hello!(:

hello!(:

29.11.2008

its a special day -because-
its the birthday of two very special people:)

JEANINE and WEIJIA !(:

and i shall specially dedicate my post to them (:( photos later! )

firstly - JEANINE LUI JIA YAN!


thanks so much for being such a SUPER DUPER wonderful
ganma-friend-sister-fuzhuxi-senior (:
seriously, its a blessing to get to know you :D
and a honour to be able to share such close bonds with you :D
i really really feel thankful for that! :D
you really brighten up my life (:
and thanks for all the listening and all the chats
and all the walks we had around our neighbourhood :D
stay happy, positive and just always be YOURSELF (:
love ya loads! <33

next up....
CHEONG WEI JIA!


thanks for being such an amazingly FANTASTIC
junior-friend-fzx-niece( joanna's my sister :D )
i still remember all the talks we had :D
be it at parkway, near post centre ,in school
or even your void deck with jeanine- i loved it! (:
thanks for being such a fun person to be around with
and your laugh is unique and contagious (:
it's truly wonderful getting to know you and most importantly, knowing you better :D
i cherish the bonds :D
love ya loads too!<33


its really amazing- we are the 3 different generations for CS vice chairperson:)
06, 07 and 08 (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN !:)

i love you two!(:

smile:D

LyOn

hello!(:

yesterday- 28/5-was a fun day!:D
was watching anime videos with my brother in the morning
before heading over to school for dance :D
dance was pretty fun :D
but tiring and hot and stuffy :(
but i'm glad that the SYF dance is almost completed
im referring to the whole structure of the dance lah :D
will have to miss abit of YV on monday for the last part ><
haha!:D hope i wun miss too much!

and and we had a surprise birthday party for
CHEONG WEI JIA(:
haha!:D and she was really touched and shocked
judging from the look on her face(:
and i like the photoframe present they gave her! :D
super sweet lah!

after that, me, jocelyn, meixian, dorothy, weijia and joylynn
went tiong bahru to eat:)
and we had alot of fun! :D
gossiping and laughing (:
haha! it suddenly struck me that it has been very long since
we actually had a senior-junior bonding session of going out to eat together:D
and i really really enjoyed myself! :D

i feel blessed.(:

smile:)

Lyon

hello!(:

was too tired to blog yesterday..
omg! it's THURSDAY! :(
and i haven't done any work...><
plus i'm going to go to my mum's sch later on to help her decorate her classroom
which is always very tiring both mentally and physically..
so it's no work done for me today too .... :(

anyway, yesterday was a GREAT day! :D
it started off with my trip to SUN-DAC :D
oh man- the trips always leave me smiling and happy for the rest of the day(:
more clients recognise me now leh! haha :D
and saw all the familiar trainers - jon, christina, tony,nancy etc
can't wait for my attachment there!
went there to discuss attachment details with My Jeoffrey
he's a nice guy - easy to talk to
but he's rather strict about discipline><
so hopefully my group is a disciplined group!:D
anyway our discussion lasted for 1.5 hours o.o
after that i talked to the social worker there- Mr Shannon
and hmm.. it was quite an insightful talk about social work..

he encouraged me not to immediately take social work after my Alvls
because he said that social work is a career that you can take in any part of your life
thats why i should broaden my horizons, my perspectives and my range of jobs
by trying for other stuff such as business, accounting etc
and the stress for a social worker is seriously very very very terrible ..
its equivalent to the kind of stress when you burn midnight oil for your exams the next day
PLUS your mother scolding you
PLUS your teacher scolding you
PLUS your pet dog barking at you
PLUS your brother/neighbour screaming at you..
which really constitutes to a lot a lot a lot of stress
and my mental strength must be really sufficient
or else i will burn out very fast><
currently, i dun think my mental strength is sufficient yet
in fact, my mental strength is still quite weak so i better buck up on that :(
and he said the pay was really quite low and i better check my financial surroundings first before i dive in into social work..
that's a point that i've been considering all this while
because if my financial surroundings suddenly take a plunge
there's no way i can be so selfish as to just go for social work just to pursue my dreams..
oh well- now i really hope i end up with a rich husband hahaha (+
and Mr Shannon gave me a tip upon hearing that remark
he said i should go and work in a hospital
and target those rich male doctors -.- HAHAHAHA (:

anyway, i wanted to stay there and help out the whole day
BUT there was dance:(
so i had to go off .. ahh nvm i shall comfort myself with the thought of attachment:)

Dance was quite okay-the progress was surprisingly quite fast haha xD
heard so much stuff about dance but oh well- i feel pretty numb to it
i think it's because my passion doesn't really lie in dance,unlike others like dorothy they all
dance is more of an obligation to me - to maintain important relationships to me(:
and maybe coz im also not in the dance comm heheh (:
or maybe it's just the effect of being in dance for all these years
everything that happens in dance is just a vicious cycle
dance can be rather cruel at times haha (:
but oh well- yea i also hope that everything will turn out fine in the end :D

hmm. speaking of dance reminds me of CSC
argh. i haven't done so much stuff for CSC yet..
if there's any CCA that i should be worrying about
it should be CSC:( sigh!
oh well- at least there was that meeting on tuesday :D
CSC symposium comm meeting- it was quite good :)
after that, jasmine accompanied me to go bugis to buy some stuff
and we scouted for some symposium stuff too :D
we met jasmine's mother for lunch- thanks loads for the treat!(:
i went to national library after that in the hope of doing some research successfully
but to no avail :( sigh!
i think my studies are withering :( oh noo...

nevertheless, yesterday's dinner with weijia and jeanine was NICE !:D
i can see that they have SOOO much in common :D
two people with a burning passion for ballet and dance:)
and " so you think you can dance" haha (:
anyway we ate soya bean ice-cream together! haha :D
yay(: the three of us <3 that =D
we walked weijia home after that and ended up talking at her void deck for 2 hours o.o
den me and jeanine went home (:
was pretty tired after that><
but it was a GOOD day!:D

somehow i feel that i'm really a very fortunate girl (:
not fortunate in all the " outside" aspect
such as materialistic things and appearance wise
but rather being who i am, thinking the way i think
and the friends i get in my life, the different groups of people i mix around with
and my family:) although my family's always the culprit of most of my problems
i'm still glad for the fact that we are still one complete whole family
living under one roof :)
so i must learn to appreciate what i have even more :D
learn not to envy others
because i know that maybe out there,
there might be someone envying me for who i am and what i have
so why let this vicious cycle for envying go on?
each of us are unique in a way :)
and if we could just close our eyes and think about the happy moments in our life so far
we'll find something in us- about us- that only we have (:
that no one else has:D
even if you cannot seem to find it,
just be yourself and wait:D
one day, someone will find it for you
and tell you :D because our own strengths are not as evident to us
as they are to the people around us :D
they are on our backs (:
we can't see our backs but others can :D and the reason
why we envy people is because we see their strengths on their backs
so lets all be contented with who we are:D
and live life to the fullest (:

SMILE:)

LyOn

hello!(:

as usual, i'm feeling pretty exhausted at the end of the day ><
but today was quite a good day (=

i managed to pack my cupboard :D
after procrastinating for so long-- i finally got down to work!
and i'm happy with how my cupboard is now!:D

in the midst of packing,
i came across many postcards/notes/cards/presents
and it was really nolstagic reading them all over again :D
ahhh.. the different memories at different times of my life..
which i really treasure alot :D
although things can never be the same again,
but i'm contented to go through each particular part of my life
the way i went through (:
because thats what that moulded me for who i am today :D

i realised that so many things change over time..
especially relationships =X
if no conscious effort is made and the relationship was not strong initially,
through the passing of time will come the fading of relationships
which is really sad :(

so, i'll like to really thank everyone who has been there for me
all this way (: THANK YOU! I REALLY APPRECIATE IT!:D
i might not be able to personally thank everyone so heres a
BIG THANK YOU (:
you guys brighten up my life
and make my life blessed (:

Anyway, here's A birthday photo that haS been hibernating in my camera
before i recently" dug" it out! :)



8th SEPT 2008 (:

haha will continue tmr :D too tired now >.<

BY THE WAY.
I HAVE 2 FREE TICKETS TO A CHRISTIAN MUSICAL AT NUS CULTURAL HALL
THIS THURS AT 8PM :D
INTERESTED PEOPLE - PLEASE TELL ME!:D

smile:)

Lyon

hello!(:

the mediacorp 45th gala anniversary show was pretty good!:D
kind of nolstagic for a couch potato like me
who has been watching TV ever since i was very young :P

anyway, i have decided-
i shall be hardworking from now
and plan my time and work properly
because this is the LAST week before YVIP ><
means its the only week to settle stuff ...
so i have to JIAYOU (: (:

sometimes i feel disgusted by some people's attitude
- i can't help it -.-
especially if its regarding something important to me ...
OH WELL. different people have different perceptions
i shall comfort myself with that (:

and there's a SUPER GOOD reason to be HAPPY today (: (:

smile:)

Lyon

hello!(:

i was filling up the timetable that jolene lai sent me when i realised
how busy i would actually be during december ><
and the worst thing is that i did practically nothing during the month of november
and i'm still thinking of all my commitments next year
and my A'levels next year ....

i heard from kenny that it's getting harder to enter NUS
especially the Faculty of Arts and Social Science..
and since i am unlikely to cut down on my subject combination
i think i should really reconsider ALL my committments again..
which is also what my mum and Miss Leong wants me to do..
i can't cut down on CSC commitments
Library commitments are too minimal for me to cut down
so there's no choice but to cut down on dance commitments:(
and the only way to cut down on dance commitments is to
dance the SYF dance only...=/
haha i know it's kind of bad but no pain , no gain haha(:
dance motto! lol! how ironic...
but oh well- i guess it should be worth it because
i'm definitely not taking dance as my career or as my future(:

anyway, i have been slacking ever since this morning
which consists mainly of EATING and WATCHING VIDEOS
when i still have SO much work to do:(
i need more self-discipline!! xD
i need to devise a method to make myself more hardworking..
anyone got tips?? haha (:

i can't stand it,
everytime i can spend the day at home,
i will always slack:(
despite knowing that such days are rare ...
sigh!OH WELL.
i need help on how to stop myself from slacking ! haha!

this week is going to be so busy :(
but let's hope its a good week! :D
the last week before November and the week before YV camp!(:

SMILE:)

JIAYOU :)

LyOn

Hello!(:

I'm very tired now- but i feel the strong urge to blog about TODAY!(:
today's a fun day- of YV!:D
i suddenly feel so happy that i'm a YVIP 08 TF!:D

YV pre-camp briefing was a success!(:
we met at 8am at eunos mrt before proceeding to TKSS(:
its a nice place!:D i like their library- which was where we held all the activities today!
we had some ice breaker games which was quite fun and funny:)
followed by some drawing and singing:D
before we went to fetch our participants! super exciting!:D

Somehow i walked to Eunos MRT with PJ and Faris
and we were very HIGH all the way (: haha!
coz we jumped 10 times before leaving the school! muahaha!
surprisingly , i managed to find all 10 participants
6 from my grp and 4 from sylvia-my buddy tf's group:)
the girls could click pretty well(:

Anyway, when we reached TKSS- we did some icebreaker games
which was pretty good!(: haha!
although i malu-ed myself because i had to do a forfeit -.-
i think it really helped the group to open up more!(:
i <33 my grp and slyvia's group!
we bond well!:D
looking forward to camp!(:

the mass games were pretty good:D
althoughi really got pretty lost at the chika chika bang bang game-.-
and one very funny incident whereby kenny misheard what i said-
i said "got mistake" - he heard as" got biscuit?"-.-
and started telling me what catering stuff etc =x HAHA!:D
it was very funny at that moment!(: hahaha!

i seriously think that my mass group can be really bonded :)
and so can my group and sylvia's group!:D
i'm so glad to be their TF(: its fate!;D

but ANYWAY, pre-camp briefing ended with YV song:D :D
and we had catered lunch which i simply din feel like eating haha!
we played around for awhile before leaving the school
i went to teo heng after that to retrieve my ez-link card that i dropped yesterday:)
meiyun, kenny, changyou, huibin , PJ ,zhiying anf jessica accompanied me :D
and after that we went meiyun's house to play mahjong!(:
it was kind of quiet - as when compared to usual mahjong games
but it was still FUN:D
although i kept on feedin the winning tiles to others-.- and getting da/xiao siang gong!

went home after that(:
somehow i feel that the TF ties are getting stronger:D
haha!(:
i was actually abit apprehensive about the bonds with the other TFs
BUT i guess everythings ok now!:):) haha! i can bond better le!
and im happy :D coz we can have GREAT FUN at the camp!:D
soo looking forward to it!:D

anw, super tired now:(
shall go slp:)

smile:)

Lyon

hello!(:

TODAY was a GREAT day(:
an outing day!:D my first outing day in the holidays!
a day that i went out to have fun all the way :D
and i went out with 3 different groups of friends :D
but oops i was late for all the meeting times>< heh!

met xueting, junya and rebecca in the morning at city hall coffee and toast
for BREAKFAST!:D nice kaya toast and milo!(:
and THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE GREEN BAG! (: (: (: XT!
I <3 IT !:):D
i really enjoyed our chats and the times we laughed together(:
seriously, i'm still so glad we are so close despite being in different classes and stuff :D
we talked about alot of random stuff today (= i guess that's how we bond-
all the different topics can come out and we will always find a way to chat about it :)
but anyway, i was telling them all about XJT <33(: (: hahaha!

after breakfast, i rushed off to Parkway Parade whereby i was supposed to meet
Li Hui and Miss Tan
to discuss about service learning symposium (:
THANKS MISS TAN FOR THE PASTAMANIA TREAT!:D
(: it was quite fruitful and enjoyable!:D
and the food was nice!! and i like chatting with them too!(:
although the workload for CSC has gone up ><
but i feel happy doing for CSC:D

after lunch, i rushed off to meet jasmine and dorothy
at TEO HENG to SING!!:D
haha!;D it was FUN!:D AND I got to sing my
XIAO JING TENG songs! and my hokkien song!:D
muahaha XD and we got to sing ALOT of songs coz only the 3 of us
singing from 2-6 haha:)
although we found out that we got cheated at the end -.-
haha!;D but nvm!:D at least we all enjoyed it!

went parkway to walk for awhile before going home :)
went out for dinner with family later:)

today's a GOOD day:D
thanks to all that i went out with!
you all made my day (=
:D

anw, tmr's YV PRE-CAMP BRIEFING:)
i'm very excited!!!(: my group will all be coming!
haha:D

JIAYOU (:

Lyon

hello!(:

just came back from a long and tiring day=X
but it was quite fun(:

met pj, zhiying and huibin at vivo today(:
and i learnt the DANCE today:D it was quite funny and
we did a little chereographing haha(:
but i had to go for dance:(
so couldn't participate in the final part chereography
but it turned out good:)

had dance later:(
was feeling super sian- dunno why!
haha!

ANYWAY , back to YV stuff!;D
or rather SVC stuff -.-
went hougang CC for this svc meeting about community boccia
hmm its good lah but still... haha XD complicated!
but i think the most meaningful part
was the de-briefing done by Hazimah and Kenny
at the bball court:D
somehow it made me feel so lucky to have signed on as a TF this year:D
to have joined YV07
to have had such a wonderful experience
with such a fabulous group
and 4 inspiring TFs:D
and that we have bonded into one family:D
i think thats a super huge motivation for me to let my participants experience the
wonderful same experience that i have had:D
plus i think another huge anchor to stay in YV
is coz of my attachment home:D and the pple there, especially the trainers and my bf:D:D

i shall do my best for YVIP 2008:D jiayou!:D

and on a sidenote-
i'm so totally in love with xiaojingteng:D
was watching this video whereby he had to act and say
: actually i like you ( in chinese lah)
and oh my (: my heart melted lah!:D
if only he was saying it to me muhahah :)
oh dear, i feel so huachi :D
but he really rawks (:haha!

anyway, tmr's an outing day :)

shall go slp early tonight haha!:D

SMILE:)

LyOn

hello!(:

super tired now! >.<
after 1 whole day of dance-
bet i'm going to ache like mad tmr!
had denglaoshi's dance in the morning followed by lianglaoshi's dance
it was quite fun lah:Dexcept her dance is HARD TO MASTER!
AND i kept on getting called a frog-.- haha XD

anyway, tmr is going to be another busy day
with YV stuff in the morning followed by dance followed by YV meeting and finally SVC meeting that ends at 9.30pm :(
JIAYOU to myself:D

smile:)

i'm seriously too bushed to start any work.
><

Lyon

HELLO!(:

i'm so happy and excited!(:
tHE YVIP groupings are out!:D
and guess wad?
i know 2 people in my group!:D
one is Jessica - i interviewed her for CSC hahaha (:
the other one is really such a coincidence!
HCI- Sylvanus!
i knew him at UTP last year haha XD
so qiao lah!(:
and anyway the rest of my group seem pretty good to me (:
there's so far a good balance of 3 guys and 3 girls(:
with 1 unknown person -.- haha XD
i shall do a more detailed intro of them after i meet them this sat!:D

OH! and geraldine is in my BUDDY TF's group!:D
means we will be together most of the time during the camp!:D
hahaha (: actually i'm somehow happy with how things are going so far for YVIP lah:)
eric as my comm mentor , sylvia as my buddy TF(:
and alvin as my buddy TF's mentor!:D
i forsee alot of FUN(: hahaha:D
can't wait to get my group bonded
just like YLF last year (:

okok(: i shall take that good news as a good omen to start my work =.=
and i better start treasuring the next 2 weeks =x
because thats all the time i have before YV starts haha:D

smile:)

LyOn

hello(:

oh dear, i spent the whole day immersing in xiaojingteng videos><
and yes- i feel guilty because i have so much work to do:(
but on the other hand- i think i'm addicted to him liao (:
hopelessly in <3 with him le (=

up to the extent that i actually feel offended when people make bad remarks about him leh!
haha(: but thinking deeper- its their LOSS:D haha!

anyway, i better get down to work=(
and and and i got a new goal now!:D
but its SECRET (:

jiayou pple!(:

smile:D

LyOn

hello!(:

went for my dental appointment at the school dental centre today!(:
although i didn't get my tooth fixed due to some problems
the dentist helped me to fix another tooth which she found out that was decaying ><
haha XD oh well!:) i have to go back again :(
and its on the 10th dec- which means it clashes with one of my YV attachment days.. SIGH. ahha XD

anyway, went bugis to buy some stuff before
proceeding to national library to do some research for my history essay
but it was a futile trip><
although i went to the reference library
i din manage to find anything good
plus i was too tired ( coz the atmosphere very suitable to sleep:D )
so i just planned my essay structure and went home:)

anyway, it was a very slack day for me today!:(
must do some work tomorrow!(:
haha yay:D its another stay-home-day:D
that i must treasure coz im going to be busy the whole day for wed, thur and fri and maybe sat..
haiz! haha XD

was just watching the 8pm show when 2 people suddenly talked to me about it..
haha XD so since im in the mood, might as well blog something about what i feel about it...
frankly, i think its really really really a good show :D
its really very unique from other shows because its really something from the heart (:
i dunno how to describe it but its just simply sincere and meaningful
no other motives.. just to help other and inspire people to help others
which i think it is indeed necessary- to let people realise how blessed they are to be who they are(:
whenever i'm experiencing pain,
i will tell myself to stay strong and that i'm actually very lucky already
because the pain i'm experiencing is probably just a small fraction of the pain that
others are suffering out there...and since they are not complaining,
what right do i have to do so?

sometimes life is so ironical- i know i must treasure my parents
because they cannot be taken for granted
and if i don't treasure them now,
i'm going to regret it someday in the future
but i just can't help it..
flaring up for selfish reasons- acting cold and irritated for selfish reasons
always putting on a black face- restricting myself not to smile or laugh-
retorting rudely whenever im in a bad mood- acting like i dun care about anything-
seriously, i feel so disgusted with myself
especially when i know that what im doing is wrong but i just can't help it.:(
thats the worst part of all...
i simply can't muster the courage i need :(
and yet another ironic thing is that i'm going to counsel others to muster this kind of courage in the future when i become a social worker:(
but what right do i have to counsel them well when i dun even practice what i preach:(

which leads me back to the show i was talking about..
somehow watching it makes me feel apprehensive about my future
the more i watch it, the more daunting a social worker seems to be
its not about whether i want to help others
because i'm confident about myself in that area:)
but rather whether i have the mental strength to continue helping others
to stay strong throughout all the different heartbreaking cases i will go through
to continue staying positive and getting them to be positive about their life
thats a real challenge because it takes alot of courage and mental strength to do so
to not be affected by the negativity i will have to get in touch with...=X

but oh well,
since i have chosen this path,
i shall have to go through it (:
somehow i will survive it:D
and successfully make a difference in others lives:D
even if i really breakdown during my journey as a social worker
all i have to do is to stand up again:D
and continue my journey:)
:) its tough but can be done!:D

and for that dream, i need to try harder than ever:D
and and and to anyone who's reading this- if u ever have a bad day or some problems
and need to tell someone ( counselling maybe? ):D, please feel free to call/sms me :D
i'm ready any moment, any time, any day:) n i'll keep it a secret- promise (:
its training for my future:D

JIAYOU(: AND SMILE:D

sometimes life might seem too negative and overwhelming
but as long as we perservere, we can definitely see the light at the end:D
it doesn't require any outstanding qualities to see the light
all it takes is ONE WORD:)
BELIEVE:D

AND lastly to end off:
i <3 xiao jing teng:)

smile:)

LyOn

hello!(:

its been an ENJOYABLE day for me
because i was immersing myself in XJT videos(:
<33 :D but YEA i should seriously cut down lahh :(
haha!:D

anyway , watched Quantum of Solace with my family today(:
it was pretty good lah :D haha!:D

anw must get myself prepare for this coming week le!;D
JIAYOU:)

SMILE:D

Lyon

hello!(:

just came back from watching a dance concert:D

dance today was pretty okay(:
wasn't very tiring but we learnt a new set of dance movements:D
and the headache about dance schedules started -.-
ah well. after 5 years of dance, clashes and the difficulty to organise dance sessions during the hols
seem very common to me(:
but its indeed a terrible headache to the leaders><
jiayou meixian and dorothy!:D

went to the dance concert after dance!
but before that, i accompanied weijia to harbourfront
where she enquired about her friend's missing wallet ><
a pity the staff did not pick up any wallet>< oh well!
but anw we had a nice talk:) haha! havent talked in ages!:D
and we got lost while trying to find NAFA -.-
we practically walked one whole big round -.- ZZZZ
haha XD
was so happy when we finallly reached!

the concert was pretty okay lah...
but $18 for one hour of pfm..
suddenly the money doesnt seem worth it LOL :)

but yea, went back with weijia, dorothy and yuntong haha:)

today's a rather good day!:)

but tmr will be better:D

smile:)

Lyon

hello!(:

finally! a day that i spent entirely at home!:D
ever since the holidays started! -.-
finally! a day that makes me feel that its really holidays for me now!:D

didn't do much though...haha!:D
but anyway it was a good day:D

i managed to clear some parts of my house:D

JIAYOU :D

LyOn

hello!(;

studied with hongsheng and simin today at Post Centre!(:
i had a good time! (: (:
i did my CSC selection stuff before lunch
and my GP comprehension after lunch!(:
which was SUPER draining:(
and and it has been SO long since i touched any academic stuff!
seriously, i can't believe i was busy with all the non-academic stuff for the past 2 weeks..
which seems a little scary because my focus should be on STUDIES! :(
SIGH. i need better self-discipline... like seriously><
and i probably should not indulge in xiao jing teng videos anymore ><
but sometimes i cant help it <33

anyway, i just received a huge list of things to do for CSC ...
haha(: i enjoy doing things for CSC- i mean the sense of satisfaction is good(:
but at the same time, sometimes it can be overwhelming when everything just comes in one go at you ><
oh well! and it doesn't help that *&$^%!#~$@%#^#&#^^#^#&!~#~$!
haha! i don't feel like scolding people on my blog so the above symbols will do it for me (=
nvm..i shall survive through it somehow! (=

sometimes people tell me to distribute work more effectively to lessen my burden
and of course, i have considered that thought many many times
but the moment i think of how i have to nag and remind people of what they have to do
or get pissed when they fail to do what i want or meet the deadline
it just simply puts me off because i hate to scold people , especially over CCA stuff..
maybe some will see it as a lack of trust within me
and i don't deny that that might be part of the reason
but then again, it's because such things have happened before
and i have suffered before -and so there's something within me that doesnt permit me to let myself suffer again
so if i think i can handle it myself or at least do it faster than if i let others do it for me,
why not?
furthermore, it can save me the stress of hounding people for their work and etc
because its easier to deal with myself than others regarding such stuff:)
actually, i do agree that i'm too nice to be a good leader- i think too much about others
but at least my future job doesn't require me to be a good leader(:
and and i'm trying to be evil too (:
and thinking practically, i'm doing others a favour too -.-
so my only hope is that when i really need them to do something for me
they can really do their best in that thing and recognize that i have already tried to minimize their workload...-.-

but i'm currently feeling very lethargic:(
there seems to be so much work to do and if i don't start soon,
my other commitments - mainly YVIP 2008
will probably take all my time away before i know it
and i'll start to regret not using the time i have now wisely..><

maybe, instead of complaining, i should go and do work immediately!
haha(=

as long as you believe in what you can achieve,
you will definitely achieve it (:

JIAYOU!:D

LyoN

hello!(:

shit. im still hooked on xiao jing teng's videos:(
when im supposed to be doing work le><
but aiyah!:D its too enjoyable ahha!

ANYWAY, had dance today:D
tiring but rather good lah:D
haha!:)

and i still dun get whats so funny about meixian's joke -.-
MUAHHAHA :D

nothing much to blog about for today><
aha XD

ITS REALLY TIME TO DO WORK! SOMEONE PLEASE FORCE ME TO DO WORK:( -.-

haha:)

LOL:)

tmr will be better:)

smile:)

Lyon

hello!(:

firstly, here's an update about yesterday and today!

Monday:
Went to school at 8am for one of the last CSC interviews.
Went to help out with library packing after that(=
it was only me and huikee in the beginning
and we started at 8 plus ><
but soon, more pple-geraldine and jasmine came to help:)
oh and thanks to valentia too:D an ad hoc librarian! aha!

we packed and packed and packed and packed
( with a short lunch break in between:D thanks for the treat! )
and packed and packed and packed until 4 plus(:
was so happy when it was done! :D a great sense of accomplishment!:D
after that, me , jasmine , huikee and shermaine went home together(:
super fun because everyone kept laughing (: or rather, somehow whatever i said kept everyone laughing -.-
especially shermaine- she laughed until her stomach became very painful haha-.- LOL:)
but it was really a funny journey (: (:

me, jasmine and huikee alighted at Paya Lebar to have a MR BEAN feast (=
with huikee's Mr Bean's coupons:D haha! (= nice!:)
met weijia lAter on:)

went marina to meet mengshuen for YV attachment briefing (: meiyun came too!(;
well, it seems there were some changes made to the programme but i think everything should hopefully proceed on quite smoothly (:
i'm thankful for Bedok Sun-Dac:D
even though i'll miss christina who wont be there coz shes back in phillipines for her WEDDING(: there'll still be so many others (: John, tOny, Rina, Nancy etc:D that i would really like to know better:) and my future GROUP:)
really excited to know the members of my group!(: anyway, reached home quite late :( and

something scary happened to me that really left me pretty freaked out ><
i was walking home den i accidentally crossed the path of this guy
and just when i was DIRECTLY in front of him
he purposely and suddenly "roared" at me
and i really mean those kind of " RAHH" including putting his hands up
as though trying to scare me lah -.- ARGGHH!
at that moment- i really thought he was trying to do something to me lah :( WAHH PIANG!!!
oh no, when i describe it, it seems alittle funny-.- but it was super freaky lah:(
lucky i kept my cool and walked on without turning back:(
arghhhh. super scary.. argh I WANT A BODYGUARD!!!:) any volunteers?haha :)
LOL! but it was really super freaky and i was lucky there were still people walking around lah!
zzz.. must be careful next time!

TODAY:
Went school early in the morning to meet Miss Tan to discuss about some CSC stuff
before going for dancE:)
dAnce was Tiring!:( and by the end of everything, i felt so burned out haha!:)
anyway,watched abit of HipHop Audition
and zhiyin dropped by(: so had a little small chat with her too:D
went home after that (:

well,its a been a tiring day:( haiz.!

anyway, i finished reading " The Alchemist"
which is a really good book!(: thanks to SP for introducing it to me!:D
and i realise that there are actually many things in the book
that are similar to mine;D similar to some of the feelings i actually experienced
the thoughts about how magical everything is
about life and about so many other things
whenever i reflect to keep myself positive:D haha!

Okay. enough of positivity! now it's negativity:(
warning: please do not read if you're in a good mood now:)

i feel so bad :( i promised to work hard for my studies
but i'm not:( in fact, i'm piling myself with so many committments,
always not being in the house, not there to clear the house for her
to help her, always losing my temper at her,
and sulking , being unwilling to help her about computer stuff
and yet, always doing something that i enjoy while she slogs away doing housework
and her stuff and while she's growing older, the burden on her
seems to be increasing too.. while it's supposedly to be rightfully decreasing
because the older i grow, it's my responsibility to share the burden with her
but yet, i'm increasing her burden by being out every day.
although it's not something i can control, but still, i think i'm very selfish
i think only about myself, never about the people around me, especially her.
i put whats important to me as my priority, thinking that it's okay to delay stuff thats
important to her but unimportant to me.. we don't think on the same level so it's easy for me to disregard her views and opinions but still, thats not the way.

sigh. i'm such a failure :( despite my feeble attempts to try to lessen her burden,
i still end up increasing her burden. and i hate my attitude towards her. :( its not the same
positive attitude i treat others with and seriously, sometimes i feel so fake. but yet, i know i'm not fake.. its just that i myself also cannot bring myself to treat her just like how i treat everyone around me. its weird.. maybe its a psychological barrier? well, i'm just trying to hope that this is just a stage im going through haha.

oh well. its depressing thinking about this kind of stuff.. and i still have ALOT of other stuff to think about. OH WELL. i guess i will just to have to try my best (: in changing myself and being more filial (= JIAYOU LYON!:D

and please please - do not attempt to take the initiative to comfort me because i tend to resist most people's words of advice,care and concern on issues that are sensitive to me--- BUT i still appreciate everyone lah :) but thats just me- my character- maybe thats why i'm an" I " :)

lets all live our present moment to the fullest:)
and enjoy life at this moment:D

SMILE:)

LyOn

hello!(:

i hereby proclaim

蕭敬騰

as the singer with the best voice i have ever heard:)
the voice that managed to cheer me up
and erase all my negative moods (:

it's really really magical (:
the sincerity and power and magic of his singing
makes every song he sings nice (:
seriously!

was in a bad mood when i came online
but after listening to his songs on youtube
somehow the bad mood disappeared:)
it's really really amazing:
xiao jing teng- you're a wonder!:D
thank you! (: <33333333333333333

anyway, today was Xperience 08 fundraising:)
there were 3 areas- orchard, tampines and marine parade
i went tampines with meixian, virginia, ru meng, " basket"( paiseh i forgot your name again), shi lun and mingquan- at least thats what i rmb!:)
rebecca and 2 other i/cs too!(:
* many lame moments along the way , especially on the way to Tampines -.- :D *
i paired up with meixian :D and we both worked super hard
with some interesting and funny moments along the way (:
and we managed to sell everything
and our can totally owns! (: (:
so proud of ourselves!:D
especially for the sale of the postcards- at first i really doubted that we would be able to finish selling everything BUT we really managed to make it! (:
haha! best combination eh!(: according to meixian:
DANCE CHAIR + CSC CHAIR (:
wahaha:D

but it really drained me of all my energy
was SUPER DUPER tired after that ><
and there's library stuff tomorow
plus some CSC matters to settle
so its back to school early in the morning :(
hahaXD i hope i wake up in time tomorrow morning!

this whole week was a busy yet fruitful one(:
but a super tiring and unproductive one in terms of academics :(
sigh. nvm! next week will be BETTER(:
(:

i shall aim to complete the clearing of my house, academic stuff by end of next week(:
together with CSC selection and CSC symposium matters(:
and of course- thorough revision of dance movements for dance
and packing for library (:

that's for now! shall not cram too much into the week(:
coz i'll end up not finishing everything
due to my PROCRASTINATION-.-

jiayou bah!(:

SMILE:)

Lyon

hello(:

suddenly have this sudden urge to blog(=

been thinking of creating inspiring videos xD
something that will brighten up people's day
that will put a smile on their face (:
something that will motivate them and make them feel better :D
but sometimes the lack of inspiration will totally crush my passion for it
plus things that i will randomly chance upon that will make me feel really
pissed and depressed with myself ...
i mean, who doesnt have his/her own private delicate and depressing moments?

its just a matter of how quickly one can recover :)
which is really not easy at times
strong emotions such as sadness, jealousy can really hurt><
and i believe everyone has had their own share of such negative emotions
some choose to show everything while some choose to suppress everything
a healthy mix is of course required and desired but sometimes its really hard to do so ><

but the key to this is to feel contented and only show
if it's appropriate and no one will be hurt:D
think of all the happy memories that you have
think of how lucky you are to actually have these memories:)
memories are what that makes you special :D
because they also give you an unique interpretation of who you are(:

i just got a new concept of believeing:)

we should believe in ourselves because
a strong belief can really overcome everything(:
its easy to doubt but hard to believe
therefore if we can,
try to BELIEVE
and make others start to believe by believing in them (:

in this way, everyone will learn how to believe :) and the
world will be a much better place!:D

oh my, it sounds very PC and idealistic right? but:) wouldnt it be great if it happened?:)

meanwhile,JIAYOU pple!:):)

smile:)

Lyon

hello!(:

i'm bAck from DanCe (;
which surprisingly was better than i thought :D
although it was really pretty tiring
and made me very stinky :(

met geraldine at paya lebar so she could pass me the forms
and huibin at bedok so i can pass the forms to her:)
also had my final csc interview with fiona there(:
yay! finally all interviews are settled!(:
now its time for the selection -.-

i just realised that for the whole week,
i have been actually going out for practically everyday!:(
monday - school and NLB
tuesday- Suntec convention hall
wednesday- Suntec convention hall
thursday- Suntec convention hall
Friday- school, RI , Sun-dac, TM
Sat- school

AND i have Xperience at Tampines tmr ><
from morning to 4 :(
haiz! but oh well (:
this week has been pretty fun!:D
quite fruitful and fulfillin
but bad for academics:( sigh.

shall go and rest before tryin to do work
if i manage to get myself to do haha:D

JIAYOU everyone!:D

Smile:)

Lyon

hello!(:

today's a tiring day AGAIN -.-
but i had fun!:D

firstly, it was off to school for filing of GPF :D
which i'm so sorry for being unable to stay for the whole process
because i had to rush of to RI to attend my bro's graduation ceremony :P
but project A - although PW is officially over (:
i guess those days of PS macs, xinhui's house, virg's house,
brainstorming and trying to squeeze out stuff and make our PW meetings productive
plus chionging our WR (: which we miraculously managed to do it pretty decently ( i feel)
and the late nights we had coz of PW :D plus plus the MACFLURRIES that our project leader
owes us (: looking back now, it was indeed a memorable yet unique experience:)
although there were ups and downs and we didn't know each other really well initally,
i'm glad we survived it (: and i also started to know each of you better :D which i'm happy for that!

virginia- having you in our group is really really an asset! (: dunno what project A will do without you :D and i sincerely mean it! thanks for being so organized and structured and always trying to come up with ways to make our PW better :D it was really really really great working with you!and yes i think i understand you and how you work better too!:D thats good! n i like ur house!(=(=(=

xinhui- i really didn't know you well at first but slowly through meetings and stuff, i started to know you better(: and in my eyes, you're someone who really puts in her best for everything you do (: like the times you spent doing WR, ppt slides, email interviews etc :D your English standard is seriously the best among us (: and project A would not make it without you too!:)

andrew- our project A group leader! (: you still owe us SO MANY macflurries >< must repay your debt ONE DAY hor! (: anyway i also didnt really know you well at first but i'm thankful for PW whereby i really got to know you better(: you are an asset in terms of bonding our group (:
and project A would not have survived too without you as our group leader!:)

we might not be the best group or most bonded group BUT we will always be project A in our memories of PW (: and i think that matters alot- our project identity!:D which is really important!:) i will always be proud to say that i'm part of project A (: and i really really mean it :)

thank you for bearing with me (: my indecisiveness and inefficiency at times
and times which i couldn't be with you guys to do stuff >< thanks so much for understanding!:D
i love my PW group- DH005- aka - PROJECT A!:)<33

anyway, i got lost while looking for the busstop :( to go to RI
and i was practically running the whole way- in the hot sun :(with a heavy bag...
SIGH. but oh well :) my bro's graduation ceremony is not an " everyday" thing
so i was telling myself to perservere on coz of my bro :)
* i know it sounds corny -.- but its true :D *
and and and finally i found the stupid busstop (:
lucky the one opposite was the wrong busstop because if not,
i would have been so sad that the bus left without me and i was trying to run after it -.-
haha:)
but i made it there!

and i must admit the rafflesian spirit is indeed strong:)
the reception was good too:)
and as a sister, seeing your own brother graduating and moving on to a new chapter of his life,
it does make you feel proud, honoured and happy (=
i'm glad i went for it! :D

after that, i proceeded on to Bedok :D
went to library while waiting for zina and angelina to meet me for their
CSC interview which was held at Macs:)
it was pretty good:)
infact, i did it so many times i can memorise all the questions le -.-

Jasmine came later on and we set off for SUN-DAC:)
ahh(: its been such a long time since i visited SUN-DAC:)
and christina was really pleasantly surprised :D
she said we made her day :D coz she was actually very tired haha (:
tony was there too!:D although im not too close to him, i will be .. after my attachment in dec there:)
and and and of course, how could i forget....
CHONG SIANG!:) my "boyfriend"!
haha he was smiling at me as usual (:
and he was very happy that i came - can tell through his gestures and smiles:)
as i mentioned before, even though he's deaf and dumb ,
his optimism in life really motivates and inspires me (:
haha(: my " boyfriend" rawks!:) better than any other guy!:D

after the visit to SUN-DAC,
me and jasmine followed christina to TM for dinner:)
haha(: sorry that i couldnt make it to the DOL :(
i really seriously considered it haha and yes i feel bad :(
especially towards Miss Leong haha ... but oh well:D
its all about priorities:) how often do i get a meal with Christina!:D
we talked alot along the way
and she talked about her love story :)
which is WOAH :D really really very cool
and i'm really happy for her :D
she's really blessed:) and really hope that she and her fiance ( actually husband liao lah XD )
can be as loving forever:D
in fact , her husband came halfway when we were eating and
they really made a great pair:)
abit like " huan xi yuan jia":)
awwww. (:

i hope i can find a good and suitable guy - my Mr RIGHT (: and
we'll live happily ever after:)
* haha pretty idealistic ehh :) *

anyway, this week has beem such a busy and tiring one
but it has also been a FUN one :D
it's a good start to my hols!:)
i shall JIAYOU :D

ohh but before that,
i'll probably DIE for dance tmr:(
prepare to get scolded by deng lao shi:(
coz i didnt do any recap of dance steps.
sian. but oh well :)
must be mentally prepared first :)
its not like its very ************************ to me :D haha!

smile:)

LyoN

hello:D

feeling super exhausted now :(
tmr's a long day at sun-tec but im looking forward to it :Dhaha!
coz of all the .............CUTE.................KIDS!:):):)

today was a long and tiring day :(
my legs are aching from all the standing
plus all the talking haha :D but i must admit its indeed quite satisfying to tell others about
the project you were involved in :P
and and the GOH part was pretty okay:)
and so was the prize presentation!:D
havent gotten a trohpy for so long haha:D
and displaying the trophy does make the whole booth more prestigious hahaa (:

anyway but but the fun part was actually playing with the kids that came to visit my booth(:
coz theres a game whereby one has to reach in for the box and pick out a question
and if you answer correctly, you get a prize:D
and so many kids came (: and they SO SUPEER cute:)
oh my!:D especially a few grps of kids
like this grp of small girls who were very nice (:
they said my prizes were creative and our booth very interesting
plus many other cute kids
and and two particular grps
that said they will come back for more tmr:):)
ahha!:D looking forward to having fun tmr !:D
shall do more evaluation tmr:D

i realise that interacting with people i dunno:)
getting to know them better
especially those younger ones:)
seeems to really be my passion(:
thats good!:D

hahaa i can't wait for tmr!:D

SMILE:)

LyOn

hello!:)

today was another tiring day:(
but satisfactory coz we decorated the booth after many " tribulations" -.-
LOL. too lazy to go into the details haha XD
wun do my mood good also ahha:)

ANYWAY tmr tmr!
the actual exhibition haha:)

JIAYOU!

and jiayous to all those taking olevel HCL :)
plus the final day of OP!:D

u guys can do it!:)

SMILE:)

LyOn

hello!(:

hello!;D

i'm so proud of myself!(:
i finally made a video all by myself.
hoho.who knows before long,
videos will be my new inspiration tool (:

it's really heartwarming
to send people " inspiration tools" (:
at least you know their smile makes everything worthwhile (:

feeling so tired now :(
after finishing my i & r
which i still think can't really make it><
but oh well (: its going to have to do
my brain cells have all surrendered and have refused to work for me any more:)

it's going to be brand new day tmr!:D

JIAYOU to those who are having OP this week!:D

SMILE:)

Lyon

hello!:)

so many things to do
yet i still immerse myself in xiao jing teng videos:)
<33 :D

hoho! anyway this is going to be a BUSY BUSY week:(
oh well:) what a perfect start to a BUSY holiday-.-

JIAYOU LYON!:)

SMILE:)

LyOn

hello!:)

shit. i spent a whole day slacking :(
watching videos ... of fruit basket, some random stuff and of course 蕭敬騰 <33:)
especially this video of him on a programme that made me laugh like crazy HAHAH (:
tsk. sigh. watching videos can be soo addictive :(

and the thing is that i have alot of work to do :(
no more slacking for me le!
i havent even started on I & R >< dieee haha XD
oh well. i shall jiayou tonight! :)
*if i dun end up slacking further * :(

i like the weather outside now :)
the way the evening wind blows on my face
the way the sun sets so gently (:
the way the sky looks, the way the air smells:)
i love evening !(:

okay, that was random but
jiayou to me!:D

SMILE:)

LyOn

hello!:)

finally. finally. finally .finally...OP'S OVER!:D
after weeks of hard work ( okay. maybe not so exaggerated -.-), all for this awaited day
- 31stOct- :D and we did it guys! PROJECT A RAWKS!:D
- Andrew- Xin Hui- Virginia- you guys did great:) to me, TODAY was the BEST presentation ever!:)

while watching each of you presenting and answering the question, a mixture of feelings engulfed me xD feelings of nervousness and anxiety for you all yet mixed with confidence that you guys would pull it off successfully ( which u all did! :) ) and finally, finding it rather incredible that we made it all this way through our PW but i'm really glad and happy we did it!:D

especially the few minutes before our presentation started, i felt that sense of strong unity come alive in our group (: with reassuring glances to each other, encouraging hi-5s and our project "A" sign , i really really felt so thankful that im in this group with you guys :) and we are doing this OP together! (:

i shall save all the heartfelt words about my PW journey on 7 nov :) after the submission of GPF:D but meanwhile, good job , DH005! (:

and thankfully, my presentation was pretty much my best among all the other practices:)and
my Q&A was quite okay :) yay!

5c12! we have finished our OP!:D we finished as a class together! (: and no matter what mistakes you might have thought to have make or might have made during ur presentation and Q&A, just forget it:) its ALL over! whats done cannot be undone:) BE thankful that you guys did not do worse:) and as long as you did ur best at that time, thats all that matters:) so JIAYOU FOR I&R!:)

okay. now to a piece of bad news:( my capping for my tooth dropped off on thurs after a BAD dream -.- but yea, i went to the dentist to fix it but he made it smaller than the other teeth :( which makes it look super super ugly now. so pls do not be alarmed at my appearnace:)

feeling super duper tired now:( maybe shall just go and sleep!:D
so that i will have energy for tmr!(: GAMBATTE !

I LOVE PROJECT A!<33333

SMILE:)


Lyon