hello.
damn it.
i'm sick :(
i hate it when I'm sick
because I get so sick of everything
and constantly feel frustrated, irritated and pissed off ><
but yet i need to keep it under wraps
because I have a habit of putting rest as second priority when I'm sick
and still have work to do.
" you're always sick."
whether it was a true comment, sarcastic comment or just a joke,
i realize this hurts.
especially if the person commenting has no right to comment in such a way.
oh well.
i just hope i get better(=
hello! (:
glad i stayed at home today!
tidied the house and helped my mother with her schoolwork.
and had the whole empty house to myself
i love the feeling of being able to do whatever i want.
FREEDOM. :)
went for a short walk in the evening
supposed to be a jog but i gave up halfway ><>
must start exercising le :(
anyway, i realised how much i missed walking and relaxing
just listening to music or enjoying the silence
and observing nature , feeling the breeze on my face
able to take deep breaths(:
pondered over the question of whether i am happy
and i realized that the choice to be happy lies with me(:
i can be unhappy with things not going the way i want
i can choose to be stressed or unhappy with little things in life
but that's only because i focus too much on those small little things
there's still so much in life for me to stay happy for
why let my happiness be decided by things?
why let my happiness be decided by people?
my happiness should be decided by me (:
actually, there's always a reason to stay happy,
even for every second:
be happy that you're alive (:
i remember coming across this phrase that
miracles are happening every second and every moment
because every breath is a miracle (;
there's a reason for everything.
just let my life run the way it's supposed to run
and learn to see things in a positive way (:
losses and gains are inevitable in life.
actually, the trick to living with a smile on your face
is to focus on the positive things in life(:
i have neglected this thought for quite long,
i want to be a positive symbol in people's lives.
(:
so what if things don't go my way?
how badly can i be affected?
i'll just move on as a stronger person.
smile (:
lyon
Sunday, June 20, 2010
10:24 PM
stop thinking so much.
TIRED.
Friday, June 18, 2010
10:30 PM
hello.
just a random thought.
no matter how bad you think your life may be,
there're always others that are worse off.
that's why. don't complain.
focus and just live life to the fullest(=
i don't like talking to people who are only concerned with commenting and saying out their opinion.
for goodness sake,
if you respect the person you're talking to,
you will give that person a chance to explain
and not anyhow scold that person, right?
and guess what?
you're a TEACHER.
so much for morals and values that you're supposed to teach.
that's why i'm biased against teaching.
there's nothing in the world that can make everyone happy
so just make sure you're happy can le. (=
12:22 AM
recently, someone asked me this question:
are you happy?
she told me not to tell her the answer. just tell it to myself.
suddenly, i realized happiness is perhaps just a certain perspective to life.
inner peace is the key to enjoying life to the fullest.(:
sometimes, i really wished things would go the way i want to.
sometimes, i really wished results would show faster
sometimes, i really wished i was more capable
but it gets tiring after awhile and i learn to accept this fact
just enjoy the process(:
if results don't come yet,
it just shows you're not ready.
age is my biggest asset now.
let's close our eyes and believe
(:
i want the positive lyon back again.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
12:08 AM
helloooo.
(=
today was an emotional day.
dunno why.
or maybe i know but i just choose to ignore it.
but there were certain things that happened.
certain people that brightened up my day :D
i want to try.
maybe it's time that i should really change,
but who will be the first lucky person?
or should i say unlucky =P
Thursday, June 10, 2010
12:32 AM
if someone ever asks me ,
what's your biggest flaw?
i would answer without hesitation.
" i think too much for others such that i pressurize myself to accommodate others."
sigh.
why am i like that?
damn it.
just shut up lah.
Sunday, June 06, 2010
10:50 PM
hello.
i feel like blogging but at the same time, I'm not sure what to blog.
sigh. so pathetic la.
but i do realize i'm feeling somewhat happier.
maybe letting go of negativity is the solution(:
focusing on solutions is what i need to do
to keep myself motivated =D
lyon, if you can do this,
you know you can be a social worker
without any worries.
jiayou!
Wednesday, June 02, 2010
1:10 AM
to succeed, one must learn to be not afraid. learn to overcome fear.
up till now, i have so many existing fears that are obstacles in my rocky route to success
but i shall overcome them, one by one.
find a simple solution to overcome them (:
challenges.
