hello(:

today's my chinese birthday.(:

The day started out badly because i made a wrong decision and hence,screwed up something
that i had spent alot of effort on. It's kind of ironic because I thought my birthday would bring me luck :( but oh well, at least I got over it(: and the rest of the day went well <3

While i was emo-ing on the way to school, i was thinking about how not being able to " let go" and not "cry over spilt milk" was a big weakness of mine. Whenever I do something wrong, I'll emo and dwell in self-reproach or misery and regret, always trying to climb out of the wrong and be positive again. I have a certain faith in myself that I'll get out of this rough patch , i'll learn from my mistakes and be a better person but yet, there's just this monster crunching away on my negativity in my heart that keeps me frustrated and sad. But, it's just how to cope with my negativity and start afresh. afterall, why live life so negatively , right?(:

let that be something for me to work on(: