hello(:
it's sunday , coming to the end of the week!
just some random thoughts to end of the week
i wish for people that i know to be more mature.
seriously.
don't do to others what you don't wish for others to do to you.
and for goodness sake,
please learn the importance of giving a chance
and not judging things based on yourself.
before you guys comment on anything,
please search your conscience and if you cannot confirm 100% about what you all are saying is true,
please refrain from making biased comments.
ask me if you have any questions instead.
on another note, i really appreciate people who support and trust me.(=
hello(:
i haven't blogged for the past week!
been really busy at work
busy but fulfilling(:
although at the end of the week,
in terms of work wise,
there's no concrete achievement
but i know at least for the past 5 days,
i really did my best(:
and thus, that will give me the motivation to carry on
because i know that there's always this certainty in life which i always believe in and that is
if you keep giving your best,
one day, you will achieve what you want(:
so yea, i'm going to make use of this chance in life
to prove this theory right
so that when i become a social worker in future
or counsel people,
i can tell them this theory with 100% confidence
so regardless of how hard it is,
i'll just persevere on (:
oh and of course i had my fair shares of ups and downs
shall talk about some downs first,
after being in this job for 2 months,
i realised that the downs are just simply rejection and flight
it's that simple.
it's all about how i can manage my emotions and people well
i'm still learning and one day, i will be able to conquer them.(:
but of course, the ups are what that brighten my life(:
in the past week,
i got closer to some people in husky(:
got to know some people better
and i'm really <33ing>
cracked alot of jokes here and there
thinking about them really brings a smile on my face(:
and during down times,
somehow there'll always be someone from husky
that will make me feel better(:
the longer i stay in this job,
the more i feel i can really learn and train myself(:
although there're always obstacles along the way
but i believe it's better to meet such obstacles now
when i'm still young
and learn how to counter them
so as to better prepare myself for the future(:
i'll just keep doing my best(:
because i also know that at the end of the day,
even if i really achieve nothing concrete,
i'll have achieved so much in my character development(:
and as long as i do my best,
i won't be letting myself down.
i.must.believe.
because
believe.inspires.achieving(:
smile(:
lyon
Sunday, February 21, 2010
10:35 AM
hello(:
just a quick blog post here.
i need to learn how to strike a balance
there's a time for everything
i think that's the thing i'm actually concerned about
because i think i might be losing control
but i'll try to get myself on track again(:
this is one of the main problems
that i predicted that i'll face next time
as a social worker
and true enough, although this is in a different context
i still am not strong enough to master
the emotional detachment from work and personal life
but it's okay, i'll train myself now
and by the time i'm a social worker,
i would have found the key to achieving this balance.
i really want to help people
and through all the stress
for a moment, i lost track of my aim
but i'm confident i'll get it back again stronger than ever.(:
i think that's how i'm growing
experiencing different struggles
but ultimately becoming stronger.
so along the rest of my journey,
although there'll be periods of stress and pressure
i know that there are always other people out there
who are facing worse stuff than me
so i should learn to always be stronger
and just be like them.(:
what's the worst thing that could happen?
i'll always ask myself that.
as long as the answer is not
lose my life or any drastic thing,
then why not do it?(:
smile(:
lyon
but i think i'm lucky
because i know there will always be people there for me
whenever i need someone(:
Saturday, February 20, 2010
12:25 AM
hello!
i'm blogging again(:
just a quick update,
Chinese New Year's over!
and it's back to work(:
but i think i really rested over this break
okay, maybe not FULLY but definitely it helped(:
i enjoyed myself yesterday(:
th-ed with simin,jh, cy and grace(:
and after that had an impromptu coffee session with upline<33
tired but fufilling(:
today was a weird day-
weird in my moods and feelings =/
alot of ups and downs
all happening too fast for me to even reflect why i'm feeling this way and that way
such days are really tiring for me
nevertheless, today was fun(:
actually i realise that despite all the stress from work and stuff like that
when i'm with husky people,
somehow i'll still be laughing and smiling at some slight thing here and there(:
which is indeed comforting to a large extent.
today ended well too(:
mr jason's sharing was indeed insightful and inspiring(:
and supper after that was good too(:
actually, i think i learnt alot today and yday,
and i really need to do a lot of thinking about many things.
i think i'm thinking things too complicated
i need to make things simpler(:
with the right mindset
do what i think is right.
who cares about what others think?
time and results will prove everything
as long as i never give up and keep trying
and keep everything under control,
i'll hit my goal(:
i'm really looking forward
at how much i can change myself for the better(:
it's going to be hard because
i've stayed this way for so long
but at least i'll try(:
i'm also going to learn how to emotionally detach myself
distinguish clearly between work and personal life
and find a balance about both and ultimately benefitting pple around me(:
its also a chance for me to find out
who are the people whom are really mature.(:
but there's something i admit i'm in the wrong
and i'll try to do something to change it(:
jiayou to myself and everyone(:
smile(:
lyon
Monday, February 15, 2010
1:59 AM
hello(:
it's the second day of the chinese new year(:
just felt like blogging a post before i go to sleep (:
the first day of CNY was quite good(:
following the same routine of going temple, watching movie etc
and ohh i feel super piggish lahh ><>
it went quite well(: and i really hope everything goes well later ><
anyway,
some thoughts that i felt even more strongly today:
the importance of sticking to what you think(:
many times in life,
our decisions based on our feelings or rather, by following our heart
might be seen by others as naive, foolish or even wrong
but ultimately,
we live for ourselves
and when people criticize,
there will be people who will support(:
just keep believing in them :)
sincerity and honesty(:
that's one of the main things to simplicity(:
when we care too much about what others think of us
we can't live our life the way we want
we unknowingly restrict ourselves
but why? we do not need to account to anyone about our life(:
and in fact, we only need to account to ourselves(:
its inevitable that some people will think badly of us
but then again, it's also inevitable that there will be people who think well of us(:
just keep them in mind
as the motivation to move on :D
jiayou everyone(:
smile(:
lyon
Sunday, February 14, 2010
9:28 AM
hello(:
it's the start of a brand new lunar year!
for this year, i want to
KEEP LIFE SIMPLE(:
simplicity is beauty :D
as long as we see life in a simple manner,
things will soon become simpler too(:
and we'll be happier.
just have a goal and head for it.
don't worry too much about it
cuz what's meant to be will be.(:
and i have to learn to
COUNT MY BLESSINGS(:
so many people i wish to appreciate and thank :)
ohh and happy vday people!(:
hope all the couples i know stay happily together(:
and may there be more new couples among the people i know
and best if i was their matchmaker(:
smile:D
lyon
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
11:45 PM
hello(:
today was tiring but nice(:
because it was spent with two people i treasure and appreciate so much(:
seriously,
i can't describe how much i <33>
and many special moments happened in the day
be it when i first came to office in the morning
and talked to mr weijun, jinyu they all
or grouping
or subway (:
or volunteering(:
or sitting in mr kit's office
or having a long walk and talk(:
i really treasure all these moments(:
i always remind myself to count my blessings
because that's only when i'll realise that
i should not take things for granted (:
one thing that might probably spoil the day
would be that
i exposed one of my fatal character flaws
without really noticing it
okay maybe i subconsciously noticed it =/
i can't help it though ><
although i'm usually very easy-going for almost everything,
when it comes to things that i feel very strongly for
or feel the need to protect and fight for, like certain beliefs , thinking and such
i'll argue/discuss until i feel that i've brought my message across haha(:
of course, i must learn to control and only do so when necessary
you can't make everyone happy
but learn to believe in yourself
find the set of beliefs that you want to fight for
protect what you want to protect
and be who you want to be(:
but yea, everyone makes mistakes(:
we mustn't be afraid to screw up
and we must respect the fact that different people have different perspectives
and when i say that, i mean it(:
smile(:
lyon
7:02 AM
hello(:
wanted to blog this post last night
but fell asleep because i was too tired haa =/
but anyway,
i must recap the little bits of positive memories
i had yesterday(:
#1. Makeover!(:
haha must really thank my makeover stylist RENUKA(:
i think i looked very different ahaha - quite cool to see people looking shocked at my change
and yeps(: i must admit receiving compliments felt really great(:
oh but it's damn hard to walk in heels. ><
#2. Badge Presentation!(:
yay :D first time a VE badge was presented to me(:
and what's most important is that i was rather lucky to be standing in front
and i managed to snatch the mic! (: at first i thought no hope already lah hehe :D
anyway, i managed to thank all those that i wanted to thank,
especially my upline and downline<33>
it's a great feeling , knowing ur teammates are cheering for you(:
haha and yep i think i heard " koh lin lu!!" (:
don't know if my speech was okay cuz it was a little impromptu and i was quite nervous
but i did my best(:
#3. Grouping after slideshow
this is one of my favourite groupings(: okay lah, maybe it's coz i got praised ahha(:
i never really got praised before in groupings hehe :D
so i should really savour the moment cuz i think it's going to be a long while before i get praised again hehe. one of the 14 blades (: that's new(:
and another reason why i liked this grouping was because
its a grouping emphasizing the teamwork of husky(:
personally, i really want husky to be united also, a little like a family
whereby we work hard together and fight together heh(:
the feeling is very heartwarming mah and in actual fact,
i know i'm starting to look upon husky like a family so yea(:
must bond more :D
#4. Giving out my personal letters(:
haha okay this is quite a minor thing
but it still meant alot to me(:
when i passed each person their letter and see their reaction
shocked or happy or even asking whether the envelope contained a cheque haha-.-
and receiving some smses about it(:
the thing that always motivates me about writing personal letters
is when i can imagine the person reading and smiling to himself/herself(:
it's the power of words coming from the bottom of the heart(:
it's the sincerity that i think will touch people's hearts(:
and i really hoped i managed to do so and they really felt my appreciation and gratitude(:
okay, i know i can't keep indulging in my promotion as a ME
haha especially when Mr Keith's car fight is getting more and more intense
and also certain promises and commitments i made to my upline and the rest of Husky
but i need to really strike a balance now,
between appointments, recruitments and time for other stuff that my mum has been nagging me about =/ nevertheless, i shall do my best(:
yes, i do feel stressed every now and then
but i know it's inevitable, some stress is good eh
and whenever i think of the fact that i'm not the only stressed one
we're all stressed together, somehow or rather, i feel that im not alone and i do feel better(:
i need to become stronger(:
and i shall work hard towards my goal(:
smile!(:
lyon
Saturday, February 06, 2010
7:37 PM
hellooo!(:
i'm like blogging again after so long!(:
this is going to be a super long post(:
post ME post
(:
yeps! i managed to hit ME(:
after so much struggling, ups and downs
although it's been only a month
somehow i feel that i've grown up so much
feels that a few months have just passed by(:
but i'm glad.
i'm glad i embarked on this path
people might think that i'm naive and impractical
but we only live once
i want to break out of my comfort zone
when i can still afford to do so (:
i don't want to leave any regrets and i want to constantly challenge myself(:
and eventually prepare myself to be the best social worker i can ever be(:
i could have never been a ME
without some people(:
these people have been my source of strength and motivation to go on(:
i know it might seem exaggerated but
i really mean what i say from the bottom of my heart(:
i've learnt how to appreciate more
i've learnt how to deal with negativity better
i've learnt how to pick myself up after each fall
i've learnt how to push myself beyond my limits
i've learnt the importance of giving a chance
i've learnt to protect my beliefs and fight for them
i've learnt so much and gained so much(:
it's something money can't buy.
of course, there's so much more to learn
and so much things that i have yet to master
but i'm glad(: because i'm confident that this job will definitely
train me and give me the skills to be a good social worker(:
i shan't write out the things i need to improve on
but i'll definitely write them down when i think i perfected them(:
this month certainly wasn't easy=/
but because of all the negativity
the little bits of positivity were enhanced(:
i must make sure i personally somehow thank all those who helped me in my ME journey(:
be it those who encouraged me , supported me and helped me
in all the different ways , financially or verbally
there's no way i can ever thank you all enough(:
because it means so much to me(:
and i realized life can be so ironic at times
people whom you thought would support and understand you
don't do so
and people whom you weren't very close to
were the ones who supported and understood you
but of course,
that's not always the case <33(:
anyhow, i feel stronger for the fact that
we cannot take people's help for granted
no matter how big or small it is
we must still show our appreciation(:
although ME is not a final destination,
i really have so much to thank each and everyone for(:
especially pple in red husky
especially my upline and downline(:
<333!!
i came across this phrase:
whatever you do, wherever you go,
don't judge people based on yourself.
101% true(:
it's because we are all different
and that makes our life unique and special to each of us(:
okayyy this post seems shorter than i imagined it to be o.o
anyway i think it's coz i din include all the people i want to appreciate and thank inside(:
but nvm,
you all know who you are
you all will hear from me soon(:
through this fight,
i also really understand
what it means by
if you really really want it,
chances are that you will get it
coz u will do everything you can to achieve your goal(:
that happened to me the night before i hit ME
i was so close and i just couldn't permit myself
to give up.
which im so glad i didn't(:
at least next time,
when people feel like giving up,
i can share my story(:
smile(:
lyon
Thursday, February 04, 2010
2:05 AM
hello(:
i'm really very thankful (:
i hope so much to get what i want.
and i hope so much to write my blog post
after i get what i want.
for now, its really wishing for the best(:
and anyway, i managed to touch a prospect
in terms of letting him understand the value of health(:
and i feel happy.(:
smile(:
lyon
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
12:53 AM
hello(:
i shall always be glad that
i know i'm not alone(:
jiayou!
smile(:
lyon
