Wednesday, September 30, 2009

11:58 PM

hello:D

yay i just finished all the summaries that i owed people today(:

achieved my goal. haha:D

tmr will be a better day

JIAYOU
(:

smile(:

Lyon

9:07 AM

hello!(:

okay its time to do some light work(:

anyway, was looking through blogs just now

and i came across one which dedicated a part of the post to me

and i felt super appreciated and happy(:

ahh(: dunno why but i just love it when people mention me on their blog

even if it's just my name:D

it makes me very happy(: hehe weird rite?

well, i sort of realized that i'm still quite

a petty and envious person :(

okay lah- but i think i improved from last time(:

but still, i must work harder to improve my character

and the way i think

believe more in my life philosophy(:

for example,

since my life philosophy is to make people happy

and make a difference in their lives,

if something bad happens to me

or i do very badly in some areas or get last in a competition

i should not feel upset

i should feel happy

because i saved someone from the sadness of doing badly in that area

since i have done it worse than him/her(:

and thus i still have achieved my life philosophy

i think this is what is meant by really

letting go of thoughts of winning, glory, superiority, rewards

getting rid of the competitive element in you if possible

and just focusing on making others happy(:

sometimes when i think i'm really very terrible

i'll think that maybe someone out there feels relieved or even happy

to see a more terrible person than him/her

and this will mean that my terrible existence

actually serves a purpose(:

somehow thinking of it this way makes me feel better(:

haha okayy i guess it seems weird rite?

but its actually not

because it all boils down to the simple philosophy

of making people happy when you can

and making a difference in their lives(:

smile(:

Lyon

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

10:29 PM

hello!

okay today was a damn slack day!

happy but feeling a little guilty

but oh well:D must recharge to chiong again mah(:

OH but i just realised

that the lib books i borrowed last time

are due TMR o.O

GG lah. i haven't finish reading them yet

better start doing so!(:

meanwhile,

let's all enjoy these few days

while we can(:

before we start to chiong again:D

im glad that two of my days ahead

are going to be well spent

with two of my most special friends (:

jiayou people!

smile(:

Lyon

9:53 AM

hello(:

i just came back from breakfast with my bro(:

he's got study leave coz his promos start this thurs

so yupp. we went to the coffeeshop nearby to have breakfast(:

and THE MOST EMBARRASSING THING HAPPENED ._.

i ordered the breakfast set with my brother

and like all breakfast sets, there were 2 half-boiled eggs which you had to crack

and i thought i could do it- afterall its just EGGS

and considering that im going to learn to crack eggs sooner or later

i insisted on cracking it myself

and arghh everything was going well UNTIL

the opening part ( okay i don't know how to describe but its the part when you " open" the egg

and let the egg white and egg yolk out- you all get the idea eh?)

i stupidly opened it towards myself

so all the egg white and egg yolk

spilled on me:(:(:( arghhh i have never been covered with egg white and egg yolk before

and it even spilled on the floor

ZZZZ- so sticky and disgusting- i was kind of stunned ><

and and the cleaner glared at me when she was cleaning up :(

sigh. what a bad start to my morning

i shall NEVER eat that breakfast set again UNLESS

i learn how to crack eggs properly. ZZZ haha (:

okayy anyway, PRELIMS are over!:)

aiyah actually i don't really feel that happy about it being over

i think i'm finally getting into the mood of preparing for Alevels(:

coz i'm looking forward to getting back my results

to see how much more i need to get my desired results for Alevels(:

thinking about it in a logical way,

i should have done better in prelims than CTs(:

because i studied more for prelims than CTs

ehh i hope that's the case -- if not, i'll be depressed again muahaha(:

yesterday's last paper for econs

was quite okay for me....

UNTIL i heard that you need some content on the topic beforehand -.-

but anw after that, i ate lunch with simin

and went to join jolai,nicole,sieuping n xinhui(:

although i was somehow very tired

but i still had fun(:

omg and i can't believe they bought musical instruments just like that:)

haHA :) looking forward to hear them play it- guitar and ukelele ahha :D

anyway, was thinking about some stuff yesterday

and i realised that

even though i believe very strongly in accepting people for who they are

i am still strongly against some actions of people

there are things that i just cannot tolerate

and the people who do those

will not get my respect

[but okay lah- there're not many things that i cannot tolerate haha(: ]

of course, it doesn't mean i'll hate them to the core or anything like that

because everyone has flaws

but i'll prefer not to get close to them

i believe everyone's like that too

we get close to the people we're comfortable with

there's nothing wrong with that

because we are all humans, we all have different characters, types and preferences

so naturally we'll click better with some people

as compared to others(:

nevertheless, i believe that as long as we accept everyone for who they are

generally, we can still all be friends(:

its just a matter of degree.

i'm a person who does not have a very high self-esteem

it's actually quite low

but but but everytime i sink into my depressed mode

because of my low self-esteem

i'll start counting my blessings(:

i'll think of all the people who have made a difference in my lives

all the people who have always been there for me(:

all the people who have helped me in some way another

and especially the people who i really treasure

and i'll feel very blessed(:

i might not be the perfect person

might not have the perfect life

but it doesn't matter

because to me, even though there are times

when i think my life sucks

if i could live my life all over again

i want everything to stay the way it is(:

and i'll look forward to the future

no matter what it is
(:

wouldn't the world be a better place

if we could all learn to be content? :D

and when i mean content-

i mean really content

not just empty talk

because only when we're truly contented

with the way things are

we can appreciate them better(:

i like appreciation(:

i like to show people my appreciation for them

because i'm not a person

whos very good with my words

so sometimes i think i don't show my appreciation well enough

especially to people who i really appreciate for being in my life(:

we should all appreciate more :D

ohh which brings me to an idea that i had during prelims

i want to do something for everyone i care about

for Alevels(:

i have a rough idea of what to do le

but i will need help:) haha

i shall take this few days to see how and plan it ba(:

meanwhile, let's all jiayouu:D:D

smile(:

Lyon

Saturday, September 26, 2009

11:55 PM

hello! =)

yay i've successfully healed myself again

was kind of really depressed just now

because of so many things

and suddenly all my flaws seemed so evident to me

so yea, i sank into depression mode><

but i'm okay already now(:

after my healing process :D

FRUIT BASKET <3333

it never fails to heal me(:

it's the ultimate medicine

for my depression times :D

and im really thankful for it

thankful for all the inspiration i never fail to derive from it

the laughter, the hope

the touching words i see in it(:

i hate it when i get depressed

because i always feel damn pathetic

and irritated and pissed off

i'm supposed to be curing people of depression in future

yet im still so weak

not mentally strong yet><

i have always believed that

when there are people who hurt

there are people who heal

so i always have this dream to be the person who will heal others(:

but to heal others

i must first be capable of healing myself (:

sometimes its not easy to heal yourself

because the wounds can just open up anything

during your healing process

and you're back to where you started

but the crux to it

is to never give up- persevere

appreciate(:

and besides fruit basket-

chong siang also never fails to inspire me(:

everytime i think of that incident two year ago,

i always feel super motivated(:

i know there are so many people out whos actually suffering

but for the sake of others

thinking of others- to make them happy and at ease,

they put on a happy front

and i always admire this kind of people

because they're not only courageous but they're altruistic(:

to be able to put aside your troubles just for the sake of others

just to see others smile

thats something i always want to emulate(:

it may seem stupid because

it doesn't seem logical to suffer just to make others happy

but why not? look deep into your heart for the answer?

why must we always weigh pros and cons, benefits and costs?

why can't we follow your heart, follow our instinct

why can't we just focus on what we really want to do- for others?

why can people like chong siang show true empathy and kindness and consideration

but other people who are more blessed than him can't?

everytime i close my eyes and put myself in his shoes

frankly, my heart pains each time because i can imagine his suffering

living in a world that has no sound

living in a world where he can't talk

he can't express himself

where people can't understand him well

but he always puts others first

puts others before him

he always puts on a smile on his face(:

because he wants to brighten up other people's day

because he doesn't want others to worry about him

because seeing others happy makes him happy(:

its that simple.

is it because we are whole normal human beings living in a society

where we have access to many many more things

than the disadvantaged

where we live much more affluent lives than the disadvantaged

that we tend to take everything for granted?

one reason why i love volunteering so much

is because its where i see the true beauty

of values such as love, kindness, altruism, selflessness

which i don't usually see around me

and the funny thing is that i see these values

in the people im helping

in the less advantaged people

is it only when we lose something

will we treasure and appreciate more?

im guilty of taking so many things for granted

one reason why i don't really share personal troubles

is because i cannot bring myself to do so

because i know that at some point of time

i will realise how small and insignificant these troubles are

as compared to other people's troubles

yet they are still so strong, live life so bravely

so how can i be so wilful and childish to complain

or to even think that my troubles are very significant?

if others can live their life bravely

in the face of great troubles,

i don't see why i can't in the face of small troubles?

if i am going to be someone who is going to make a difference in other's lives

if i am going to be someone who is going to spend my life helping others

i need to be very very strong

mentally(:

for the people that im going to help or make a difference in their lives(:

i always told myself that

living for others is my goal(:

its normal to live for oneself

everyone does that

but living for others is something special(:

its not a noble thing or anything to brag about

but i think that if you know that there's someone living out there

with a purpose to help you

you'll feel more appreciated(:

of course no one can be so selfless

so i can't expect myself to live 100% for others

but i hope at least 50 %(:

i'm currently too weak

not strong enough yet

but i believe by the time

im a social worker

i will be(:

and for that goal,

i will work hard.(:

so gambatteea!:D:D

smile(:

Lyon

Friday, September 25, 2009

8:55 AM

helloo(:

just came back not long ago

from a nice morning walk(:

i like walking around in the morning

listening to music

and just appreciating everything around me(:

makes me feel alive haha:D

but okay lah

i must confess i have been slacking ever since

i came back

but i know i better start doing work

or i'll really regret it :(

im going to own econs case study!!! haha XD

i hope(:

anyway,

i was thinking about random things

during my morning walk

coz i can always find inspiration somehow(:

and i realised how much i was looking forward to Alevels to be over(:

i'll have so much time

to do what i want(:

i'll have so much time to help the people i want to help

volunteer more

make more people smile(:

i'll finally help around in the house

and my mum will accept me for doing so

coz i dont have the responsibility of studying already(:

haha like i said,

im going to do housework

and learn how to cook!(:

and maybe i'll clear up my house

and invite friends to my place to eat my cooking

muahaha:)

but yea, just this two thoughts for now

make me really look forward

to life after Alevels(:

but for now,

i just got to persevere for 2 more months

and i'll be done(:

so i must keep the faith and jiayou XD

gambatte!!

smile(:

lyon

Thursday, September 24, 2009

7:11 PM

HELLO(:

ahaha im feeling much better now:D

coz i returned back to the kittens(:

and i saw a cat there which looked like their mother :D:D

HAHA(: yayy and some of the cat food i put was gone

and the kittens were looking contented and sleepy<33

so im kind of relieved that they do have a mother

and at least if anything happens, hopefully their mother

will be there for them(:

okayy anyway, im super duper tired now

but im really glad

there's only ONE more paper left

well but i still need to study very hard for this paper

coz i flopped my econs paper 2

sighh

but i shall jiayouuuu :D

meanwhile,

tonight

i shall

SLACKKKK:D:D

smile(:

LyON

6:44 PM

hellllooo

arghhh i feel kind of bad and worried now:(

well, on my way to buy dinner,

i saw 2 newborn kittens sleeping in a box

and i really couldn't resisting

doing what i could to help them

coz they were shivering

so i got a shirt to cover them slightly

coz in case it gets cold in the night

and i stole some cat food at my hse void deck

and put it near them

but arhhh somehow after i did that

i can't help worrying about them ><

arghh what if the other cats come and snatch their cat food away?

coz they are so small- they probably cannot defend themselves

den it will be all my fault:(

haizz

ahhh somehow i feel im a busybody:(

well, although i decided to leave it to fate

and see whether they are still there tmr

if they are still there tmr, i'll do something more to help them

but if they are not, then there's nothing i can do

but argh. i can't believe this

i feel damn bad

ohh nooo

i wanted to help them

but i keep getting this feeling im not helping them

ehh how ahhhh x_X

sian -i cant believe im worrying abt this kind of things:(

on a brighter note,

one more paper to go:D

lyon

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

9:27 PM

hello:D:D

tmr- third and second last paper---

jiayouuu(:

smile(:

Lyon

Monday, September 21, 2009

9:06 PM

helllooo(:

yay finally did some work today!

not alot but comparatively more than yday:D

ahah XD

okayy lah(:

im feeling rather neutral abt the fact that i slacked so much

which is in a way good lah hor(:

i shall move on and look forward to the future:D

haha:D this is random but i love fruit basket alot alot alot alot <33333333

lyon

Sunday, September 20, 2009

9:33 PM

hello!

argh. im so going to get retribution

for slacking these 2 days away.

argh. totally pissed me off

grr.... but oh well oh well

the encouragements help (:

and my FRUIT BASKET :D:D haha:D

aww i <33 that anime! (:

haiz. i guess whats done cannot be undone

so i can only try my best the next few days!(:

must jiayou! :D

theres limited time

but with just even one second ,

there still hope(: so i must believe and try hard(:

anyway, suddenly had this streak of enlightenment just now(:

it's really weird

but i suddenly realised how greedy and uncontented i was

which made me feel really selfish ><

well, it was during dinner

i went out with my family to eat -

and coz i didn't know what my parents ordered

so when a big plate of chicken came

and my parents didn't say anything about it ,except how expensive it was and they felt alittle cheated

i really thought that that was all they ordered

and we were only eating that with rice.

and somehow i didn't feel really happy about it

but i knew that it was not cheap and so i had to tell myself to be contented

and be happy that at least i had food to eat ><

just right after i told myself that and got myself into the mindset of enjoying my dinner

more food came!(: haha okok actually not much lah- just a soup and a plate of veggies

but but i was really surprised because i wasn't expecting any more food

but it was a pleasant surprise(;

and also, it let me to reflect on my behaviour just now

the fact that i felt that tinge of unhappiness , discontentment

goes to show how greedy and uncontented i actually was

the sense of appreciation in me is not totally internalized

i didn't appreciate straightaway the food i had and

the fact that i had to coax myself to accept it goes to show that my character really needs much much much much more improvement ><

i need to learn to appreciate everything more(:

not just people, every thing in the world(:

i think it's very very very important to appreciate

because firstly, everyone likes to be appreciated because it does make one happy(:

and i like to make people happy

secondly, it makes them want to appreciate others too :D

so yay its the inspiration cycle(:

HAHA:D okayy end of my enlightenment

enlightenment on how horrible my character actually is =(

i still have so many many flaws

guess i can't be complacent or actually think i possess a very good character

just because of some praises i received in life ><

thats too shallow of me eh...

but nvm, i guess i will try to improve(:

i believe i will :D

now i must improve on my determination to mug:D

jiayou !(:

Lyon

Saturday, September 19, 2009

10:24 PM

helllo(:

okayy today was a DAMN unproductive day

haiz. oh well i guess i got myself into a slack mood

and couldn't seem to do any work

loss of motivation suddenly =/

haiz. that kind of feeling sucks...

BUT(;

i managed to take a rest and recharge

watch my fav anime fruit basket(:

and reading past smses:)'

cheered me up and yep(: i got the motivation to mug again! :D

although i got it back pretty late

so turned out i only really studied for abt 3 hours ><

and im thinking of whether to study anot now

because im really tired

and the stupid thing is that im tired not because im tired of studying

but rather all the slacking is making me tired

haiz. damn irritating

but oh well(: im going to use the excuse that since today is my chinese birthday

its probably justifiable for me to slack a little more than usual(:

but tmr - no more excuses(:

i will jiayou de!:D

jiayou too people!(:

and thanks for all the concern (:

HEH:D

smile(:

Lyon

Friday, September 18, 2009

9:53 PM

hellloo(:

wanted to go and sleep

but couldn't get to sleep

so i thought i'd blog a post ^.^

well, today was econs prelims x_X

sadly to say, i didn't do it very well

i screwed up one of the three essays

and the other two essays were only so-so

HAIZ. oh well

i take it as retribution for slacking last night

and only chionging it this morning :(

maybe it's time to focus on econs again (:

i just hope my case study paper will help me

and this will not repeat itself during Alevels heh

anyway, the first week of prelims is over!

(: really quite happy about that

especially since most of the major exams for me

are in this week

but nevertheless, from tmr morning onwards

i will study doubly hard (:

to everyone who's reading my blog-

if you need encouragement , let me know okay?(:

i'll send u something

and be more than willing to encourage you :D

keeps me happy too (: HEH

well, went with jolenelai, grace,chinghsien and nicole to post centre

to eat today after econs:)

ahaha (: enjoyed myself ^.^

i realise that sometimes its the understanding you get from people around you

that keeps you going on smiling(:

heh :D

some personal reflections( you can skip them if you want (: )

sometimes i'm really quite fed up with the way i am

cuz at times when i treat different groups of people in my life differently

i feel really disgusted at myself because i don't know the reason why

i behave differently

and i even suspected that i'm subconsciously wearing a mask in life :(

argh. what a horrible thought.

haizz but everytime i think like this, i try to make sense out of everything

and i did come to a conclusion(:

maybe it's a natural thing

because everyone is different

we react differently, we think differently, we behave differently

towards different things

and that's what makes us truly living human beings(:

i mean, theres no way you could treat everyone the same

it's kind of freaky- like you're a robot ><

so yeaa i guess its actually natural to treat different people differently(:

not that you're showing bias or anything

but i guess you just feel comfortable in different ways around different people(:

like for me,

when i'm in a big group, i feel comfortable watching them talk , laugh

and just by doing that, its weird but i feel kind of happy and content(: haha

but if im in a small group or with someone, i feel comfortable

initiating conversations and talking perhaps more(:

and hmm i don't think im the only one like that(: ahah:D

actually, on a deeper level ,

the logic for how im feeling comfortable is because i want to make people feel comfortable (:

haha its a good thing but also a flaw of mine

but haiz oh well(: thats who i am

and although i do resent such character flaws at times

i do like myself for who i am(:

so yeaahh thinking this way kind of helps me derive an answer for my behaviour (:

aiyahhh haiz actually i think i treat my family very badly:(

and i really really really mean it- that i treat them very badly

but argh i can't help it which totally pisses me off

because i know i shouldn't be doing that x_x

well, i do have some answer as to why im behaving that badly to them

but still, the main point is that i do feel guilty :(

BUT that's why

i'm going to do my best to make it up to them after my Alevels(:

im going to do housework

learn how to cook

and help around the house in anything i can help in(:

and im going to try stay at home more often and take care of the house(:

HAHA sounds like im learning how to be a wife right? LOL

but this goal of mine keeps me motivated to strive well for Alevels

and surprisingly

it keeps me looking forward to the days after Alevels(:

so im going to do my best for Alevels

so i can repay them and make up for all my nasty behaviour(:

heh:D if you think you're nasty to your parents too

and feel guilty

maybe you could do so too!:D

haha XD(:

but for now, im really drained out by all the exams

and the stinky air

that is driving me nuts:(

haiz

OHHH!(:

today is the last day of the 7th lunar month

the end of the hungry ghost festival(:

tmr is the first of the eighth lunar month

and you know why its special?

coz its my chinese lunar birthday(:

i like this chinese lunar birthday of mine coz it has a certain special significance:)

HAHA(:

okok todays a reflective but nice day(:

except for econs

so now i need to take a rest, move on

and jiayouuu for the long weekend ahead!(:

jiayou people :D:D

smile(:

lyON

Thursday, September 17, 2009

6:40 PM

hellooo:D

yay so happy!

SEA paper is down! :D

haha (: it's my most dreaded paper><

but now, its time for my next most dreaded paper

ECONOMICS!

haiz.

i shall attempt to get motivated by my " im the econs rep so i must do well" theory(:

haha:D

jiayouu(:

but for now, i'll take a short rest first:)

ahha XD

smile(:

Lyon

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

10:27 PM

helloo!(:

PRELIMS have officially started

and today's maths and CLL paper

totally drained me out :(

was super super tired >.<

but oh well, i slept earlier so im feeling abit better now :D

heh(:

CLL paper was quite okay(:

i did it from the back for the first time

and surprisingly it worked quite well

i finished 5 mins before time

well, considering the quality of my answers,

i know i won't do very well

but nevertheless, im content because i tried my best(:

Maths was indeed a killer paper

but hm the paper was better than expected ( to me) (:

afterall, i already got the worst i could get during CTs

so at least i know that i won't get a U this time

which makes me quite happy(:

okayy this is weird

im happy because i won't get a U

but yeaa(: haha :D i want to break out of the

" im a U grade maths student" category mahh ><

haha:D

okayy SEA history is NEXT:(

omgggg damn GG.

haiz. but okayy i won't resign to fate

i'll try my best(:

jiayou people!:D

smile(:

Lyon

Saturday, September 12, 2009

11:02 AM

hello!(:

okayy i feel guilty.

i've been slacking:(

but oh well(:

i'm hooked on some english songs that i think are quite inspiring:)

mariah carey- hero

mariah carey & whitney -when you believe

celine dion- thats the way it is

michael jackson- heal the world

and and and :Dsurprisingly

david archuleta- when you believe, stand by me , crush:)

ahha XD

weird but yeaa(: i feel inspired

but okay lah

its back to mugging

well, frankly speaking, sometimes i wonder

whether i'm really productive or really preparing well for it

and studying really kinds of drains me out

haha

but oh well, if i am going to encourage others

i guess i must have to encourage myself first ehhh

i shall JIAYOu:)

smile(:

Lyon

Thursday, September 10, 2009

11:10 PM

helloooooo(:

i'm damn freaking tired now:(

need to rechargeeeee :D

well, i just came across this meaningful sentence not long ago:)

whereby someone asked"

when will miracles happen?

you kn0ow whats the answer?

it happens every moment, every second you breathe:)

because living is a miracle :D

and so sometimes while we hanker after miracles,

maybe we have all overlooked the true miracles in our life:)

treasure them :D:D

jiayou people!(:

if you believe ,

you can(:

and if you can,

you will(:

so yea(:

work hard!!:D:D

same goes for me!(:

but after i have my sleep:D

smile:)

lyon

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

12:02 AM

helllo!!(:

it's officially the END of my 18th birthday:D:D

and i'm really really really very thankful :D:D(:

although it was a plain birthday( i spent a great deal of it mugging >< )

it was really meaningful (: and special

because of all the birthday sms-es i received :D:D

all the well wishes on facebook i received:):)

all the bday msn msgs i received;)

the birthday lunch treat i received:):)

the presents i got that were advanced bday presents:)

the card cum personal touching letter i received today:)

the unexpectedly touching personal email i received today:)

the birthday dinner with my dinner:)

the mini bday cut cake sing song session with my family mainly " hosted" by my bro:)

i'm really touched, thankful, grateful

for everything:) and really really contented:D

frankly speaking, i was a little sad at first that my 18th birthday

wasn't going to be a really special memorable one><

especially when everyone's 18th bday seemed so special

and i even had to spend my bday mugging

but oh well:) its my bday and i should spend it on my future:DD

so yea, i wasn't really expecting much from it

and i even told myself that i shouldn't be so wilful and spoilt

to actually whine that my 18th birthday wasn't as special as others

because there are some pple out there who aren't even able to celebrate their bday and yeahh

and there are people out there

who deserve more special bday celebrations :)

but, in the end, my birthday turned out more memorable

and special and meaningful than i thought it would be:)

and really, it's because of you all( you know who you are)

and my family :D:D

well, it started with the first bday sms (:

which was really an unexpected bday sms to me (:

and then sms-es started coming in:D

and i really appreciated all :D:D:D

especially some super touching ones

totally made my heart melt :):)

well, i must admit that i didn't receive some of the birthday smses that i expected to receive

but but but, i guess what's most important that offset that mini disappointment

was that i received some really unexpected smses:)

from pple that i didn't expect to rmb or send me bday sms:)

so yea:D:D i was really pleasantly surprised:D

and so , i think i should really be thankful :D:D

really thankful:)

on the start of my bday at 12am(:

i received my first bday sms from CY

which was totally unexpected(:

and my first bday call cum song over the phone from J(:

and even up to the end of my bday

at 12am

i received my last bday sms from MW and MY(:

and of course not forgetting people who wanted to be the last to sms me

and of course the people who smsed me during the whole duration of my birthday :D

LS,XY,HB,LB,D,J,R,SM,MX,S,PY,HK,SC,G,J

,R,A,BX,JL,A,H,J,MQ,Z,WK,HS,HY,YF,F,SP:)

and of course:) everyone who wished me on facebook!!

and msn HAH(:

JB,CY,S,XH,H,AZ,CS(:

i really really really really appreciate it- if i missed out anyone, i din mean it and you should know who you are:D

and of coz my bday lunch treat from CS,presents from SP,MX,V,H ,

card and damn touching letter from SC and unexpected personal email from CY:)

and of course the belated bday wishes:)

haha XD really appreciate everything:D:D

well, and not forgetting my family:D:D

the nice dinner(: <33

and the cake cutting session, photo taking(:

havent taken a family photo for ages:D:D

so really happy!!(: and i hope all my bday wishes come true:):D

actually, this has been a great 18th birthday:D

thanks to all those who care about me:)

for making me loved, appreciated and special

i really really thank you all:D:D

i shall be a more mature girl

and work harder!!:")

jiayou!!(:

smile:)

Lyon

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

12:37 AM

helllooo(:

i'm officially 18! :D

HAHA(: well, i don't really feel as though any major change has occured LOL(:

but anyway, i guess what's meaningful as a birthday

is the symbolic maturing of a person:) to be a better person:D

and of course, the birthday wishes from people who care about me:)

haha:D i shall blog to thank people tmr night:D

but anyway(:

met up with hamizah today!

thanks for the lovely bday gift!:)

and i really enjoyed the chat with you :D:D

HAHA(: thanks for the ez link card

and we must meet up soon after my Alevls:D:D

hmm although i'm going to spend my birthday mugging at post centre

which is indeed a little saddening to think about it,

i shall stay optimistic and as what hamizah said

i should be happy because i'm doing something for my future:)

haha:D plus with my bday dinner with my family tmr

and all the wonderful bday wishes and call(:

i'm actually a very contented happy 18 year old girl:)

yay:D

smile(:

Lyon

Friday, September 04, 2009

8:40 PM

helllloo!(:

it's the end of term 3!

which means the end of school life :(

normal lessons in school -- haizz

i can't believe this day has come-

i've grown so used to this normal daily school routine since primary 1

seems abit amazing that it has finally come to an end.. oh welll..

all good things must come to an end - i guess(:

actually, i do enjoy school leh:D

mainly coz of the people and environment and everything i guess(:

anyway, its the start of sept hols!:D

woahh its time to mug

i'm going to mug very hard this sept hols

and i really mean it this time!(:

maybe to prevent any distractions, i shall ban myself from tv and computer

except for news and check email :)

haha:D

i must be more mature le:)

considering that i'm turing 18 soon!:D haha :D

hm but the thought of mugging my birthday away seems a little

saddening .. but oh well:)

i guess its for my future so a mature decision would be to use my birthday wisely

where i'll be hopefully super productive:)

anyway, was kind of tramautised over my GP :(

or rather, GP paper one ><

OMG. it's the first time i actually panicked so much over time

during GP paper one lehh:(

i actually only had 15 MIN to complete

2 MAIN POINTS AND A CONCLUSION lehh

which means i compromised

HEAVILY

on my quality and handwriting:(

well, i did finish the paper- thats the only bonus point i guess(:

but i would NEVER want to repeat that again for alevels

so its indeed a blessing in disguise

i shall NEVER spend so long choosing a qn

and trying out stupid strategies:(

hah XD

paper 2 was okay okay

not terribly bad but not terribly good><

but AQ was terribly hard:(

aiyoo. oh well, whats done cannot be undone!:)

so i shall just put GP aside

and move on:D

had history after GP all the way till 5 plus ><

haha XD

i like ms krishnan as a teacher ALOT :):)

although she stresses us, gives us work to do,

makes us stay back and stuff like that,

i think that she's one of the most caring and dedicated teachers (:

i mean sure, she adopts a harsh approach and sometimes theres this intimidating overpowering aura around her and shes not the typical nice,warm teacher

but she still shows her concern for us in her own unique way

her pep talks and everything does indeed help me alot:)

im always touched by her pep talks(:

and i really really really don't wish to disappoint her for history ><

especially when we already have disappointed her so much

even when she has done so much for us already...

i shall work doubly hard for history!! (:

well, here's a theory i would like to share:)

because of something kailin said to me today which really touched me alot:)

haha coz i think no one has said that to me before:D

" Your strength is your optimism"

- thats what she said to me(:

actually , i'm not really that optimistic lah(:

its just that i have a shorter magnitude for my individual mood curve:)

well it takes the shape of a sin curve

its normal for people to be depressed

and when they're depressed, its just because they're on the downward sloping side

of their individual mood curve

but but but there will always be a point

when they reach rock bottom

and start on the upward sloping part of the curve:)

thats when they start healing themselves

and bit by bit, they will heal themselves and head for the top

whereby they''ll be happy and normal again:)

its just that the downward sloping portion of my curve is shorter:)

thats why i can get over my depression moments rather quickly

its normal to be sad over things

because its a process

when people hurt, there'll always be other pple who will heal:)

thats something i believe in:)

so i want to be a catalyst for many pple in their upward sloping part of the curve

their healing process:)

haha:D its an amazing thing(:

so no matter how bad things are,

just deal with it as how you will deal with it(:

get hurt

mope over the hurt

get depressed over it

and heal yourself

and move on(:

thats how life is (:

thats how we lead life fruitfully:D

dont force yourself to put on a happy front

it will only serve to stagnate your eventual healing process

so never get demoralised

and JIAYOU:D

we can all do it(:

cheers

Lyon

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

3:36 PM

helloo(:

i love receiving personal letters from people(=

it brightens up my day

and warms my heart:)

that's one big reason why i always believe

in using the power of sincere personal letters to

brighten up the lives of people whom i care about (:

do to others what you would like others to do to you(:

everytime i picture the person whos reading my personal letter to her/him

smiling or even feeling a slight tinge of happiness

gives me the motivation to start or continue writing my personal letter to her/him (:

nothing is more touching than true heartfelt words coming from people around you :D

all letters with sincerity have the ability to warm hearts(:

because i know how happy i am when i receive people's personal letters

so i want the people around me to feel this happiness too(:

sharing the happiness is one of the happiest things we can ever do(:

i know personal letters are hard to come by,

so i don't really expect to receive many such letters

but thats the reason why when i really do so,

my happiness gets hugely inflated:)

its also because i know that like me ,people also don't really expect to receive such letters

all the more, i want them to receive such letters:)

i want them to experience the joy of receiving :D

whether to pass on this joy,

is up to them

to me, im more than content for them to feel this joy:)

thankyou (=(=

let's give while we can <33

lyon

10:17 AM

hellooo(:

have i ever mentioned how

wonderful xiao jing teng is? :D:D

<333

smile(:

Lyon