Friday, January 29, 2010

9:47 AM

hello(:

currently feeling a little tired

because i talked to someone overnight on the phone last night(:

but seriously,

thanks for listening,

thanks for understanding,

thanks for everything you said

thanks for knowing me and believing in who i am

"you're someone who won't commit to things that you don't believe in"

it's especially comforting , in times like this(:

and thanks to the encouraging tags on my tagboard(:

except for the "emo" tag-tsk i never even emo lah haha XD

true friends

should draw a line between whats friendship and work

should learn how to discern between friendship and work

that's what i believe in (:

on a lighter note,

yesterday's volunteering session went

GREAT(:

that's why i love volunteering with kids

their innocence and sincerity

never fails to touch me(:

small things they do or simply just watching them

make me happy(:

and OHH they call me

PRINCESS LYON lehhh(:

so sweet right :D

lyon

smile(:

lyon

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

9:08 AM

hello(:

nowadays,

life seems to be like a roller coaster for me

sometimes, something can happen that will make me

damn happy

and yet in that same day,

another thing will happen and throw me back into the dumps

frankly speaking,

its a very horrid feeling

but i do know that amidst all the negativity

there's always a good side to it(:

it's just whether i choose to see it.

i'm still fighting for chances,

mind you,

its CHANCES

nothing else.

there's nothing wrong with pushing for chances

coz if you don't give a chance,

how will you ever know?

it's really demoralizing when i hear of people

rejecting the idea of even giving chances

like wth, what's wrong with even giving one chance?

you never know how it might change your whole life.

but oh well,

perhaps even i'm guilty of not giving chances in the first place

nevertheless,

i'll learn to give more chances from now on(:

once again, its chances for good things.

recently, i wake up in the morning

feeling very sian of everything,

even feeling like i don't want to get out of bed

but i realised it's a form of avoidance

escapism because what i'm dealing with every day

is outside of my comfort zone

it's something that is so mentally challenging

that frankly speaking, it does wear me out at times

but then, i'll think of the things in my comfort zone

such as the friendship, the motivational talks,

how my uplines and downline always motivate me(:

it's really encouraging

as i get to know them better and better

and appreciate them for who they are(:

i'll give it my best shot this week(:

so regardless of whether i hit my goal,

i'll still be happy(:

and yeah,

if you haven't hit your goal,

why give up?

<333

smile(:

lyon

Thursday, January 21, 2010

12:00 AM

hello(:

i see it.

i see my inspirational cycle theory in my job.

i see the beauty in what i'm doing already.(=

and i'm determined to make others see it too.

one very very very

important takeaway is

THE IMPORTANCE OF GIVING A CHANCE(:

it's just one chance

but its something that could make a difference.

skepticism is unavoidable

but only matured individuals

would realize that being skeptical

judging even before giving it a chance

is shallow.

everything deserves a chance to be explained.

we should learn to give chances more in life.

sometimes, we might say we don't give chances

because we had past experiences already

but it's an invalid excuse because as already mentioned,

what's past is past

and what's present is present.

comparison is unfair and unjust.

giving chances doesn't equate to committment

it doesn't equate to decision

because different people have different views and opinions

about what is good for them

so ultimately, mutual respect between human beings will be emphasized.

or at least, thats the way sensible people would think and understand.

i believe that in life,

we must be matured and distinguish well

between personal relationships and reality.

thats something i admire.(:

i'll push for chances

fight for chances

because chances can represent hope(:

of course it can represent negative hope in the end

but at least it was a hope.(=

nevertheless, it must be for a good cause lah.

obviously, you don't give certain things like smoking a chance right? haha

thats where wise discretion comes in.

i think i'm slowly gaining the confidence to be a social worker.(=

smile(:

lyon

Sunday, January 17, 2010

11:43 AM

hello!(:

finally- i'm blogging again!

i've officially been working full time for one week.

there were so many ups and downs,

to be frank, this week was one of the most stressful week in my life

i practically spent all my time

fretting over appointments, deadlines

and most importantly, my moral obligation and desire to help my team,

to help renuka, mr keith etc

there were so many times of negativity and rejection

in fact, i think i grew up so much in this week

where i struggled to find balance in my work, my principles

and everything and everyone around me.

there were so many times whereby i felt so frustrated

why couldn't i be luckier? i just need that bit, that little bit more

to achieve what i wanted

but i know going that extent would be betraying my own principles

my direction in this job

and i won't allow myself to do that

i'm going to set an example for all the people in my life

the people i'm going to help in future

so in order for that,

i must always practice what i preach,

which is to stick by my moral principles and live my life.(:

not to get blinded by negative desires.

but it's hard, freaking hard

sometimes, i really would wish so much to myself that

someone would create a miracle for me.

but of course, it's harder than it sounds.

especially when so many people seem to be not in approval of me being in this job

but i'm not going to give up.

this is not just a job to me,

it's not just about benefitting other people's health

it's not just about the experience i will gain

it's not just about all the wonderful people and friends i met

it's not just about the message of not taking your health for granted,

it's not just about really helping my team

it's a moral commitment to myself

it's a promise i made to myself

it's about my dream as a social worker.

if i can succeed in this job,

despite all the odds and difficulty i faced

if i can always pick myself up after countless falls

and move on stronger than ever,

i can show people around me,

especially my parents,

that i have the perseverance

i have what it takes to survive as a social worker in future.

i know many people, including my parents

and even myself at times

doubt my capability to be a social worker in future

my mental strength to cope with the stress and emotional burden

doubt my will to carry on as a social worker for the rest of my life

because passion is different from reality

you can be very passionate about something

but you can't be sure whether passion can sustain you in reality

so i want to prove to everyone

and most importantly,

prove to myself that

i have what it takes to carry on

no matter how hard it is

i will persevere on and keep on trying , keeping the faith and believeing.

and i know that

the day i succeed for this job,

i can confidently tell myself and the people around me that

i definitely have what it takes to be a social worker.

i definitely can live out my dream

i will not doubt myself again(:

and for that goal,

for that dream,

even though i really feel like crying every now and then

i will hang on.

so i really also want to thank those of you

who encouraged me

who expressed your support(:

and i really hope that to whoever who's reading my blog now

if you know of anyone, family, friends or relatives who has health problems

be it minor , like backaches or insomnia

or major, like high blood pressure or diabetes

, let me know okay(:

just give me a chance to share with them what i think can help them

ultimately, its their choice

but practically, there's always no harm finding out stuff that's related to our health

because in life, health is very very very important.

and also, to everyone who's reading my blog

if you're experiencing a rough patch in life

and feel really down and sad,

don't give up okay!

it's alright to feel sad and negative once in a while

because we're human

but what's most important

is our heart and will

to dare to try again

because there's always something to be positive about in life(:

no one knows what will happen in future.

what makes you think you can't pull through this?

what makes you so sure you will fail?

just because of previous experience?

it's not valid because things change and miracles happen(:

just keep believeing

and im sure you will ultimately achieve what you want.

smile(:

lyon

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

12:49 AM

hello(:

today was my first appointment.

unfortunately, i failed.

but frankly speaking, although undeniably,

i do feel somewhat affected by it,

it's nothing serious(: and i know by the time i wake up tmr,

i probably won't feel anything anymore(:

but so, it's important for me to pen down my thoughts now

when i still have feelings (:

i did my best(:

i did all i could to convince them,

i told them everything i felt, everything i knew ,

sincerely from the heart(:

it was a good "battle" in the sense that at least i lost after putting up the best fight ever(:

actually, i'm quite glad i failed(:

because after failing the first appointment,

i already dropped to the lowest that i can be

so from now on, since im going to be working hard

things are just going to start looking better for me(:

but i'm glad i have my own view of this industry(:

and so, i have already convinced myself.

but what renuka says make sense,

its life- you can only manage to convince some, you can't convince all.

similarly, in social work,

i must accept the fact that i can't successfully help EVERYONE i want to meet

because some things are really beyond my control

but for the people who i will manage to benefit and help

i will

PERSEVERE(:

interesting point to note is that

next time during my social work days,

i can use this rejection as an example to show how i failed haha(:

but of course, i will succeed in future(:

anyway, must really thank mr keith(:

because my relatives were frankly very difficult to deal with

but he persevered, he hung on and this gave me the confidence and the determination

to persevere too(:

even though he was tired and everything, he still did his best(:

and his words were comforting(: sincere words from the heart.(:

although i treat this work as a form of social work

to be practical

im quite of sad about not being able to help renuka and mr keith =/

but but but

i know that as long as i keep trying,

theres still a chance(:

so yupp(:

i will work hard and DO my best(:

it's going to make me a stronger person

who can help more people(:

thats smth im looking forward to(:

smile(:

lyon

Saturday, January 09, 2010

2:51 AM

hello(;

feel kind of enlightened about some stuff (:

i think i understand what mr haryanto told me today(:

he told me something very simple,

it's a logic that probably has been repeated many times to me

but somehow, it had a large impact on me tonight:

it doesn't matter what others think, it's what you think that matters.

life is a journey

and it's special to each and everyone

because they , with their own background, thoughts, environment and beliefs,

are the ones living it(:

it's natural for views to clash

because of so many different factors

its natural to get exposed to views of different kind

but its important to note that

you must stay firm to what you believe

and what you choose to believe(:

other's opinions are just a reference

for you to think about it and reconcile it with your own opinion

in fact, education also teaches us to

have our own view(:

not to be swayed by others and make decisions

based on ourselves(:

follow your heart.

thats something i strongly believe in.(:

we can always ask millions of " what if ....? "

before we do things

but what's the point of asking that?

i mean, if u never try, you will never know.

that's life , isn't it?(:

you follow your heart, live it the way you want , the way you would

and even if u make mistakes along the way

repent , learn and start all over again(:

sometimes, only you can help yourself

because you have responsibility over your life

you screw up, you pay for it

its a very simple logic(:

its good to plan ahead

and try to prevent the negative stuff from happening

but at the same time,

we must realise that

it's the negative stuff

that helps us grow

makes us stronger(:

as quoted by someone xD

who mentioned something about needing some resonance of negativity

instead of an overwhelming dosage of positivity to heal. HEHE(:

i admit there are people with greedy thoughts

working against their moral ethics

profit -driven incorrigible creatures

but why? why must we make such a fuss over them

when there are good people too?

just because we focus on scolding all these people,

we overlook the presence of good people

we stereotype people, unwilling to give our trust again

which is something i cannot stand, because it's common sense that

the balance in this world commands a good and bad side for everything

so why be naive and restrict ourselves more to the bad side?

ultimately, the choice lies with us.

we believe what we choose to believe

we fight for what we choose to fight for

we reject what we choose to be not beneficial to us

we take heed of the advice we choose to listen to

we must have our own moral principles and set of beliefs(:

and live our life by that

everyone will be happier(:

so yup

its YOU that matters

your own opinion

because

you're living for YOURSELF(:

even if u want to help others,

you need to have the means to do so

by first helping urself(:

smile(:

lyon

Friday, January 08, 2010

1:07 AM

hello(:

just a quick post(:

today was a GOOD day(:

except for the part where i was late(:

i'm warming up:D

yay!

smile(:

lyon

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

10:38 PM

hello!(:

i haven't blogged for awhile!:D

wasn't initially planning to blog

until i realised i haven't blogged about my 2010 goals

as well as after i read some touching emails i received in 2009(:

i suddenly have this urge to do something for all the people

i appreciate and care and treasure in my life! haha

okayy. let's start with my 2010 goals:

1. prepare myself to be a social worker:

-must be financially prudent

-volunteer more and thus get exposed to reality more often

- overcome my fear of the darker stuff

- be more filial and do more for my family so they won't object to me being a social worker

- learn important skills such as presentation skills, ways to express myself better

so i can inspire others better(:

- widen my social circle and hence, get exposed to people from all walks of life

and hopefully, get to help more people!

2. appreciate- treasure the importance of this word more

- appreciate my family

- appreciate everyone in my life

and most importantly, show my appreciation whenever i can(=

and to appreciate people, i must first trust(=

3.live for myself

- learn to be more firm

- learn to reject ,learn to get used to rejection

- learn to fight more firmly for what i want

- open up more negative sides of me to people( sounds weird eh =x)

4. have more confidence and perseverance and self-discipline and not be so LAZY and UNDECISIVE haha(:

- always keep in mind who i am

and lead my life as who i am (=

well, i really just want to thank you all

for everything(=

although we might not be able to meet often as we go our separate ways

i'm very willing to believe in the power of friendship

absence makes the heart grow fonder(:

these few days have been really great!(=

i've achieved all my goals-

1. get a job

2. get volunteering opportunities

3.sign up for driving

(: and now i need to

work hard for my job

( it's sort of a part-time job btw- shall elaborate in another post :D )

really go for the volunteering opportunities

and of course, pass all the tests and get my driving license

and i'm meeting really nice people nowadays

and i'm SO looking forward to tmr!!!(:

have this feeling its going to be a

GREAT DAY(:

smile people!(:

lyon

Sunday, January 03, 2010

11:50 PM

helloo(:

just returned from band concert.

i went with huikee and overall, it was good(=

except from the fact that i was still quite tired

from 6C12 new year stayover at agnes's house- get the details from jolai's blog(=

lazy to blog about it muahaha:D

but it was fun(= it's nice to see the class again

and see them laughing and playing,

( i like to observe the class (: it's weird but it's fun(:)

in fact, it does seem like we're in taiwan again ahha(=

although everyone 's going to be busy with their own stuff,

i have full confidence that we will all try our best to make it for future class outings

oh and because of the people in our class, i'm sure there'll be class outings regularly(=

OH and thank you jason and dorothy for the photo(:,

grace, jolenelai and andrew for your notes(:

and andrew and hongyi for that present- it's the first time i received such a medal(=

and i was really surprised but damn happy and honoured(:

i'll definitely put it somewhere that i can see it every day

and use it as my motivation to become someone with a bigger heart(:

anyway, i realised i haven't blogged a proper post for 2010(:

a reflective post- about 2009 and the transition into 2010(:

i shall blog about it tonight

to mark the end of my " play" week =/

this week has really been one of the most tiring weeks of my life

but yet one of the BEST weeks of my life(:

finally, i feel the joy of post Alevels! (:

i managed to spend time with people whom i treasure alot(=

sun-YLF

mon-hk n jasmine

tues-hk,rachel,elaine,SEW-hidayat,meiyan,sylvanus,WT-hamizah,geraldine

wed-pat,sp,hk,mx,virg , mongo-chinyi,grace,dorothy,keith,vincent,weijie,mervyn,guoxiang,

thurs-renuka, YLF

fri-YLF, family

sat- 6C12

sun- hk

although there's still some people whom i haven't met up with,

i'm really contented with the past week(:

except the fact that i ate alot, played alot

and spent alot =/

must really exercise self-discipline from tmr onwards(=

2009-

it was such a busy year. it passed so fast that i can't even believe it's actually over.

it had to be one of the most challenging year in my life- especially since there seemed to be almost no time to rest, here're some important events this year(=

CSC service learning symposium:

this was significant because it was the final project for me in CSC (: lucky i had Li Hui and the rest of my club to help me with it(: i was really happy with the way things turned out

and those feedback forms really brightened up my day- since the feedback was so positive(=

and of course, it was my last time really working on something as CSC chairperson

i know i talked alot about my chairperson journey, so shan't repeat the same stuff here

but without CSC, these two years would have been so different(: in fact, my whole senior high life would be changed rather drastically because i learned so much as CSC chairperson.

the greatest takeaway would be the importance of believing and perseverance

these were the two qualities that kept me going on as chairperson

even when things seemed so bleak- and i realised that as long as you hang on to this 2 beliefs,

things will work out somehow(: oh and i realised that CSC had quite an impact on my reputation

-.- but luckily in a good way(:

Dance- SYF and concert(:

in a way, they were significant because they were going to be the last time=/

i don't really think i'll dance again for SYF or any concert , unless it's really inevitable

but anyway, i also learnt alot throughout the process.time management, the importance of trust

and believing in team spirit(= i'm so glad things turned out well(:

oh and it was the first time i managed to get so many people to go for dance concert

and even up til now, i still greatly appreciate everyone's support(:

Alevels:

now that it's over, i also don't know what to say

perhaps it's because i feel really numb about it-

i mean, what's done cannot be undone and in fact, looking back on it

would only make me more insecure =/

i'm not sure if it was my 100% but i'm sure i gave it all i got(=

no doubt, i slacked alot of times during the preparation

but at least i knew i persevered and i got to know so many nice people

whose support were also my motivation(:

i appreciated life more(:

and i just hope my road to becoming a social worker

would be a smooth one(:

so basically, this were the three significant events in my life this year(:

and significant people who made such a difference in this year

people whom i had just got to know

people whom i helped or helped me in some ways

no doubt there were so many other incidents

and i'm so thankful for all the support i received this year(:

it really brightened up my life :D

i shall make it a point

to read all my posts in 2009(:

well, about my new year resolutions,

frankly speaking, i haven't really thought hard about it

but i will, soon(:

although i have somewhat an idea of what they would be(:

anyway,

recently, i have received the same advice that

i shouldn't keep chiding myself for being negative

and instead, just accept myself for my negativity

and hence, there's a need to really think about this

because the people who told me this really meant it for my own good(:

well, i've always had very high expectations of myself morally

and i try to practise what i preach

so as to convince others about what i advise them to do

such as think positive and smile(:

that's why i hate it when i get negative

but i do acknowledge times like that

and wait for myself to heal (:

but yea i admit sometimes i do keep all the negativity within me

and just swallow it up- i guess it's something i'm really used to doing.

but i'll try , bit by bit, to open up more(:

so as to get others to open up to me , more , too(:

meanwhile, i'm going to get some sleep(:

smile(:

lyon

Saturday, January 02, 2010

10:26 AM

helloo!(:

finally, i 'm blogging again!(:

this is my FIRST post in 2010 :D

i wanted to blog yesterday but was really too tired to do so haha(:

the start of 2010

was one of the best starts ever

to a year(:

well, before i elaborate, i'll update about the past few days(:

wednesday:

went cycling with hk,sp,virg,mx and pat at ECP(:

and before that, in order to save one bus fare trip ,

i actually walked 1 hr from marine parade to around bedok jetty

horrible experience because my foot was hurting like crazy :(

plus, i cycled for 3 hours afterwards leh- super duper tired:(

haha but it was really fun!(: we saw aeroplanes!! (: haha

although this outing was kind of a last minute one for me,

but i'm really very glad i joined (: (: (:

afterwards, i went for mongo outing(:

at first, i was really so tired that i wanted to just go home and sleep

and not travel all the way to yew tee

BUT in order to make miracles happen( cy said if i go, it would be a miracle :D )

i decided to go for it(: haha

but the whole journey was torturing, i was so hoping that there would be empty seats

but nooo, there were NONE :(

anyway, i met up with guoxiang

and we went to find vincent before he led us both to chinyi's house(:

her house is like WOAH(: damn nice lah!

and it has the perfect balcony- for stargazing!

sadd that there were no stars that night><

we watched yes-man and played some xbox( which i really CMI)

and ate al0t of chips( green chips! :D )

and tried to play with chinyi's dog- so cute!(:

also, had a very nice talk with keith which i appreciated very much

plus a nice advice talk with vincent which i appreciated very much too

so thank you to the both of you(:

we went for dinner at night and it was really quite fun(:

we met this weird uncle ronnie though haha xD

but all in all, although i'm guilty of not turning up for many mongo outings

i'm so happy that i went for this outing despite my tired-ness (:

because i really enjoyed myself with everyone alot(:

i promise i'll go for more in the future! haha(:

thursday:

got myself into quite a complicated mess regarding a marketing job

sigh. although i already made up my decision on how to deal with it

i still feel bad towards her and would just want to apologise to her again

still, the good thing that came out for it would be that

i had a nice talk with renuka(:

haha so yup i'll just go and see see on monday

anyway, i'm determined to get a job by the end of next week haha(:

so i shall keep all options open- except for office jobs HAHA

afterthat, met up with YLF

for our countdown!(:

well, we were supposed to meet at orchard at 5pm

but apparently most of us was late

and when i reached there, i only saw waikit ahha(:

but wah i haven't talked to him in ages(:

ahha and soon all the other people came

and we proceeded to far east plaza, the bubble tea shop

we went back to fetch jinghuan and we went to be the "testers" for cologne

haha(: cool experience though!

we went to eat dinner whereby we crapped alot

and oh yea- i was niao-ed so many times TSKK

but i managed to retaliate quite a bit(:

so after dinner, we headed to py's house!

on the journey, we talked, laughed and crapped

well , it's hard to really explain or describe

but the feeling's just so magically wonderful(:

because i feel super duper comfortable with them(:

as we were walking towards py's house

we were talking about the end of the year

and the start of the new year

and alvin reminded me of the countdown to 2008

2 years ago where we joined in the countdown at town area

and it was so freaking crowded , even to the extent that he had to walk behind me and guide me through the crowd ><

and everything was so chaotic, even though we managed to catch the fireworks in the end(:

it was such a contrast to last night's countdown ahha(:

which suddenly made me realise that

ever since i knew YLF

i have been spending the start of the new year with them(:

for the end of 2007,

as a group, we met up and wanted to go for YV countdown

but in the end , we didn't join them lah

but we did spent the last night of 2007 together(:

in fact, we even met up on the first day of 2008

to settle some stuff i rmb

but yea(:

and a year from that,

we spent the first day of 2009 together

whereby we had our birthday celebrations for everyone(:

it was one of my best memories of YLF (:

such that i even created a video about it haha(:

and a year from that,

which is now(: we spent the last night of 2009

and the first day of 2010

together(:

<333

anyway, back to my story

haha when we reached py's house

we played majong

and the memory card game

which was damn good and funny(:

we saw all the " scheming" sides of each other

and i laughed ALOT(:

in fact, even when we were sort of counting down,

it was halfway through the game(:

i can't really describe it in detail but i'll be sure to look back on this memory very fondly

to remind myself from time to time

about the wonderful times spent with them(:

well, after the fun playing session,

hc had to leave so left me,jh,alv, py and wk

well, we did random stuff for awhile

before we all gathered in the bedroom

and lazed around and ohh i rmb me and jh were quite high haha(:

singing and stuff :D

well, because i'm a person who doesn't show my crazy side easily

i treasure times whereby i show it(: because im with people really close to me(:

after that, we watched the show Ip Man

it was good(: all the martial arts and stuff- i was really impressed

although at the end, i really felt like sleeping haha(:

but great show(:

afterthat, we just continued to laze around

and we ended up talking(:

at first, it was me, jh, alv n py

den later on, it became me , jh and alv

and den me and jh(:

the whole talking process was really nice(:

heart to heart talks

and i let them in on another of one of my more hidden secrets

which i was really glad to get it off my chest

especially with them(: because i know that

they accept me fully for who i am

and thus, letting them know about a different side of me

would be somewhat significant too in the new year(:

and i felt so much better

and OH i decided i want a husband who has the same character and personality as jinghuan haha:D

any recommendations? hha(:

anyway, after all the talking, we ate instant mee

and fell asleep aha(:

its my first time actually sleeping in someone's house in a group(;

i remember when i woke up

and saw all the rest sleeping in the room

it kind of felt very heartwarming(:

like we were a real family:D

haha(: that shows how close i feel to them(:

well, when we woke up,

we played asshole daidee(:

damn funny experience

which woke everyone up(:

i was at the top

den fell to the bottom only to be badly niao-ed by stupid alv

and den rose to the top again:)haha(:

OH YEAH speaking about niao-ing alv,

i have decided that alv will forever be the top on my

people to niao list haha:)

seriously, i'm guilty of niaoing him so many times already

but i don't get sick and tired of it at all

muahaha:) i know its kind of sadist

but hehe i can't help it(: and i'll look forward to more niaoing sessions(:

anw we had lunch whereby we crapped alot again

and i was super amused abt the ns and shit stuff MUAHAHAHA(:

i swear that was the most insanely funny conversation i was in ( omg i sound like keith ._.)

after that we headed to tiong bahru plaza macs

just to chill out

the funny photo taking sessions and stuff(:

although we were all tired but yea, it was still fun(:

but in the end, we all had to go home

weirdly, i suddenly felt this pang of nolstagia when we all went home

but luckily there was jh to make me feel better(:

haha(:

im so lucky :) and i must treasure it more(:

especially in this new year(:

well, the night was an enlightening one(:

whereby i finally became enlightened about my decision about being a social worker(:

thanks to my listener robot(:

well, simply to sum it up,

it's not about whether i can or cannot

it's whether i want or don't want

and i realise all this time

i've been confused because people seemed to be indicating that i cannot

but ultimately the decision lies with me

and it's okay to make mistakes

so yea, at the end of the day

even though things might be really tough for me

especially in the beginning

i know that im not alone(:

and that will be my motivation for carrying on

so yup,

I WANT TO BE A SOCIAL WORKER(:

and i will not fear the obstacles that come

but i will prepare myself for them(:

:) a good start to my 2010(:

wanted to blog a more reflective post about 2009

but i guess i shan't blog it today

since i blogged such a long post already

and later it's time with 6C12:)

HAHA(:

and oh i found my favourite expression(:

-- TSK TSK--

haha LOL(:

smile(:

lyon