I AM HAPPY. (:

I AM SO HAPPY TO BE PLACEMENT MATES WITH CHARMAINE AND DOREA =D

YAY(:

i am tired, i'll elaborate another time :D

hello.

i'm currently feeling pretty horrible now.

I believe it's the coffee that I drank just now that amplified negative feelings within me from not-so-good incidents. Rahh.

I made a mistake today. Oh well, yea mistakes happen, they are inevitable and therefore, I should not be too harsh on myself. Sometimes, while your mind is really positive and everything, your heart just doesn't follow it. You just feel a little... down. Normal I guess- everyone has their down moments. It is during times like this that I wish my heart and brain could be synchronized.

I feel like blogging so much but then, I don't know what to blog, how to spill out the headache and down feelings I'm suffering from now. I think a good sleep will be the best remedy. (:

Don't get me wrong, I'm not deterred by today's negativity. There is still positivity in the negativity that I am truly thankful for. But, it's just that I need to face myself amidst the negativity to grow and be a stronger person.

I must not let irrational beliefs and thoughts secretly creep into me and cloud my perceptions.

Goodnight and I believe that tomorrow will be a better day. (=

hello(:

here to drop a quick post because i know there are some people out there like my godbrother who looks forward to getting updated on my life =D

Anyway, it's my 2nd week into field placement!
Apart from the tiring work hours and travelling, I must say that I'm kind of looking forward to everyday because of all the new things that I can learn. (: I know it will get busier and busier but I'm all charged up and ready for it!

there are times when i feel so overwhelmed and lost in all the theories and knowledge about social work and even anxious when i do not seem to have enough to keep myself busy for now. but these are all normal fears and obstacles, ultimately i must have faith and acknowledge that every moment is a moment for learning, regardless of what i am actually doing.

(; i enjoyed today <3

jiayou!

hello(:

it's the 3rd day of my 4 day holiday (:

i'm really happy with how i spent the past 2 of my precious holidays =) tiring but satisfyingly happy and so , i'm here to blog about them to keep them as memories for the future(:

i already blogged about what happened on thursday so i shall blog about what happened yesterday!

:D

The day started with meeting HuiKee and Jasmine for CYCLING! :D It's been so long since I cycled! I love cycling (: Just feeling the wind in your face and feeling so free to do anything I want, travel anywhere I want to or just shouting out to the world that EXAMS ARE OVER-- FREEDOM :D I want to cycle again soon! :D

The only bad thing was the horrible bicycle seat that made our butts sore -.- AND the scorching sun! I'm now tanned unevenly cuz I wore a t-shirt- SIGH. haha(: but nevertheless, to just chill and exercise( after so long) and talking while cycling, laughing over the double bike and single bike and all of us longing for cold drinks after everything was over was simply - a very very happy outinG(: Had lunch at jacks place after that and I bought my jeans , like finally! I think I'm spending rather impulsively for the past 2 days- i believe it's liberation euphoria and the sad fact that I have to go for attachment for 10 weeks, starting from monday , which means no time to do much stuff T.T Anyway, because I had another outing after that, we couldn't go and sing:( but but but I'm looking forward to our next singing outing and maybe ice-skating outing! :D

Talking about primary school stuff, secondary school stuff and simply just chatting and catching up makes me feel very happy about our friendship - it's about 7 years friendship with jasmine and a decade of friendship with huikee! and I hope our friendship lasts all the way <3

And so I rushed home after that to bathe and change and prepare for my next outing with the NUSPA people! :D Rebecca, Xueting, LiangCe, Sean, Ericssen (: Although I didn't participate much in the meetings and didn't get to know some of them well, I'm really happy I went for this outing cuz I realise that we can all click quite well :D They are nice people to go out with(: and YES I can't wait for the time whereby junya is back and the 4 of us can have an outing and go sing! :)

Anyway, we went clarke quay to eat and we actually went Zirca(: haha it's like a first time experience to see how clubbing is like, although I didn't get to see because I left rather early. And that was because my dear boyfriend who was worried about me came all the way , ps-ed his friends for movie and even spent money on entering the club even though he thought going clubs are a waste of money , just to make sure I was safe and to send me home <3 <3 I think a balance between personal wants and thinking for each other is going to last us through our lifetime <3

And so, that concludes my second day of holiday! Today's the third day(: Slacking at home now and perhaps looking at my placement stuff. >< And then going to visit my cousin at the hospital. And there's an outing with carine huiting weijie huiming daniel and brandon ang later! (: Can't wait :D


Keep smiling people (:

YES!!! FINALLY LIBERATION =D

i love the smell of liberation and although it's like only for a few days since attachment starts next monday...

BUT LIBERATION IS STILL LIBERATION ^^ :)

happy happy (:

and i heard that my supervisor is very good! :D YAY!

i really enjoyed today! Social work outing at VIVO (: alot of talking, playing monopoly deal, saboteur and laughing and shopping!!! :D such a shiok lifestyle, like seriously! :D
Able to just enjoy and slack without feeling any nagging urge to study (: seriously fantastic!

And next met up with godbro! (: Talk, walk and talk :D thanks for rationalizing with me and making me feel better about my impulsive buying HEHE. and congrats for the improvement!! all the best, godsis will be rooting for you!

im determined to enjoy the rest of my days (:

smile people :D

YAY TMR CYCLING AND LUNCH AND MAYBE SINGING AND OUTING AT NIGHT ! :D

Damn it. 2 more freaking papers to go
and this two are like the most important papers to me
and yet i feel so unmotivated and so sian of studying :(

i've been really slack for exams this time
and while i feel guilty and worried,
i still succumb to temptations over and over again.

perhaps i'm just sick of studying.
i don't know.

i admire people who can really discipline themselves to chiong all the way
and while some part of me feels that YES I CAN DO IT TOO
another part just overpowers it and says that YAH RIGHT OF COZ YOU CAN'T DO IT.

Perseverance is tiring.
;(

ARGH.

it's good living in self-denial sometimes.

i can't find that spark i had in me to study for social work. whyyyyyyyy.
why is it that when you have your direction in life there for you , you get complacent and get lost in it.
do i just need encouragement or is it scolding that i need?

SIGH such a depressing post and I suspect that when I really feel like giving up,
I probably might just do the bare minimum and believe in my luck.
that's what i did once, i didn't really study and i tried to use my psychological approach.
BUT ARGH. :( pathetic me :(

siannn. i just feel like ranting on and on
but i still have a sensible mind that's constantly bugging me for what a failure i have become

and so don't worry, i guess i'll force myself to study ... somehow.

I WANT THURSDAY TO COME NOW :'( SOBS.