hello!(:

ARGH. oops. i realised i saw wrongly ahha (:
sadly, my blog hasn't hit 1000 posts yet.
this is my 960th post so yeaa oh well, i'll just continue blogging like usual la(:
let fate decide when my 1000th post will be.

anyway, i feel super brain dead now:(
but i'm still attempting to draft up a list of things to do
so i'll feel motivated to do all of them!*hopefully

was online chatting with annabell too.
talking with her suddenly made me reflect on some issues that have been bugging me
1. my committment to SHG every sat plus huixin
2. whether i should try involving myself in uni activities or ccas


damn. suddenly feel very stressed about everything :(
if only i can handle things much better.
but OH WELL , everything happens for a reason
so trying to think positively, i'll just leave things to fate
and meanwhile try to improve myself la(:

afterall, its my life.
stay happy can le.

on a happier note,
i was quite touched by some of the things she said (:

i decided that to celebrate my blog's 1000th post ,

i shall blog that post on my birthday!(=

so if i want to blog anything from now to my birthday, i'll just keep editing this post

so to all those reading my blog, just scroll down and read to see if i have updated my blog okay!

the past week has been good (:

academically, although i am still lagging behind all my readings :(

at least my first tutorial went well (:

( apart from the fact that i have a graded presentation to do next tutorial. ahh. )

nvm, i shall work harder! :D

thankyou for specially accompanying me to collect it <3

but i still can't believe i lost my previous ez-link card. haiz.

met up and saw close friends whom i havent been seeing for quite a while!

pple like jinghuan, rebecca,jasmine, huikee (:

as well as bumping into pple like grace, chinghsien, geraldine etc haha(:

im glad i went even though i was very tired (: (:

it's been rather a reflective week for me too.

My volunteering session this week made me do quite alot of self-reflection.

i guess i was inspired by my partner,

by her enthusiasm and genuine care and concern for all the kids.

racking her brains for all possible methods to help them in their studies

really worrying for them - all these i observed while we were chatting on the way home.

cuz i was really surprised when she scolded the class at the end of the session.

( on a sidenote, i was really quite fierce to the kids for that session, maybe cuz i was hungry =p but most importantly, i felt i needed to step out of my comfort zone and not throw all the scolding jobs to my partner )

i suddenly realised that perhaps what i had been doing all along was simply

volunteering for the sake of volunteering

without that passion or that desire to impact the kids positively and really make them improve.

perhaps cuz its not a one to one thing which im more comfortable with,

so i tend to slack off abit for this cuz it's really much harder to reach out to so many kids

especially when theres only 2 of us volunteers ><

maybe i was exasperated with myself for not possessing the right kind of skills to handle them

but i know all these shouldn't be excuses for myself

on a more positive note,

i'll try harder to be a better person ,

there're still many people out there whom i believe i'll be able to help.

(:

i should learn to be more content . (:

everything will be fine in the end, if not, its not the end yet :)

hello!(:

i just realised that this is my 958th post! haha. soon i'll celebrate the 1000th post anniversary of my blog! (= LOL.

been blog reading quite abit recently , as well as reading my previous blog posts.
it kind of inspired me to blog more and so ta-dah! i shall make this a detailed blog post about my life nowadays (=

i realised i used to blog really often in the past.
from descriptive and childish posts to deeper and more matured posts
but ultimately, my purpose in keeping my blog and not making it private
still stays the same. (:
which is to spread some positivity around,
for people whom i care about to perhaps derive something inspirational here
and liven up their moods, lifting their spirits (=
that's the reason why i always feel really bad posting negative posts.

Stepping into university life has been good so far(=
O'week was a great start and i've made awesome friends
that im looking forward to spending future uni days with(=
as well as meeting you <3
my ultimate good karma! =D

Lectures have started and tutorials will be beginning this week.
I'm still struggling to get back into the mugging mood and trying to get my rusty brain working again.
Trying to kick away my procrastinating habits when it comes to studies
especially since there's like mountains of readings to be done, =(
ahh self-discipline la lyon.
but luckily, there's a new motivation for me to study nowadays =p
and i'm constantly kept in a good mood nowadays (:

anyway, i just managed to collate my timetable!
so proud of myself(: those who want to book me for anything, just let me know k,
i'll show u all my timetable!

talked to hidayat today!
so sorry for not contacting you for so long
but i'm really glad to be able to be there for you again (:
no matter how draining and tiring life might be for you,
no matter how negative everything might seem to you,
just rmb at least there's me, our friendship that should be able to provide you
some form of friendship and warmth (:
enough for you to look forward to fighting hard against all the obstacles k!
we both need to fight hard for our academics and stay positive ^.^

watched FMA episode 63 with my bro today for lunch
and there was a part that really impacted me.
to sacrifice his life for his brother, to save his brother
just like how his brother sacrificed his arm to save him at first
although this kind of scenario would probably never occur in real life
but the pure strong selfless love between the two brothers
does exist in real life(:
in many forms, love in the form of kinship,family, couples and even simple love and friendship
between two individuals.
sometimes when we're too overwhelmed by everything in our life,
we tend to neglect the fact that as long as there're people in our life
willing to be there for us, we're actually lucky people that should count our blessings.(:

thats why despite certain recent problems that have occured in my family,
i tell myself that there are definitely other people that have it worse than me
and if they are still staying strong, positive and not complaining,
i don't see why i also can't be stronger and more positive ,
especially since i'm aspiring to become a social worker in future.

plus, there are so many
reasons for me to stay happy (=
especially nowadays.
^_^ i feel really blessed nowadays.
a combination of many reasons la (:

and anw HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIKEE (:
you'll receive my bday sms before 12pm tonight :D
we've known each other since primary 4
been through the 6 years in dhs
and now we're in NUS together
although i havent seen u for damn long( must meet up soon lah! )
but i guess both of us know deep in our hearts
that true friends don't need to be that kind that u see everyday
or meet up very often
so no matter what, our friendship will last strong all the way :P
stay happy and smile k! ^.^

okayy, that shall be all for now (:


smile(:

hello(:

just came back from sending yujia off at the airport.

was really glad i went to send her :D
initially i was deciding about whether to make this trip
but i'm really happy that i made the effort to go and pass her my note(:
afterall, for my whole 6 years in DHS, we were classmates <3
saw a few 6C12 pple that i havent saw for quite long heh :D
it's quite a touching farewell scene that i saw
and i really admire the courage in those pple who are or had gone overseas to study
cuz if it was me, i doubt i'll have that courage. =/
really very glad that i made it in time , thanks pig <33!
thanks for accompanying me today (=
it's really really a very blissful feeling to know that you're not alone
and there's someone there with you (:

it's not about the time spent together,
it's about the memories and smiles created every moment :D

smile (=

hello(:

now i know what and how it feels like to have a special someone with you <3

lots of first times today(:
lots of smiling and melting today(:
lots of happiness today(:

and i know there's more to come =p

sometimes i think that maybe my good karma is really here. haha.

ahh. everythings too sweet, i better watch out for diabetes >< :D and so should you (=

smile(:

hello(:

i guess it's really true that there's a balance in life
for everything.
whenever there are happy moments, there must be sad moments.

i hate sad moments =(
because i feel damn alone, vulnerable and miserable
and i need to spend time to heal myself back to normal.
starting from today,suddenly, the stress and pressure on me seems to have increased
an overwhelming struggle that i don't want yet cannot not think about it.
oh well. ><

but on a brighter note,
recently there's been this pig that has just appeared in my life (=
with an amazing ability of making me smile at any point , anytime and anywhere.
that has allowed me to keep my spirits up in the midst of unhappiness and negativity
and for that, i'm still thankful for everything (=

thankyou<3

i feel that i have so much things to do
so much to learn, so much to handle
but i'll just keep doing my best
and continue believing that

everything will be fine in the end,

if not, its not the end yet. (=

jiayou!!

smile xD

hellloo(:

okayy i know i should go sleep now
but i just can't resist dropping a quick post now.

i feel very lucky, blessed, happy and loved <33

now i know what it means :D

smile(:

lyon

hello!(:

i'm a happy lucky girl!

:D

hello! (:

i'm happy.

haven't felt so happy for quite a while :D

firstly,
i got one of the best OG I could have (:
when i see the photos up one by one on fb of o week, i just cant help but smile =)
think it was a very memorable week for me!
looking forward to OG outing tmr!<33

also, i cleared my cupboard today!
and in the process, i dug out all the notes, cards, postcards, gifts etc
that my friends had given to me for the past 6 years in dunman high (=
all the little bits and pieces of love and warmth conveyed through the words, drawings and photos- it suddenly dawned on me what a lucky girl i had been (:

i know i have friends that will definitely be there for me when i need them.
one thing that i agree with py is that true friends need not always be those that
see each other every day or have the same interest etc
it's just something special , a special bond that connects two people together ,
a certain trust thats been formulated by time (:
and i strongly believe in creating this bonds and maintaining it with pple i treasure(:
so although i will have lesser time to meet up with friends,
i'll still be wishing the best for them!

actually, despite certain resentment and unhappiness,
i know that i'm a very fortunate girl and i should learn to count my blessings
because there are people out there who have much lesser than what i have =/
and it makes me want to learn how to show my appreciation much more.
oh well, i'll just jiayou (:

aiyoo i suddenly realised i have so much uni stuff to settle ahha
but i'm still procrastinating- argh bad habit.

just do my best lah :D

morning! (=

just came back from FASS O'WEEK 2010! :D

it was one of the best camps i had ever gone to (:
the programmes, places, games, HTHT
and most importantly, the people there (:
ARIEL <33
it made me look forward to every day of the camp
despite the fact that i only had a few hours of sleep each day.

it's a splendid new beginning to uni life (:

shall blog a more detailed post next time!