hello! (:
i woke up thinking:
TODAY is the FIRST DAY of the REST OF MY LIFE! (:
it really helps(: because somehow i feel motivated to make todAy a special , meaningful and fruitful day where i can MAKE A DIFFERENCE (:
Anyway, had OP practice yesterday at NLB (:
we met up with DH004 (:
the courtyard was full so we went to this " underground" place
which was full of mosquitoes ><
nevertheless , we all had fun together (: (:
haha i like DH004! xD
and they are really good! :D
in the end, we ended up some other place
because someone complained about us -.- oh well (:
and i finished reading the book about this deaf person and his journey (:
its really a great book because besides it being meaningful, it is also very educational :D
there are elaborations on many terms associated with the deaf
and i really feel blessed to have my hearing intact (:
sometimes we tend to take many things for granted
and instead focus on other materialistic things
such as our looks, popularity , achievements etc
whereby we often feel uncontented and envy others
but why don't we try to focus on the simplest , most basic things ?(:
we are what we are and
to be able to be who we are shows us how blessed we are ;)
only the people who realise that can see the meaning of spending their life helping others :D
i'm working hard to be in this category of people :D
next, im moving on to read the book
" WHY PROCRASTINATE? "
if i really find myself procrastinating less after i read the book
i shall strongly recommend to people :D
procrastination is something really scary because it leads to certain consequences which might cause regret ><>
and i hate time clashes... rahh. shall try to solve it:)
jiayou for OP , year 5s!:)
SMILE:)
Lyon
Friday, October 24, 2008
10:30 PM
hello!(:
i've decided to blog first before starting all my work
and this is going to be a LONG post (:
well, its been PW and CSC again these few days ><
but theres one more extra thing (=(= <333
thankyou (:
ANYWAY,
today was the returning of result slips
or rather - draft result slips :D
well, i kind of expected my results so didn't really get a shock or anything like that,
BUT was kind of surprised that GP was moderated by so much aha (:
judging from my CTs and promos, i was supposed to get a low "E"
but instead i got a D (: perhaps it's to allay the fears of our parents
afterall, the importance of GP is undeniable (:
i knew i could have done better.
perhaps that's the reason why i did not really feel anything for my current results ><
instead, i spent the time pondering over my 4H2 subject combination- whether i should drop any H2 to a H1 subject and my pile of committments x.x
Seriously, the problem of commitments is starting to worry me.
to the extent that i actually decided to give up the chance of volunteering with autistic children ><
something which i really really like and enjoy alot.
but its not practical to just do things based on your interest ..
furthermore, A levels is once a lifetime whereas i will have many chances of volunteering in future.
so i hope that was the correct choice:D
Miss Leong mentioned that if my commitments are too heavy,
i DEFINITELY should cut down.
but then again, cut down on what? can't think of anything to cut down except for
outings:( but even for outings, there ARE certain outings that i WILL NOT miss :D
so yea. i can't cut down on CCA commitments at all which are already enough to kill me
and for external commitments, there's not much to cut down except for unnecessary stuff like i mentioned in my previous posts.,.. so yea.. haii XD this sucks. like seriously..
studies should really really come as FIRST priority lahh XD
oh man. actually hor, although i keep on moaning and groaning now ,
i will probably just stick through my committments and try to survive it lorrr haha XD
haiz. NUSNUSNUSNUSSOCIALWORKSOCIALWORKSOCIALWORK-- jiayou lyon! :D
very tired now:)
will blog more soon XD
SMILE:)
LyOn
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
11:29 PM
hello!:)
busy with CSC and PW these few days ><
there's so much things to be done
yet i still find time to slack -.- how highly commendable of me x)
sometimes when i read blogs of people who have more time than me
and use this time to go out and work or play,
the first emotion that comes to my mind would be envy ><
ahh. if only i didn't have so many committments:)
i could probably be enjoying life more now xD
but on the other hand,
interests are what that matters ultimately..
so as long as i feel happy about what i am spending my time on,
that's more than enough:)
there are so many people who have no choice but to live every moment of their life in misery
so i should be grateful that im still given a chance to do stuff that i want to do (=
although there are things which im being forced to do
but on the bright side, maybe it will help me raise my level of tolerance :D
felt super slack this morning xD
borrowed books :) thought of interview questions, drank coffee
and complaining to jolene lai about my committments X)
thanks for hearing my rants haha XD
even though there's such an easy solution,
i don't think i will ever take up that solution ><
its really ironic how we choose to take the hard path instead of the easy path at different points of our life (X
lessons were okay. nothing very significant about today except...
CSC 1ST INTERVIEW for the yr4s started today!:D
was quite looking forward to it , to seeing what kind of members there would be in my club:)
and after today, somehow i feel more optimistic about CSC's future:)
hope the next few sessions are good too!:D
and thanks to my secretary weijie for accompanying me and writing down their responses:)
well, there was this girl who asked me about my experience in CSC
and organizing service learning projects..
din think i expressed myself very well ( oh no:( must work on expressing skills)
because i just said whatever i felt ,
which came in jumbled pieces haha XD
but it made me really start to reflect as how i have matured as a person as a result of CSC (:
it's been challenging :( even up til now
but the little improvements along the way are what that keep me going :)
and i'm glad we chiong-ed so much this year
because there were a couple of events that CSC members could use and write in their record :)
especially if next year's CSC symposium goes well :D
jiayou CSC members!:D
just BE YOURSELF:)
whats meant to come will come so just handle it your way
when its here:)
there was MOE seminar yesterday! :D
went for it and i must admit teaching does seem a more desirable job after the seminar yesterday..
and people actually told me they could imagine me as a pri sch tcher-.- ahha XD
BUT social worker stilll means most to me :D
so i will not give up :)
GAMBATTE:)
Lyon
Monday, October 20, 2008
10:21 PM
hello!(:
stressing again because the pile of work i have to do is simply
INCREASING BY THE MINUTE-.-and im totally in a slack mood so the thought of chionging work really puts me off
but i know the consequences will be dire if i don't start on it now.
so as much as i hate to say this:
START ON YOUR WORK NOW LYON!
if not, i'll probably GG tmr :(
JIAYOU:):)
smile:)
LyOn
Sunday, October 19, 2008
1:50 AM
hello!:D
i must be seriously MAD o.O
i actually spent the past half hour learning 蕭敬騰'S
海芋戀 DANCE :)
HAHAHA(:
oh my. i cant believe myself HAHAH (:
but because he danced super cute
so i couldnt resist trying to learn hahahaha (:(:
but of course, my dancing probably cant make it
and not as good or cute as his :)
but very shuang hahaha XD
oh my. haha:)
SMILE:)
LyOn
Saturday, October 18, 2008
10:38 PM
hello:)
havent blogged for quite a long period of time ehh (:
SO this shall be a LONG post!(:
Was very busy recently with PW ><
WR!(: i must say im really proud of DH005(:
although we changed our whole journey like about 2 weeks before submission
while others had since the start of PW to work on their journey,
im really glad and happy that we managed to churn out a decent WR (:
looking back now, it was kind of A miracle (:
especially when there's only the 4 of us (:
all the late nights outside at the end and tiredness was all worth it (:
now , we have only ONE more hurdle to go before we can celebrate(:
PROJECT A! WE CAN DO IT FOR OP!(: JIAYOU!
Received back my promo results before started chionging WR like saio,
which is a good thing
because the chionging of WR took my mind off promo results haha(:
Well, all i can say about my promos is that,
I EXPECTED IT. oh well.
what you put in is what you get x)
in fact, i should count my blessings that i still managed to scrape a decent grade for all my subjects
( decent grade= at least an E :D )
especially for GP- i was so afraid that i would fail it because i knew i did really badly
poor time management and wrong choice of question led to my demise in GP
so oh well:) i better buck up on GP!
especially after seeing what Mr Tan wrote to us,
i DO feel guilty..i know that i have not been working hard on GP ><
oops. i shall really start taking GP seriously,afterall my career as a social worker depends LARGELY on it so
GAMBATTE:D
I did better than i expected for maths
so thats a bonus:) it's not a marked improvement
* now thinking about it, there was no significant improvement shown from my CT grades to promo grades><
but then again, i put in the same amount of effort for both when im supposed to put in more on promos, so what can i expect? haha xD*
but i really really really thought i flunked it ><
because i did not know how to do almost a part of every question
especially for integration which i got 1 out of 6 marks -.-
but i guess i was lucky(: to somehow get some working marks for every question
i must value this luck and jiayou for my maths ^.^
Economics! i feel really bad that we disappointed miss leong
because firstly we are her civics class and yet we were the worst ><
imagine the sense of disappointment >< could see she was really really sad about us ..
which makes me feel really bad because im the econs rep hehe
( yea fine. i know theres not much link but somehow i cant help but feel partly responsible haha xD )
BUT im glad that we did show some improvment (:(:
this shows that we still have HOPE for econs! :)
I BELIEVE THAT WE CAN DO BETTER FOR ECONS AND MAKE MISS LEONG PROUD OF US (:
so the most important thing is NOT TO LOSE HOPE (;
5C12 can do it :D
well, im pretty happy that i improved for econs(:
* just ONE MORE MARK. ARGHHH.aiyah*
but then again, i didnt improve by much and the reason why i improved was because this was indeed an easier paper than CT paper.. so my improvement does not mean much too...
but oh well (: at least i had a minor breakthrough (: for part a of an essay (:
i must say that my essays were better than i expected because i was really out of time for those 2 essays
and was chionging like mad towards the end of the paper.. plus the few econs essay qn consultation with miss leong was pretty demoralizing >< >< so , im glad i improved and kept my promise of doing better for econs:)
after my flunked essay of 7/25 haha:) I SHALL WORK HARDER! ( coz im the econs rep too! haha:) )
CLL- well, i " deproved" but it was kind of expected too...
in fact, i should thank my lucky stars that i managed to just nice get a C
not much feeling towards CLL, maybe because its my most " heck care" subject
and its significance to me is the least out of the other 4 subjects haha (:
but then again, its still an Alevel subject
thus i have to be responsible for it and JIAYOU (:
so i must really strain my brain and MEMORISE;D
HISTORY- okay, i shall face it- im the most disappointed with my history grades><
well, i saw it coming but yet i must admit when it came, i was not totally mentally prepared for it
lucky there was WR to stop me from emo-ing about it haha:)
from an A to a C , theres really quite a big drop and it was indeed hurting to see miss krishnan;s comments that she " expected better" but she still had the " confidence" in me
and when she talked to me , she said somehow this promos,
that" spark" was missing which she was quite puzzled and disappointed because i always did
" very well" for normal tests and assignments.. haha was abit at a loss as to what to answer her
when she asked what happened hehe XD
firstly, i didnt prepare enough - it was obvious
i didnt even have time to go through my Cold War notes NOR finish my SEA
so what can i say? my information was definitely lacking , my confidence wasn't there
and although i thought i could handle those 4 essays by crapping something out,
i was evidently mistaken haha (= oh well! thats just the first factor for my " demise"
secondly, it was COMPLACENCY ><
much as i hate to admit it, i was complacent about history..
yes, i valued it but i thought i had the skills and luck to pull it off,
just like in common test ( even though when i knew common test was a fluke)
i prayed for the same luck and skills to get me the similar good grade i got in CTs ( even when i knew the chances were low ) and just as i expected, it was just wistful thinking on my part haha (:
oh well. pride comes before a fall and im glad it came before my Alevels:)
at least theres time for me to reflect and try harder (;
i knew how well i might have gotten if i tried harder
if i prepared well for it , i could have succeeded in making my overall grade for history an A
but now, its just a B >< but, whats done cannot be undone soooo
NVM! :) I STILL HAVE CHANCES next year(:
I SHALL OWN HISTORY NEXT YEAR (; MUAHHAA:)
my overall grade for promos slipped but i should probably feel lucky it didnt slip as badly as i though (:
and its really an urgent reminder that my Alevels is NEXT YEAR!><
havent been really spending my whole year on studies..
more on CCA and slacking ><
somehow i regret giving myself so many different committments :(
seriously , i should just focus on whats important to getting me my career
- studies and CSC (:
of course i enjoy some of my other committments too
but if only i could learn to be hardhearted and practical enough ><
just like this hols :
dance followed by yvip
follwed by dance again
theres like almost no rest for me -.-
especially when thats what i want to do - study
because getting into NUS SOCIAL WORK is really IMPORTANT to me ..
PLUS i realised i have NOT been spending enough time at home helping my family
my mother has been sick for very long and im really very worried><
but her sickness has also made me realize what an irresponsible girl i have been
putting other committments and even playtime before my family ><
when its supposed to be the other way unless its really important committments
like PW ... and I HAVENT EVEN TELL HER I WILL ALMOST NOT BE AT HOME TO HELP DURING THE HOLIDAYS...stupid me, why did i sign myself up for so many committments when i knew i already had more than enough on my plate -.- why didnt i stick to what i wanted initially.. >< SIAN.
i feel really really bad about that and everytime i have to go out for something that i know was not compulsory in the first place, i feel really really guilty :(its mentally toturing lah. others have the luxury to go out everyday and blah blah but not me, and my mother already made it clear to me from the beginning
yet i still stupidly went for so many committments ,just because i couldnt bear to say NO :( argh. argh. who can i blame except myself . SIGH..
all i can do now is try to be hardhearted and plan my time properly once this hols start-
for DANCE: strictly go for dance ONLY
for YVIP: strictly go for the programme only, say NO to ALL outings and irrelevant stuff to volunteering
coz thats the main reason why i joined it as TF
BUT of course, there are exceptions:)
if it involves meeting friends or bonding with friends which are really important to me
such as the wudao sisters or YLF etc(:
or outings with friends that are really important or those whom we don't get to meet up/talk often
or 5C12 outings:)
thats a different story:) ( but of course not too many times lah )
i believe that holidays are for bonding :D so yea:)
i think i made my priorities CLEAR le so yea
please forgive me if i say NO :)
its going to be a hard journey from now on..
but i shall PERSEVERE:)
frankly speaking, i do start to feel emo more often nowadays
its not really serious lahh and sometimes i also can't explain why( so dont ask )
but luckily i still have good sources of motivation
like FRUIT BASKET:) it never fails to cheer me up
FRIENDS ENCOURAGEMENT :) and videos of XIAO JING TENG :)
haha:) yes i am in love with xiao jing teng now:):) HAHAHA:)
and oh oh! one very good source of encouragement is CHONG SIANG:)
my " boyfriend" :)
thinking about him puts a smile on my face:)
his optimism towards life despite his disabilities
give me the courage to live optimistically :)
if i cant live my life as optimistically as him,
i really dont deserve to be a social worker:)
oh man:)i cant wait to see him again! :D
hes really someone who has really impacted my life (=
and i know i have impacted his life too =D
so the feeling is mutual +D haha:)
its natural to feel down at times because life is never smooth sailing
but the crux is how fast you can recover from feeling down (:
one important step is to BELIEVE(:
the power os believeing is amazing:)
when you are unsure about something,
BELIEVE:)
when you feel apprehensive or nervous,
BELIEVE:)
its easy to doubt but hard to believe (=
so we must all try to believe in everything (:
well, maybe not everything but don't lose faith and believe that life will treat u equally :)
and of course , encouragement matters:)
we should all jiayou :D because theres so much we can do
for so many people out there:)
sometimes we fear that bad things will happen
and we tend to worry and worry
but why not think in such a way:
whats meant to happen will happen. If something bad really happens, just accept it.
Feel sad / down but recover as soon as possible and learn from ur mistakes and
bounce back stronger than ever:) thats how to live life:):)
similarly, if something good happens,:)
thank everyone you can think of :D
always show ur appreciation (:
finally, one more important quote to share:
when you wake up early in the morning, think :
TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF THE REST OF MY LIFE (:
jiayou :)
SMILE:)
LyOn
Monday, October 13, 2008
10:27 PM
hello! (:
today's CCA exhbition is over!(=
its been something thats been weighing on my mind
because of the 3 parts i had to publicize : CSC, YVIP and Library
and im really glad its over:)
and it ended well too!(:
all the effort i put was at least not wasted:)
staying up till 3.30am last night was worth it XD
anyway, i was really stressed all the way till the airtime
and super nervous during the airtime slots><
think i screwed library presentation abit but luckily mr eric re-emphasized my point
so yah phew:)
n its also the effect of coffee:) i would have died of tiredness if there was no coffee-.-
CSC presentation was better(:
although i do not know how much impact it had
but i guessed i tried my best and thats all that matters:)
chionging CSC and YVIP is definitely not easy>< haha!
the exhibition at hall went surprisingly well(:
more people signed up than expected
even though some of them were not confirmed but oh well(:
i see hope XDXD
its really a sense of satisfaction and happiness whenever someone signed up for CSC:)
sometimes its really tough to believe in ur cca,
but as long as you do all the way, it will pay off:)
i really hope the next batch of CSC people can do well (:
and some of them seem real nice!:)
It was initially frustrating at first coz many were not really interested in YVIP
but slowly, after asking practically every person that came to our booth,
some expressed interest and took the forms:)
a pity i didnt record down the names of those who took the form
because it was kind of messy here and there
but i gave them my contact number:)
so really hope they mean to join(:
oh well, i really tried my best for YV publicity
jasmine said whenever she saw my face light up,
she knew that someone had expressed interest in YVIP-.-
well, i guess all the saliva and slight loss of voice was worth it (:
although i CANNOT gurantee the success rate in the end
and CANNOT gurantee everything will be in by Thursday,
but oh well:) i did what i could.
and one favourite part of today was the giving out of sweets:)
seriously, seeing people's face light up when offered sweets
and thank yous :) really make my day:)
sometimes i wonder what would have happened today
if i werent the CSC chair ... (:
maybe i would be playing some sports instead?
or helping with library or dance.. haa XD oh well!
its been a tough journey so far
but i will JIAYOU:)
went bedok with jasmine and joanna after that
supposed to meet for PW
so virginia came later
but in the end, the 2 of us were tired
so we decided to do at home haha XD
but i din head home straightaway,
i went to give the hospice board of well wishes to HCA Hospice at Bedok
only to find out that they were closed after i reached there..
den followed by a few calls before i found out that the staff would be coming back later
it was around 4pm and the staff would be coming back around 5.30pm
and i was too tired to go anywhere else
so i just sat down on the bench next to the playground for 1.5 hrs
decorating the boards, drawing and playing games -.-
haha XD
frankly speaking, the thought of just leaving it in sch or dumping it somewhere
did flicker for awhile in my mind
but i just couldnt bear to do that
because it contains real, true, sincere messages of well wishes
to the hospice patients:) and the motivation that kept me going on to wait
was the thought of their smiles on their face when they see the board:)
im glad i managed to pass to the staff in the end:)
went home after that and slacked and watched videos:)
ahah okok i think im officially a fan of jam hsiao!:):)
haha:) hes soo cute!! and talented and sometimes his singing or his innocent smile just
makes me melt
plus what he says also makes it amusing :) haha!:):)
ANYWAY, tmrs the distribution of promos results
but i dont feel anything about it
because i know im probably going to do badly
as i really didnt study:( oh well!
and besides im worried about something else too..
PLEASEEEE DUN LET IT BE ><><
( please dun ask about this)
PLEASSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE><
ANYWAY, i just have to jiayou le::)
GAMBATTE LYON!:)
smile:)
LYoN
Sunday, October 12, 2008
10:14 PM
hello!:)
i wanted to blog about alot of things but i guess i shan't because no mood also hahaha:)
very tired but shall PERSERVERE:):)
JIAYOU!
smile:)
Lyon
Saturday, October 11, 2008
7:11 AM
hello!(:
feeling rather irritated that i can't do what i want to do
because of all the freaking commitments and my stupid character
sometimes blog reading can be a rather depressing thing to do:(
im procrastinating, hesitating,
always thinking of what others think
how would they feel
how i can make them feel better
how i can try not to let them feel so stressed and irritated
and blah blah blah. -.-
this is so stupid><
maybe i should go back to my plan
of trying to be evil(:
and exercising stricter discipline
putting work in front of play
argh. yah right.
easier said than done.
feeling super stressed right now
and to people who are reading this post,
PLEASE DON'T COME AND COUNSEL ME OR WHATSOEVER
i only can accept counselling from a few people( i dunno why)
counselling from the rest just makes me feel irritated><
but of course, im not so stupid to state the two groups of people=P
so just DONT COUNSEL ME (if ure thinking of doing so)
just let me continue ranting ><(:
but on the other hand,
there are still things in life for me to look forward to
things that make me happy
and people that give me the strength to be optimistic(=
so yea. after depressing about all the depressing things,
i will focus on these happy things
and get myself up and stay happy (:
haha and yes! things that make me happy include
reading my blog archives (: ahaha! xD
oh and regarding the part above,
taking initiative to ask work from me to do
and not the other way round
coz its less stressful for me :D
missing my volunteer thingy because of PW
:(
oh well.
priorities i guess.
JIAYOU lyon!:)
smile!:)
LyoN
Thursday, October 09, 2008
6:05 AM
hello!(:
argh. i stupidly switched the computer on and fell asleep
so SO SORRY to those that talked to me on MSN last night(:
yesterday was a busy day :(
PW, Lib, CSC, Dance + helping someone who owes me a treat now (:
haha:D was super tired...
but still have alot of stuff to do :(
SIAN. SIAN. SIAN.
im going to think of how i can allocate work..
OH and still got YV publicity tmr ><
drats. i hate talking to the cohort haiii
oh well! jiayou lyon!:)
theres still PW later at virg's house..
all my brain cells are going to DIE later ><
i better go do my work asap before my brain dies off:D
smile:)
LyOn
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
11:47 PM
hello!(:
wanted to blog alot today!
BUT.. unfortunately, i feel super drained out><
somehow still very tired even after exams are over
because theres just still SO many things to do:( sian. sian. sian.
but oh well(: must perservere!
and theres still PW:(
great sian-ness:( but must have faith:)
oh and i think i am a LUCKY girl!:)
will blog about what happened when im less tired:)
jiayou pple and enjoy urselves:)
SMILE:)
Lyon
Monday, October 06, 2008
10:16 PM
hello!:)
YAY! EXAMS ARE OVER LE:):):)
smile:)
LyOn
Friday, October 03, 2008
11:46 PM
hello!:)
YAY!:D ECONS PAPER DOWN!(:
no more stressing over it!
and i realised that coffee really helps before an econs paper=)
but unfortunately i spent too much time on case studies
so i was chionging my essays like mad
so probably the product will not be very wonderful><
but OH WELL(: i did my best based on the what i managed to study successfully
so i shall be contented and leave this to fate:D
please let me be lucky once more for promos (:
Anyway, have been slacking ever since i got home
i guess its because of the weekend :Dhaha!
oh well (:
But , somehow i ended up reflecting ALOT tonight
kind of emo, but yet in a reflective way..
think the 9pm detective show plus stuff that my mother said impacted and effected me
plus this new upcoming show on channel U
thats called " Life Changers " ( I think)
i bet that if i watch, im going to CRY every episode because
i cried while watching an intro to the whole show -.-
but its going to be meaningful (;
I was reflecting about life and memories and death..
(woah rite o.O) argh. it made me feel pretty negative at first
because the mere thought of how fragile life is,how close death can be for anyone
and how nostalgic life can be,
leads to negativity and pessimism to a certain extent..
Although i am a very idealistic person which leads to my optimism ,
i know reality matters and there's nothing wrong in being practical and accepting hard facts of life..
thats just a natural instinct... hahaha this kind of issues depress me ><
which makes me quite worried as to how successful i will be as a social worker
since i will have to face all these issues almost everyday...looks like i need to put in more effort:):)
but OH WELL :)
the conclusion i came to was that
LIFE IS SHORT. TREASURE IT.=)
THERES A REASON FOR EVERYTHING AND THEREFORE
WE SHOULD BELIEVE IN IT:D
(:
JIAYOU EVERYONE!:D
smile:)
LyOn
Thursday, October 02, 2008
12:26 AM
hello!:)I haven't blogged for very long le!
Even though its still the exam period for me ,
I shall just blog tonight(: coz I still feel quite awake
due to the effect of 2 CANS OF COFFEE!:)
Coffee really HELPS in studying (:
but the aftereffects are not very good lahh haha:D
ANYWAY!
One word to describe promos:
BAD:(
really really really bad :(
whereby i think i am going to deteriorate by so much
my parents are going to kill me = X
well, actually no lah:) lucky for me, they trust me for my studies (:
and i already told them to be mentally prepared for bad grades this time ><
well, they were quite okay with it except the idea of tuition is getting imprinted deeper into their minds...o.O
OH WELL. oh ya. i also PRAY i don't get retained :(
GP was TRAMAUTIC :( and for the first time,( after trying my best not to get influenced by others that fear that they will retained)
i actually feel scared that i'm going to get retained :(
AIYAH. this is sooo idiotic :(
nvm. I shall not dwell anymore on this horrible topic
and pray for all the luck i can get now (:
the main reason why i will flop my promos this time ( i reflected:) )
is because
the effort i put in for promos = effort i put in for CTs = very minimal :(
and the worse thing is that the scope for promos is like twice the scope for CT
plus i paid attention in Semester 1 but not really in Semester 2 ......
the reason why i somehow managed to do well for CTs is because i was lucky , really very very lucky.
drats. i should have transferred my luck from then to now :(
haha :D oh well. you reap what you sow.
:D i just hoped i don't get a harvest that is really DISASTROUSLY bad ><
if i can make it for this promos, I SWEAR im going to become a MUGGER once hols start and for next year :D
heheh. LOL (:
but since im already stuck in the middle of promos,
theres no point in fretting over my lack of time
in fact, i should try to maximize my potential that i can maximise in this short period of time..
being the " best" of the worst i can get is better than being the " worst" of the worst i can get (:
thats the most optimistic thing i can think of now :D
I shall just do my best(:
and leave the rest to fate:)
JIAYOU to myself
and JIAYOU to everyone out there whos also mugging for promos!:)
GAMBATTE!:D
SMILE:)
LyOn
