This morning, I was woken up by my brother's call to be his delivery girl to deliver another pair of shoes to the MRT where he was, because his soles of his shoes were spoilt. Although it was tiring rushing all the way down, but I felt happy when he thanked me and he had good shoes to wear again. (: It's such simple acts that bring us closer and makes me feel happy.

Had a surprise this morning! Py sent me an email reply to my sms about some personal issues that I had recently. Thankyou py(: (:(: There was this sentence that struck me as pretty meaningful:

I think the most important thing in the world starts with making yourself happy,
and you chose it to do it by being contented( in a balance) with yourself and your life.

He made me realise that as I was trying to find a solution to my personal issues, perhaps what I had overlooked or subconsciously been finding is a way to make myself happier. Sticking to my set of life principles, trying to search for the deeper meaning behind things in life, coming up with certain ideas and beliefs to counter obstacles in life that I face as a person -- maybe it's just actually a journey to make myself happier and not just a problem-solving process.(: Things seem quite simpler, with that mindset, in the sense that the next time, I encounter this process again, I will tell myself that I'm searching for the solution that will make me happy.

He also made me realise that sometimes when I get a solution and search for the best way out, it's not just " the right thing to do", it's not just an obligation, a sign of maturity, but it's a way of choosing, a choice that will make myself happy. Being happy can be selfish but usually, it's the happiness derived from selfless behaviour that will make one feel truly happy. :) At times, as I struggle with balancing my own selfish wants and other's wants and needs, I put others before me and although it's painful at times, deep down I know that this is just a small part of my life and if this actions could prevent any unforeseen terrible consequences , it's worth it. (: It's okay to be negative at times because I've been blessed with positivity and happy times so it's only fair. Pain is a symbol of sacrifice but it's not always the end to a sacrifice-sometimes , happiness lies at the end.

I remember how I was really a very happy girl in primary school days. (: Searching for songs of the cartoons and animes that I watched then never fails to make me feel the happiness that I had so many years ago. Sometimes, it's the child inside each of us that's our source of happiness and with this thought in my mind, at times I really want to work with children and impact them positively and give them as bright a childhood that they can have so that they can see their childhood as a source of comfort and hope. (: