1. FAMILY:
2. FRIENDS:
- catch up with ALL the friends that i treasure (i should probably make a list too :) )
- probably announce openly that i'll be most willing to listen to anyone's troubles(T&C apply xD )
- make a list of people whom i owe birthday treats to (: and start treating them( one by one bah coz i have a feeling i'm going to be broke soon :( )
- make a list of people who owe me treats! muahaha:D i know of some who owe me treats(:
3. VOLUNTEER:
hellloooo(:
wanted to blog yesterday but forgot AHAHA.
anyway, finally it's the LAST alevel paper for me(:
hope it goes well(:
tried to study yesterday
and okay lah, i did study but not very productive>.<
went out to study yesterday
and when i didn't feel like studying any more
it was raining outside
and i didn't bring my umbrella
so i was contemplating whether to just go out and brave the rain
and walk home
i thought about it for quite a long while
especially since i had exam the next day
and i could get sick from walking in the rain
BUT I STILL DID IT
heh :D
at first when i started walking in the rain,
it was quite unbearable
but as time passed,i got quite used to the rain
and somehow i reached home faster than i thought(:
so moral of the story: if you want to do something, just do it.
don't think too much
although it might seem daunting
but when you actually do it,
it might be easier than you thought(:
haha :D
oh and here's another good thing that happened to me(:
maybe it's good karma bah(:
i sent a jiayou sms to the class(those taking econs)
and then i went to sleep(:
but i had quite a horrible dream
dunno why
so when i woke up in the middle of the night
i was really freaked out and could not really calm myself down
BUT THEN I LOOKED AT MY HP(:
and tadah -6 wonderful reply smses from 6 wonderful people in class(you know who you are)(:
which totally brightened up my night :D
and i felt sooo much better(:
which was really lucky for me
because i would probably feel discouraged if i had continued to freak out ><
haha so i really really appreciate it(:
moral of the story:
when you want to brighten up the lives of others
you never know when it might be a reciprocal thing
and they could just be brightening up your life as well(: (:
aww.heartwarming:)
ok lah. i shall go slack for awhile
before i start mugging for the last time(:
jiayou people:D
smile(:
lyon
helloo(:
okay, i'm feeling much better now:D
after watching some videos
of past television serial drama theme songs(:
brings back memories
of when i was young
well,i realize that there's no way i can have answers to everything
but that's why i'm living(:
life is all about maturing
and as you mature,
the answers will come(:
sometimes we should just acknowledge that
we can't change certain things
but we can always try(:
it might or might not work out
it might hurt, tears, pain all might come
but at the end of the day
there's at least the satisfaction
knowing that you tried(:
its best to just live life as who you are(:
live it according to your own set of life principles
different people have different set of life principles
because we all experience different lifes
but thats the beauty of it(:
different people coming together
and we can all learn from another and seek inspiration from one another
because we're ultimately all human:)
well, i can't guarantee the result
and i know there will probably be many more heartwrenching incidents that will occur
as i strive to become who i want to be
but nevertheless
i'm going to go through all of them
and quicken my healing cycle(:
focus on one thing step by step(:
that's what i'm going to do.
don't think too much in life.
just live it the way you live it(:
but yes, i have so much flaws i need to change:(
but nvm
i know one day
i'll be someone who can control her temper well, not be so selfish
be more mature and understanding,
be more accepting and content
be more hardworking
and finally be someone who can really bring joy to people
for that day,
i'll keep trying(:
lyon
helloo!(:
just went out for a morning jog
HAHA okay lah, or rather a morning walk
because i gave up jogging after 10 minutes
><>
so decided to convert my jog
to an inspiring walk(:
so yea, i walked here and there
and thought about alot of stuff(:
aha it's funny but i don't really try to think about anything while i walk
but random thoughts just keep filling my head(:
so i was thinking about thought and action today(:
actually right,
i think that our feelings and our rationality complement(:
usually our feelings
reveal the most basic human nature
ranging from the altruistic ones such as helpful, compassion
to the negative ones like lazy and jealousy
but it's our rationality that keeps us in check(:
well, for good and bad reasons
like when we feel like helping someone
our rationality will start telling us
the opportunity costs and as well as calculate the possibility of getting rejected
but whereas when we feel lazy or jealous about others
our rationality tells us we cannot afford to be lazy and calculates the horrifying consequences
or also, it tells us that there's no point in jealousy
we're all who we are for a reason
and it's just that sometimes we don't know or can't see the reason ourselves
because it's more apparent to others(:
thats a reason why i love to see the good points about others if i can and let them know about it:)
so yea(; just a random thought that i was thinking about:)
and i was reading some of my old blog posts
haha:D
i think i sound more mature now leh:)
which is good eh :D
afterall, i'm 18:):)
shall make it a point to read ALL my blog posts
after Alevels
must really start mugging for econs le!:)
jiayou:D
lyon
Friday, November 13, 2009
1:24 PM
HELLLOOOO!!!
yay(:
temporary liberation!
till econs paper next wed and fri(:
so happy(:
i survived the past week of CONSECUTIVE PAPERS(:
haha:D
so i must slack today
to reward myself(:
anyway, today's maths was quite okay
except for the fact that
i got this feeling i made alot of careless mistakes
but what's done is done
and i won't regret
BECAUSE i can proudly say that
for all these papers
i did my best(:
and so, i'll just leave my grades to fate(:
please treat me well(:
and i think i helped brighten up two people's day today(:
haha:D although i was really focusing on encouraging them
but after i encouraged them
what they said to me really brightened up my day(:
because it showed that i did succeed in brightening up their day
and hopefully provide some motivation(:
it really means alot to me
when my words of encouragement
really helps to make people feel better(:
anyway, i think it's the effect of 6 consecutive papers in a row
because i'm not feeling well
throat discomfort and cough:(
oh well, i better heal myself well today
for ECONS revision tmr(:
( sian. i haven't touched econs since like 2 weeks ago:( )
jiayou jiayou jiayou!!(:
i shall make ms leong proud as her econs rep(:
or at least hopefully :D
but its REST now(:
smile(:
Lyon
Thursday, November 12, 2009
8:14 PM
hello(:
ARGH.
i'm blogging because
i'm TIRED
and i cannot seem to concentrate or even start to study MATHS:(
wanted to attempt the H1 maths paper
and then i found out no answer-.-
which totally didn't give me any incentive
on destroying my brain cells even further
so as guilty and slack
as i may sound,
MATHS PAPER 2:
please forgive me
i'm just going to take you on
with just a study of the stats summary
the maths dept prepared
and the pure maths formula booklet
i prepared
:(
nevertheless,
please still like me tmr morning(:
i'll love you back a thousand times more
:D
* okay, i'm too tired. this is weird,
i'm actually talking to a maths paper
that i never even see before -.-*
jiayou people(:
smile(:
Lyon
6:29 PM
helloooo(:
HISTORY IS OVERRRR!(:
really really happy:)
don't get me wrong,
it isn't that i hate history
but rather, it has been the most pressurizing subject
to me in these last 2 years(:
haha today's paper was quite okay(:
i thought it would be very hard x_X
but it turned out to be easier than i thought(:
ALTHOUGH this would just mean that
almost every hist student in spore would find it okay too><
well, im not sure if all my essays were okay
because i did adopt some different approaches to some essays
but i hope it turns out fine(:
really hope this can counterbalance my SEA:(
anyway, history's over
and i must really thank ms k
for being such a wonderful history tcher(:
i really really want to give her a grade
that she would be proud of....
but it doesn't seem very possible><
nevertheless, i'll be optimistic
and hope a miracle happens(:
okayyy now its time for MATHS(:
i must make sure i do well tmr
to secure my grade(:
JIAYOU!!
meanwhile, its time to take a short rest first(:
smile(:
Lyon
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
7:28 PM
hello!(:
yay GP is overrrr!(:
heh:) well, i think the paper was quite okay
maybe it was because
i could actually find an essay question that i could do(:
haha but to my " horror"
it seemed to be the most popular question
drats. means more competition
haha but nvm lah(:
p2 was quite okay
first time i managed to finish the paper on time 5 min beforehand leh(:
heh i guess all those compre practices i did helped
at least i'm quite confident i won't get E for GP this time( unlike prelims)
haha :D
after GP, went hme with jolai,chinghsien and grace(:
in the end, me , jolai and chinghsien went post centre to eat(:
haha:D quite fun (:
heh i like being with the two of them heh(:
anyway, just a thought about a short conversation
that me and chinghsien had today(:
about how hard it is to actually help people ><
so just felt like blogging about it(:
well, taking the initiative to help people is tough.
i don't know why but it's just tough.
perhaps it's really because we fear rejection
but why? helping others is a good thing
and it's something we should always do
and yet there's this strong inertia called rejection
:( i think it's very very very pathetic:(
haiz. i wish i can overcome this inertia one day(:
anyway, i realised i should probably stop blogging about it
and go study for my IH
please let tmr's IH paper
be a good one for me
(:
JIAYOU PEOPLE(:
smile(:
Lyon
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
6:37 PM
hello(:
yay(:
i survived today!
my only day with 2 papers!(:
and i'm glad they both went okay(:
not that i will surely get very high marks
but rather, more that i really did my best(:
so i'm happy with my performance.
at least it didn't feel as uneasy as the SEA paper
which reminds me i need to study really hard for IH on thurs...
PLEASE LET ME DO WELL FOR IH(: (:
OH and i must do well for tmr's GP paper(:
i'm going to break out of the E grade!
i hope.. haha anyway this post prelim period
has been a period where i really think i worked the most for GP(although it still isnt alot)
as compared to the past ever since y5
so hopefully,
i'll reap my results tmr(:
all i have to do is to stay calm
believe in myself
and i can do it:)
OH and yay i received an email
i was really looking forward to today(:
so yup, i'll take that as a good omen
meanwhile, it's time to take a rest
and study my final bit of GP for tmr(:
jiayou people!
keep the optimism up(:
it works!(:
smile(:
lyon
Monday, November 09, 2009
9:49 PM
hello(:
just a quick post before i go and do my last bit of revision >.<
today's SEA paper was , well, according to ms k- easy
but somehow after i finished the paper,
didn't feel as happy or satisfied as i felt
after the prelim SEA paper
well, i did manage to finish all 4 essays
did do my best
but just something felt uneasy
so couldn't really get my spirits up again today
(which led to some slacking heh )
until i found my source of motivation!!:)
haha i was looking for it yesterday
and i couldn't find it
but i actually managed to find it today(:
now thinking about it,
it may be destined that i find it today
in my depressed moments
to encourage me and spur me on(:
and in fact, now thinking about it,
taking the mock paper SEA during the study break really helped
because it provided me with the first opportunity for writing pre-war and nat unity essays
which i attempted today
although not sure whether i did it correctly,
but now thinking about it, it might be fate that i actually had experience of writing it before(:
so not that bad bah
but nevertheless,
i think i really need to work extra hard for international paper
and actually considering that sea has always been my weaker paper,
i shouldn't have such high expectations of myself to that paper
coz the disappointment would pull me down
haha(:
but i'm up again:D
ready( actually only mentally ready)
for tmr's consecutive 2 battles!:)
jiayou people!
(:
OH and fate gave me another nice nice present today:)
muahaha:) so unexpected but appreciated deeply(:
its amazing how ideas you were toying with in your mind
COME TRUE :):)
smile(:
Lyon
Sunday, November 08, 2009
9:48 PM
hello(:
just a quick post
before i do my last bit of revision and
go to sleep....
been feeling rather unwell these days :(
i think it's also because of my ulcers ><
but i hope everything will be fine starting tmr(:
well, i managed to have one last mugging session
today with my favourite auntie around:)
haha:D gave me more motivation bah(:
and yay she said she read my letter(:
and she even ask me something like whether i'm sure she's such a nice person
and of course i said yes lah:)
actually, when others say something good about you,
why doubt them?(:
it might be a really sincere compliment
about some traits about you you haven't noticed:)
haha(:
yea :D well, we parted on a good note
because after my mugging session
she was gg paya lebar mrt and i was going home
so we walked for awhile
before parting at a traffic light:)
haha(: and yup she told me all the best
and anything can go find her (: aww <333
hmm, anyway,
my horrifying week of consecutive alevel papers
start tmr!
haha or should i say challenging?(: or exciting?
well, i'm not really feeling the stress now
but i'm determined not to stress myself out for the next 2 weeks(:
just keep my cool
and do my best(:
my exam philosophy: just do my best(: and leave the rest to fate :)
please bless me with luck (:
and i'm going to stay positive
by filling myself with alot of hope(:
haha:D
keep on spamming hopeful thoughts only(:
shld work :)
jiayou people!(:
smile(:
Lyon
Saturday, November 07, 2009
7:39 PM
hellooo(:
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12:33 AM
hello(:
aww.
today might be the last mugging session
with that nice auntie around >.<
which makes me really feel sad :(
because her presence never fails to give me this sense of security
and motivation (:
OH but i wrote her a personal letter!(:
to express all my heartfelt gratitude to her
and some personal things i wanted to share with her(:
can still remember how her face lit up when i gave her the letter
although i really wanted to see her reaction after she read
but i know i probably wouldn't be able to stand it
because i can't stand people reading personal stuff that i wrote to them in front of me
i'll feel so damn paiseh x_X
haha (: but i really really really hope my letter
can brighten up her day (:
especially since i think she might still be working now :(
she's really a wonderful person
and sometimes i think it's a gift from fate
it's fate's way of encouraging me
by showing me that such a great person exists in the period where i need the most hope and encouragement:)
so i should treasure my affinity with her (:
one reason why i'm feeling quite sad about it
is that her concern, encouragement and the little actions here and there
have really touched me deeply(:
it's something that i haven't encountered in a long long time(:
so i really am very very grateful
for these memories(:
i know that in future, when i look back on my Alevel mugging period
she'll definitely be in my memories(:
and i know i will definitely see her de
when i go there and volunteer next time (:
but for now,
i need to make the best use of the inspiration she has given me
and strive to do my best for Alevels(:
alevels is just around the corner...
well, although i feel quite numb now about it
i do have my moments of despair and fear
which i'm always thankful that something or someone
manages to make it disappear(:
but anyway,
exams are just exams.
it's no big deal.
instead of worrying about how badly you might do
why not
daydream about how well you might do?(:
it's called positive thinking(:
well, to be really frank,
i doubt that my revision has really been productive
because somehow i don't feel that i'm super prepared to take my papers
but then there's no way someone can prepare fully for an exam
the best thing about exam is how
positive thinking can save the day(:
and i will do my best(:
even though i might not have finished preparing 100%,
i have did all i could
i did not give up
and i tried my best
and thus will have no regrets(:
i hope that by 20th november
i will be able to say that to myself(:
for now
please don't let me fall sick
because
i'm actually feeling kind of unwell:(
haiz.
nvm
lets all jiayou(:
lyon
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
10:03 PM
hello(:
argh.
this is bad.
i feel tired,
so so so tired
but yet i have been really unproductive this few days
because i keep telling myself
not to pressurize myself
because next week is a killer week
and i need all the positivity
and rest i can get to prepare myself to be in
the best state of mind next week...
but if i'm not doing much
and yet im still tired
then something is wrong:(
arghh.
maybe i should try to get my motivation back again(:
it probably helps
because my spirits lifted when i saw
py, wk and hc
jiayou msg
on facebook(:
was thinking that everything happens for a reason
today, on my way out
it suddenly rained
and mind you, it rained heavily
so i was almost drenched by the time i reached:(
but when i reached
i met this mother with her two kids
and she lost her handphone
so she asked me whether i could lend her my phone
to call her husband and before that, to call her hp
and check that it had really been stolen
so i lent her(:
and she thanked me again before she and her two kids left(:
and the ironic thing is that 5 min after they left
the rain stopped
and the skies were super blue and the sun came out-.-
haha XD so i was thinking that
could it be that life arranged it such that i had to go out earlier than i planned
get caught in the rain
but nevertheless reach the place i wanted to get to
just in time to help someone who really needed help?(:
haha(: somehow when i thought of this
i didn't really resent the weather
but things just seem so magical eh(:
and maybe my actions had a positive impact on her children(:
maybe they would learn to help others too when they grow up(:
haha XD
sometimes in life,
what we think as bad
might not be as bad as we think
because it might be a good thing to someone else(:
ookay, i shall try getting motivated again!(:
jiayou!
cheers
lyon
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
11:10 PM
hello(:
well, i didn't do much today
because i went back to school :(
in the morning for maths consultation
haha
i think it's psychological
i just feel damn unproductive at school :(
but anyway, i went to my favorite study hideout again
and the very nice auntie was there(:
haha (= always very happy when i see her
because she's always damn nice to me:)
i better treasure this few last days >.<
but luckily there's still the volunteering opportunity
then i can see her again(: haha XD
anyway,
feeling rather okay nowadays
haha(: i think it's because i know next week
will be damn mentally draining
so i'm not putting much pressure on myself
but i hope its the right way to go(:
and i'm spending time to read
all the nice letters and encouragements i got(:
ahah:D
they brighten up my day
and give me the motivation to go on:)
gambatte people!(:
cheers
lyon
Monday, November 02, 2009
7:59 PM
hello!(:
YAY. first paper down!(:
8 more papers to go >.<
i'll be damn happy at the end of next week(:
coz i have papers EVERYDAY for the whole of next week
and two papers on one day somemore
i need all the rest and motivation i can get!(:
and also at the end of next week
there's only ONE more subject to study for!
go go go!:)
anyway,
i decided that my goal for this Alevels
would be to do my very very best(:
as long as i did my best,
regardless of my end results
i'll still be satisfied and happy(:
and anyway also because since i studied more for this Alevels
i should get better grades than prelims
if i try my best
and luck stays with me:)
jiayou!!!:D:D
smile(:
lyon
