harping on it

move on

and return back to the question again later on

with greater confidence and experience after doing other questions(:

i need to learn to answer my own questions

i need to CHILLLLLLLL (:

JIAYOU to me!:D

SMILE(:

Lyon

Saturday, February 21, 2009

6:14 PM

hello!(:

i like nice, quiet evenings with nice weather, nice wind and nice sky:D

because they always make me feel at ease and happy (=

it's kind of amazing at what appreciating and enjoying your surroundings can do to you :D

they make you feel loved, give you peace

and inject hope into your life(:

taking deep breaths in such good weather really drives all your troubles away :D

it's at moments like this that i am really thankful for everything life has given me (:

anyway, just came up with theory about comparison(:

life is full of comparisons and even when you think you are not one to compare,

whenever you make remarks or thoughts about yourself,

there's a very high chance that it's derived from comparing ...

from comparing yourself with others subconsciously...

but taking note of this fact,

we can actually make use of it to keep ourselves happy & content with who we are(:

for example, when you say you're ugly-

IF you compare yourself with the prettiest girl/handsomest guy on earth,

OF COURSE you're ugly.

but on the other hand,

IF you compare yourself with the ugliest girl/guy on earth,

you're DEFINTIELY pretty/handsome

but the ironic thing is that there's no prettiest girl/handsomest guy or ugliest girl/guy on earth

because no matter how good /bad you are, there's always bound to be someone better/worst than you...

so comparing yourself with others is unfair to yourself (:

the one you should really compare with is yourself..

compare with yourself(:

compare with yourself in the past

present VS past - if you still have negative comments about yourself

at least you'll feel better because you know you can change yourself

if you changed negatively, there 's also a way to change positively(:

cuz there's always 2 sides to everything :D

maybe this might come across as a self-delusionary / self-denial idea to some

but living our life as who we are and liking who we are makes life more meaningful , doesn't it?(:

So next time, when we're about to pass a negative comment or have a negative thought about ourselves ,

WHO are you comparing yourself with? and

WHO should you be comparing yourself with?

learn to be happy with you are (:

coz that's when people will start being happy with you :D

Smile(:

Lyon

Friday, February 20, 2009

12:33 AM

hello!(:

it's been quite a meaningful day(:

unable to describe meaningful in what way but

there's just something different about today :D

oh but im freaking tired :(

SIAN.

and YAY tmr's friday XD

JIAYOU !:D

Lyon

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

6:50 PM

hello(:

just returned from school

with this stupid freaking bad headache:(

i swear it's one of the worst headaches i had so far since the year started><

even though i can still talk, laugh like n0rmal,

the back of my head is painfully throbbing like mad:(

and im thankful that i managed to get a lift to paya lebar by joanna's uncle(;

because it got worse and worse along the way home

or else i might have died on the way home taking bus 30 alone and squashed HAHA XD

but must say sry to dorothy and jocelyn cuz i was the one who mentioned going home together de

ahhh.. i hate headaches:(

coz thats when i start to only think of myself and become selfish, as in

not considering other's feelings :( OH WELL.

i can't believe i actually survived the whole of csc election(:

and although i still think there's so much i can improve on

considering that it's a first time kind of thing, i guess it was quite a good start :D

it was quite rushed at first because of the northlight people

and i think all the rush and the hot weather probably worsened my headache

which started during assembly ><

but slowly it got okay(:

the yr6s csc pple stayed back to discuss the new comm and although

we took quite a long time, i must say it was quite fruitful (:

and im quite pleased with the almost-final result (:

anyway, its DOROTHY 's birthday today

so HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOROTHY!!!(=

i think i shall go and sleep first

i must be stressing myself too much

somehow.

hopefully my headache will go away :D

LyOn

Monday, February 16, 2009

10:30 PM

hello(:

it's amazing what your childhood can do to you...

im thankful(: seriously.

for my childhood:)

i might not have had the best childhood one could have

but my childhood- to me- is the best childhood for me :D

given a chance, i would want to live through the same childhood again :D

sometimes i really miss the past...

where everything was really nice, simple, easy

and every day was fun (:

unlike now, where there's so much stress and troubles

but then again, it's all a part of growing up

it's an inevitable phase so i just have to accept it :D

and who knows, the future might be really bright for me (:

im currently feeling stressed, tired, irritated, frustrated

but yet

im listening to something that brings back childhood memories

which instantaneously brightens up my mood:)

the power of the past :D

well, i decided that struggling is inevitable

not everyone is gifted enough to grasp everything within a first try

and tries make up life(:

only when you keep on trying

will you truly understand the significance of life and its lessons

sounds philosophical?:D

but seriously, its all about a simple logic :D

never give up!

hope.

believe in it.

Lyon

Sunday, February 15, 2009

3:22 PM

hello!(:

before i start on my horrible pile of history notes,

i shall blog about this weekend :D

This weekend has been a great one(:

not really in material aspects, but rather in psychological and mental aspects(:

i feel inspired!:D

anyway, had dance on sat morning(:

oh ya thanks to my 2 dance angels: ningli and yuehuan- i love ur gifts:D

the yr5 CSC people also had their service learning training programme

heard it went well:D great job guys!

anyway, jeanine came to visit! (=

just like she promised she would the night before when i met her to pass her some vday gifts(:

thankyou jeanine for your gift too!(=

although it's time for her to go back to australia again to study

and i do feel a tinge of sadness but on the bright side

i will be seeing her in late June again(:

hopefully with more good news to tell her during our talks :D

its been 2 years ever since she went to australia to study

but somehow i feel that we've grown closer(:

maybe its really coz " absence makes the heart fonder"

and she's someone so dear & special to me (:

it's going to be a tough year for her

and for me too.. so we shall jiayou together :D

anyway, yesterday was a normal day

but somehow i felt really really inspired(:

there's this feeling of peace and calmness within

that suddenly makes everything around me so simple yet beautiful (:

i went out to the playground to try to read some notes

first time though (: sat on the slide and started to read my notes

i can't describe the feeling but everything seemed so magical and natural :D

especially when i look up to the sky which was really nice - blue with clouds and there was this nice evening wind blowing and the rays of a setting sun shining in also (:

the walk back home was also spiritually uplifting (:

evening scenary and weather are seriously the most beautifully inspiring(:

sometimes we should really take time to notice everything around us

not just notice, but appreciate :D appreciate every living thing around us(:

appreciate the fact that we can walk, can see, can smell, can listen , can feel

appreciate whatever life has given us (:

if i had a camera at that time, i would probably have taken dozen of pictures(:

but it's okay, because i used the camera in my heart and mind to take pictures(:

ohman, i feel that my lack of vocabulary is unable to do justice to the

feelings and inspiration i felt yesterday :(

but it was really magically wonderful :D

havent felt like this in a while (:

it's like a spiritual motivational inspiration boost (=

one crazy idea i had would be when you're outside near scenary and everything,

just sit down on the ground(:

because somehow you seem to be able to appreciate and admire everything

it;s like u are in a picture and yet admiring it(:

oh well, hard to describe but its worth a try :D seriously!

anyway, today's a good day too:D

watched this anime with my brother

and it's seriously inspiring(:

life is full of challenges

everyone has their own challenge to face

their own battles to fight

and most importantly

their own reason, will , motivation

and way to fight:D

but regardless of all these differences

we should NEVER GIVE UP

no matter how depressed we get

no matter how dark the journey gets

because although

wherever there's light, there's shadows,

wherever there's shadows, there's light(:

it might seem the same but if we focus on the fact that wherever there's shadows,

there's light(: doesn't everything seem brighter? and the concept of hope is stronger:D

so we should NEVER GIVE UP

because

the darker the shadows,

the greater the vibrance of light within us (:

only when we perservere through the darkest moments

will the spark of light sparkle before us (:

believe in what we are doing

believe in why we are doing

and achieve what we want to achieve

because when we know we want

and we believe we can

there's no reason why we cant (:

JIAYOU! (:

SMILE(:

Lyon

Friday, February 13, 2009

8:00 PM

hello!(:

although today's Friday the 13th,

it's still a good day :D

coz everyone celebrated Friendship Day (:

and the school was really flooded with presents(:

angel and mortal game or simply just for friends-

it did seem like christmas:D but the atmosphere was really NICE(:

even though i have become so totally broke after spending so much money on presents,

it's still worth it :D and i did have a meaningful Friendship Day :)

6C12 angel and mortal game:

MY 6C12 angel: ANDREW ZEE

MY 6C12 mortal: ANDREW ZEE

HAHA(:yes, no doubt about it- super coincidental lah!

he's my mortal and im his angel

im his mortal and he's my angel

haha:D damn cool la!(=

the revealing of my identity was FUN because he was totally shocked HAHA:D

it was not so bad for me because i kind of guessed it was him already (:

but he had totally no idea lah! super funny also :D :D

anw hoped he liked my presents and i like his presents too :D

MONGO ANGEL & MORTAL

MY mongo angel: GUO XIANG

MY mongo mortal: WEIJIE

woah i totally didn't expect guo xiang to be my angel lah!

thought it would be a girl HAHA XD

but still, must thank him for the presents:D he's a good angel!(:

AND i don't think weijie expected me to be his angel(:

so a nice surprise:D

haha(:

revealing of DANCE angel and mortal tmr :)

CSC angel and mortal was luckily, also kind of successful (: YAY:D

anyway, now that friendship day is over,

it's back to work, work and MORE work

i realised that i have FREAKING loads of things to do

and if i don't do them,

i'll seriously dieeeee when they start accumulating

so it's time to harden my resolve to do work..

haiz. seriously i need all the motivation i can get lah! haha XD

just have to JIAYOU i guess(=

GAMBATTE:D

just a rant: AHH. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GIVE ME A MIRACLE.><>

Smile(:

Lyon

Thursday, February 12, 2009

8:43 PM

hello!

feeling rather frustrated over 2 things

so i shall vent my frustrations first:

first frustration: audience for symposium><

as much as im trying to keep the optimism and hope going

it's indeed disappointing to a large extent

especially when much effort was made on our part :(

which is of course good la(: i mean at least we really tried our bestis

but oh well! guess the world's like that!

but never mind, maybe a miracle might happen(:

please please let it happen :D

second frustration: a teacher's job scope

in my opinion,

a teacher's job should be to TEACH

and not take on huge projects about revising syllabus

and blah blah blah- afterall, there's a reason for the existence of MOE right?

and maybe MOE should try seperating the job scopes of teachers nowadays

teachers should just teach while all the other admin stuff or major projects

should be taken on by MOE personell instead..

i mean, how can a teacher put all her focus on teaching the students

when she's given pile by pile of work to do

which has only an INDIRECT connection to her teaching...

all these additional stuff might be said to inculcate thinking skills and encourage creativity among teachers

but hasn't anyone thought about the amount of stress it might give teacherS?

hasn't anyone thought that PERHAPS the passion of teaching in teachers might be

eroding due to all these stress...

seriously, although speaking from a point of view which believes in maximizing potential for the benefit of society, i can understand the reason why a teacher has to handle so much stuff

but then again, what's the purpose of teaching? whats the true role of a teacher?

more attention should seriously be spent on these questions...

haiz.

anyway, back to happier stuff,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIEU PING AND CHIN YI(:

today was a super tiring day for me:(

damn drained out now because i slept really late last night><

but oh well(: i shall try to sleep early tonight:D

and its friday the 13th tmro.o

but also celebration for friendship day :D

smile(:

Lyon

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

10:14 PM

hello(:

feeling kind of tired but surprisingly calm now...

today was quite a busy day

but there were still some nice happenings that brightened up my day :D

i guess that in life,

you just have to learn how to make yourself contented (:

everyone always has a long list of regrets and complaints

but perhaps its time to make a list of happy moments(:

actually, i dont know why im blogging positive stuff

because i am feeling quite tired

too tired to feel any motivation through blogging positive stuff><

i shall try blogging some negative stuff instead(:

for a change :D

anyway, i think im discovering more and more

flaws to my character

more and more limits to my patience

and my " nice" ness is also decreasing day by day

and i get proud of myself for actually learning to be more evil..

omg. all this sounds so bad and wrong

but heck, its kind of cool actually

seeing your good points and flaws in a way that you would see them as a third party(:

n i realise i can't explain my behaviour ...

that's weird because it makes everything seem unfair...

aiyo. this is such a random post...

there seems to be so much to blog

but im lazy :D and i should just concentrate on

doing my work(:

JIAYOU:D

Lyon

Monday, February 09, 2009

10:01 PM

hello(:

argh. procrastination kicks in again=(

sad.

i really can't do work at home :(

it's one of those nights that i can't help but daydream

about everything and yet feels like nothing..

haha complicatedly complex--

i'm a complex girl(:

im not an easy person to understand ...

but i guess when i meet the person who can understand me completely

thats the right one(:

but then again, its normal not to understand others(:

just understand urself

and be yourself (=

SMILE(:

LyOn

5:10 PM

hello!(:

it's another regular Monday ..

first day of the week

which is quite ironic because i always seem to be the most tired

on Mondays >.<

sometimes going home alone is good(:

because when you're tired, you don't feel like talking

but at the same time, you're afraid you might seem anti-social or make the other party bored:(

so its better being alone when you can actually reflect about stuff

and maybe about the happenings in that day (:

somehow i'm getting to really like the feeling of going home alone (=

which is good , considering my wish to try to become a mugger:D

but of course, going home with friends is good too lah :D

depends on circumstances i guess(=

anyway,lessons today was quite okay

until CLL came - which totally drained all my energy away :(

but luckily i didn't sleep as much as i thought i would during GP(:

and i'm a highly spiritual person - a real mystic HAHA XD

that's quite cool leh considering that i'm going to be a future social worker(:

which means there's a super high possiblity that im going to be a very good social worker(:

anyone that has problems an just come and find me k!(: HAHA

anyway, its time to do work now (:

JIAYOU everyone :D

came acROss an interesting phrase:

Experience is what everyone uses as a term for their mistakes

interesting. (=

LyOn

Sunday, February 08, 2009

10:17 PM

hello!

feeling kind of tired now

after a whole day at jolene's house

editing the video ><

hehe actually i wasn't the main person editing

kudos to mainly jolene(:

in the end, we all had a nice gossiping session(:

i love listening to gossip!:D

oh and jolene's family is damn nice(:

her mother gave us a packet of rice cracker thingy and a packet of sweets

and a red packet while her father drove us to the MRT o.o

plus i think we made alot of noise . oops><

haha XD but they're really NICE people:D

it's going to be a brand new week

and i'm determined to be a

mugger cum saver(save money) this week!:D

plus hopefully be less lazy(:

because laziness seems to be a permanent flaw in me

i can't help it

im just plain lazy :)

HAHA.

gambatte:D

Smile(:

LyOn

Saturday, February 07, 2009

11:34 PM

hello(:

this is the second time i'm blogging in a day :D

just returned from dinner with sylvanus and hamizah :D

ate at thai express at city hall

(which i feel super guilty now because i spent alot of money :( ahhh)

it was my first time eating there though :D

anyway, we ate from 7 plus and talked all the way til 10 plus o.O

3 hours of talking :D

we were all tired in the end but happy(:

it's amazing how long we could chat(:maybe it's coz our ages are all very near each other

so alot of common topics HAHA:D but i had fun (:

and it really helped me to destress (:

it's a YV day today (:

morning with meiyan, gracilia, hamizah and hidayat

and

night with hamizah and sylvanus(:

<33>

tmr's going to be a tiring day

JIAYOU!:)

Smile(:

LyOn

3:39 PM

hello!

okay im super duper freaking tired x_X

but unfortunately theres like 1001 things to do :(

arghhhh.

anyway, went for the SUN-DAC CNY celebration in the morning(:

with gracilia, meiyan, hamizah and hidayat:D

well, it was pretty good (: and christina's back!:D

yay! ahha XD must really thanks christina and hidayat for their gifts!

it's really kind of amazing when i recall the memory\

of going to last year CNY celebration with jinghuan, mervin and pengyong

haha XD now im the TF , bringing my group there (:

and im still glad i can still see that interaction and spark between them and the clients(:

:D they brighten up my life (:

now, its time to DO WORK :(

must JIAYOU le :D

SmIlE:D

Lyon

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

8:41 PM

hello(:

im hoping a miracle

or at least something good will happen to me tonight

something that will cheer me up instantly

something that will stop me from thinking too much

something that will give me the motivation to do my work

something that will inspire me about my life again

something that's special that will clear the fog of negativity surrounding me

something ... im not sure what that something will be

but im hoping(: really really really hoping =X(:

Lyon

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

11:21 PM

hello(:

im TIRED.

argh. maybe im really worrying too much..

RELAX lyon!

things will turn out fine(:

just wait and see:D

Smile(:

LyOn

4:52 PM

hello!(:

it's really important to believe in yourself , no matter what

because as long as you believe in yourself,

you believe in what you can do,

regardless of any obstacles that might come your way,

you will have the faith and courage to overcome it (:

it's hard because along the way,

there will surely be times whereby things will happen

things that will affect you mentally/physically/emotionally

might happen...

you might feel tired

you might feel abandoned

you might feel depressed

you might even start questioning your existence

everything might start looking bleak

you might start turning emo

and start cursing this whole world and start wondering why your life is so terrible

but what are you doing all this for?

what are you feeling this way for?

what good do you think feeling in this way might bring you?

we all need to vent out the negativity within us from time to time

and once this negativity is gone,

positivity will start flowing in again(:

it's a cycle , an ongoing cycle

a cycle of inspiration(:

that's what i believe in

life is made up of many different cycles

and we can't control all these different cycles but

we can control our feelings, our thoughts, our emotions

if we're feeling really terrible

think of what we can do to make ourself happier

instead of moping around and making everyone unhappy with you

everyone's entitled to happiness

and you will get happiness if you believe in it :D

everything starts with believing (:

never think you're alone

never think that life has no purpose for you

everyone and everthing that has happened in your life so far

happens for a reason(:

have faith in your life journey

because if you live your life to the fullest, treating everything with a positive attitude

you will see how magically it will start to unfold in your favour(:

things will turn out better if you have faith:D

i need faith, i need hope, i need love

but most importantly.

i need to BELIEVE (:

do you?(:

Smile:)

LyoN

Monday, February 02, 2009

1:52 AM

hello!(:

here's a post before i go to sleep :)

feeling rather happy now because i just watched a

XIAO JING TENG video(:

which was a recap of his 2008 :D AWWW <333

and guess what? he has a new song

which is of course, as usual very very very NICE:D

i like the lyrics(: especially the chorus, very inspiring:D

and he wrote it when he was in Italy- cool right!(:

XJT<33

anyway, just came back from miss leong's house (:

6c12 bai nian went quite well:D

especially the ren ri 6c12 birthday pancake celebration:D

haha! super creative lah!:D

it was fun playing in the water also!:D

i haven't swimmed in ages lah!(=

oh! another highlight of the day was swimming with ching hsien

at night for 1 hour plus(:

seriously , i didn't know we actually swam so long

because we swam and talked at the same time :D

a very very nice talk (: it's those kind of heart to heart talks that i like hehe:D

our initial intention was actually to watch the stars but unfortunately

the stars only appeared when we were leaving:(

but oh well:Dim glad we had that nice nice talk (:

plus its my 1ST time swimming at night! (=

anyway, these few days have been tiring:(

but i guess we all have to strengthen our resolve and

carry on positively :D

JIAYOU :)

Lyon