Hello! (:

Procrastination kicks in AGAIN. -.-
Sometimes, when i tell people that i'm actually secretly a procrastinator,
they give me the surprised or doubtful look, probably because I look so hardworking and guai =p

Anyway, I'm feeling stressed. Yes, I know that it may sound weird because afterall, my exams are over. But, regardless of that, i'm stressed about getting in 3 youth participants for the camp that I'm planning for. Anyway, to those who are reading my blog, if you know any youth from 13-18 years old and may be free during 20-22 December, let them know that there's this fun and free camp , called Camp Castaway. And let me know if they want more details. (: It's a 3D2N camp.

I don't know why but I have always been stressed by the need to "get people", be it for participation or for whatever purposes. Is it because I feel bad about possibly "troubling" them or maybe because I fear rejection or am afriad of being "ignored" so I don't want to make the first step? Or is it because I see this kind of "numbers" as a form of accountability and responsibility and I hate to push myself to try and accomplish something that is beyond my control? I feel quite disgusted with myself and everything actually. In the future, will I be subjected to the same kind of struggle during my course of work? I secretly think so - getting people for the sake of getting people and not because I want to help them ...pressure of KPIs perhaps? I want to find a streak of hope. Maybe I'm just being pessimistic about everything. Maybe it's just my own insecurities that are making me resent this... this is not the first time I'm faced with this struggle but how come I feel it's not getting easier for me? Sigh.