Accepting.
means not just to just blindly accept
but to find out , to process and explore what you think you cannot accept
before making a decision if it's worth it to accept.

Blindly accepting everything without asking why, without asking how come,
or just without knowing what you are really accepting
is just going to lead to chaos at the end.

sometimes, i feel tired.
sometimes, the disgusting surge of emotions run through me
insecurity, fear, sadness, annoyance, helplessness
it's irritating because everytime i get through this emotions and feel that i have conquered them,
they return again and again.

and then i think..
perhaps this is how life should be?
perhaps this is how living should be like?
there's no way that someone can not feel negative emotions in his/her whole life,
or at least that's what i believe.
because life is about balance, balancing two opposite ends of everything.
we want something but it might affect another thing and so what happens? we need to find a balance , which when we can't , we become indecisive and we sometimes get so frustrated we make the wrong decisions.

while life is about balance,
life is also about choices.
we choose how we want to think, how we want to feel , what we want to do.
It's true that sometimes the things we want to choose are beyond our control
but what we can do is to focus on what we can choose.

choose to be contented, choose to cherish, choose to treasure
choose to stay happy, choose to be who we are, choose to live life to the fullest
choose whatever we can choose because sometimes, the best things in life come from being
able to make choices for ourselves.(:

hello(:

i realized it's been a long time since i've updated this blog.

well, firstly, placement is over! Good and bad. But what's irking me the most is the assignment
that i have to do by next week :( Sian. But, oh well, what has to be done has to be done, it's just a matter of sooner or later, i guess.

Because of this assignment, i feel pretty restrained in terms of going out with friends and yea,
enjoying the little bit of holidays that i have. The funny thing is that I know once I finish my assignment, I can do that but sigh. i'm a born procrastinator la.

Yesterday was fantastic(: to be able to enjoy it without a worry in the world and having the best company in the world just makes me smile. <3

I've been hooked on idol dramas recently.. yea.. a little amazing because i don't let myself
get hooked on idol dramas recently but ta-dah here i am, hooked on them :D
perhaps it's just my tired soul looking for comfort in the virtual romantic world,
to pull myself away from the work of reality.

Jiayou people!(:

hello(:

i'm blogging a quick post here (:
because i'm basking in the sweetness of the idol drama Love Keeps Going :D
yup, i know , it's rare for me to follow an idol drama
but i find this drama very captivating (:
and i find some similarities between me and the female character in the show (:
it's important to live for myself and live knowing what I like and what I want.
sometimes, i get too caught up in the ideal of living of others that I neglect my needs and wants
so that's something i need to be realistic and balance.

today's volunteer development session was fantastic!(:
i'm so happy that we pulled it off and everyone appeared to enjoy it (:
i'm glad i managed to make improvement (: and i actually managed to draw people's attention(:
it's a little nolstagic, knowing that this is the last working opportunity the three of us have with FeiYue..
10 weeks.. of fun, laughter, smiles and love :)
one of the best experiences of my life,
something to look back upon with a smile,
thanks to everyone in -p180 and FeiYue youth division
and of course, especially
my two irreplaceable splendid placement mates!!
Charmaine and Dorea <3

i feel thankful. (: